I guess I’ll start out with the review of the crappy book I read this weekend


The Shipping News, By E. Annie Proulx, 337 pages

This book tells the story of a man, born and raised in New York, who after losing his adulterous was killed in a terrible car crash, decides to retreat with his two young daughters to an old family home in Newfoundland. It’s a pretty typical tale of someone who is at “rock bottom” and takes a chance at being
content. As a Pulizer Prize winner I guess I expected more, but even 100 pages into it I started guessing that the reviewers fell asleep while reading it and just dreamed it was a good book. A little harsh? Maybe. I think it’s just one of those books that they will make kids read in high school and pull all
sorts of deep meaning out of, which we all know to be complete bs! The characters were boring, story-line predictable, and the setting couldn’t have been more dull. I only finished it because it’s one of the last books on my shelf I hadn’t read…


I hate it when books suck.


I went to amazon.com to see what other people thought, and I found that half of them agreed with me, and the other half said it was so great and critized the others for not recognising great prose when they see it, Pulizer suckups… This one guy (who I agree with obviously) said: “the book should have been titled The Misadventures of a Loser who Obviously Cannot get through anything in life and who doesn’t even try” heh… I also found out the are making, made? A movie about it… there is a trailer *goes to watch trailer* Right, so I booted into windows to see the trailer, and before it even started I was startled to learn that Kevin Spacey was cast in the main role… now maybe if a Kevin Spacey *type* character was in the BOOK I might have liked it more, but he doesnt fit the role at all! The character in the book was a fat, clumbsy, loser of a man; I can’t see spacey being that… in the trailer he definately was not fat. And the character of Wavey is NOT portrayed well either (through the trailer anyway). I think the only character well-presented was the dead wife of Quoyl, a character that could have been played by tons of different hollywood whoreish actresses. And apparently the movie is on DVD already… with the impressive cast list I’m surprised I had never even heard ot it… Anyway…


I got my bathing suit in the mail on saturday, and it actually fits pretty flatteringly, why do I still think I’m fat all the time? Maybe leftover self-image issues from high school. Speaking of high school, I took the link to that CEHS thing off my site. No one responded, maybe for the better, it was a dumb idea anyway, there are only a couple people I knew in high school I’d like to talk to, the rest can probably go into the “i hate you” catagory. Damn high school sucked.


So Myk was working on minute a lot this weekend, it’s a faster machine for second (uh, yea, for some reason the faster the computer gets the higher incrimint of time we name it (second, minute, hour.. seems backwards huh? It is.) so it should work better as being the gateway/firewall on our network… I spend time reading a lousy book, which put me in a pretty crankie mood all day saturday, and when I’m crankie I usually look depressed and feel like doing nothing. I did play UT for a little while tho, that was fun… it’s nice to have a bunch of real people come together and play sometimes. I guess all we did other than that was go out for sushi last night, then watch adult swim *shrugs* it was late by the time finished dinner at the sushi place so the bookstores were closed *sigh* guess what I’m reading? Yep Celestine Prophecy, and already I disagree with it… it might progress well and my issues with it might be resolved somehow with more explaination, so I guess I shouldn’t jump to conclusions.


I did a lot of thinking this weekend, since I had all sorts of time to think in between terrible pages of The Shipping News and realized how this point in life really sucks. Between childhood/school age and adulthood, trying hard to grasp at something real, trying hard to finally grow up and do something that matters. I think every one of the people I know who is my age is feeling that at the moment. Maybe it’s the crappy economy, maybe ’cause it’s summertime and we are thinking back to summer vacation and knowing that we dont/wont have it anymore. Whatever it is it’s very nice to know that I’m not alone in my “depression” of being lost. I do have an advantage however… Myk. I am not alone through this, and although he’s older than me he’s not so much that he forgot what it’s like to go through this… and having someone love you is definately helpful when looking into the vast expanse of “wtf am I going to do for the next 60 years of my life?” And he makes enough to take care of me, which leads me to another point. I’m a woman so it’s more socially acceptable to be a “housewife” and work from the home if my career plans don’t work out. Then again if I was a man maybe I’d have some sort of natural drive to pursue a career.. *shrugs* I’ll never know, I have no idea what it’s like being a man, that would be weird. Anyway, I guess all i’m saying is that it seems pretty common at my age to be depressed about not going anywhere, not making progress… but everyone grows up eventually and finds their place, we can’t ALL be failures.


Oh I did end up working on that starwars section of my site… It’s cleaner looking anyway, even if it’s not terribly pretty, I am thinking of creating a new CSS file for sites like the SWS one and the MSG one, ’cause the blue links just look awful… *shrugs* I never got around to cleaning up the MSG pages, I did upload some mp3s tho, I should remake my MSG mp3 section.


Anyway, it’s almost noon, I should probably find something to do today. I thought about going swimming this afternoon, but it’s already over 90 degrees, so I am not looking forward to walking across the complex to the pool… We’ll see.