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It’s like 6 am when I am starting this… can’t sleep. I got up at around 5:15 after I awoke from a bad dream and realized I wasnt gonna fall back asleep. I hate bad dreams. In this one some perv messaged me in chat and Myk saw it and freaked thinking I knew this person for some reason. I dunno why I’d have a dream like that, it as really fucked up… maybe I’m paranoid. Or it’s just a backlash from when I was dating my ex and my every move was suspicious to him. I would never cheat on Myk tho’ … I’m crazy about him.

Anyway, I was depressed again yesterday afternoon. Dunno what it was, I think it started ’cause I realized I hadnt been out of the house since last friday. Sometimes I think something is seriously wrong with me for having all this depression, it definately sucks, i have everything i want… But I did discover how great Radiohead is when you’re depressed… i have a bunch of Radiohead mp3s… a bunch I got after that week I spent in rochester with my friend Pete. See one night we were at his friend’s house drinking screwdrivers and smoking up… I got so messed up that night, and his friend had just gotten some radiohead singles and was playing them, I was totally loving it. We also watched this movie that was all ambient music with random scenes of stuff, I swear I wouldnt have enjoyed it so much if I wasnt fucked up %) Anyway it was a fond memory so I got the radiohead mp3s to remember it by.. getting on with it…
Myk came home, and then left again last night to go to Beer Club… it’s a bunch of home brewers that get together.. myk only went ’cause the guy running it has a linux system and was having trouble with it. When he came home around 9ish he brought home chinese, and complained that the people at beerclub were a bunch of alcoholics.. hehe. Anyway, by that time i had a bit of a headache, ick, and we just ate dinner and watched Toy Story (Myk had never seen it… and for some reason the cable was out…). Then I went to try to read, but with a headache it was kinda difficult… *shrugs* I just decided to go to sleep… so I guess i must have fallen asleep a little before midnight… must have been too early since I am up now %)

But I think I am gonna go back and snuggle with Myk for a little while before he has to get up for work… bbl.

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