Tool – Parabola

I love sleep. Unfortunately I now have trouble sleeping in an irregular schedule, maybe it’s part of getting old? Hehe. I went to bed around 3 last night, woke up again today around 9:30 and couldnt go back to sleep, I could take a nap later, bleh.

We’re gonna go out for pizza later, Joseph’s Pizza in Philadelphia %d we havent gone in a couple months (since we got crappy service) and I really miss that three cheese spinach pizza! We’ll probably have a fire in the fireplace tonight and use up the last of the wood… and we’ll carve our pumpkins tonight.

We just got the tracking number on just the RAM coming from newegg… I don’t know why they won’t ship it all together, but it’s pretty obvious that it’s not going to come this week %( I told Myk when it does come *hopefully* next week that we should just wait til the weekend to put everything together, so I’m not helplessly without a computer at any time during the week, and Myk will be stressed out ’cause the week back to work will be insanely busy, I dont want him to have to be stressed out about putting together a crankie computer. Anyway it is disappointing that we won’t be getting it this week.

So last night I sat down to start reading The Outline of History, Volume II and I open it up and it starts telling me history of around 800 AD. The Volume I copy I have ends around 200 BC, I am missing a millennium!!! The birth of Christ, the rise and fall of the Roman Empire, and countless other very important events. This is most of the very important stuff I wanted to read about! ARG! I assumed, despite the difference in publishing dates, they would remain mostly consistent with the volume numbers. Bleh, it sucks. So I put that book down and picked up Book 7 of Robert Jordan’s Wheel of Time series and started reading it.

So I was reading Leslie2003‘s weblog, and she ranted about something I fully agree with, I left a comment but decided to continue my rant here instead of there, hehe. Some person in a class of hers is doing an article on the “Spongbob Squarepants Craze”. This opened up an interesting rant about teenagers currently having obsessions with cartoons, and how Hot Topic (supposedly a ‘goth’ store) is carrying all sorts of cartoon related merchandise. I remember the first time I saw huge posters and displays in Hot Topic about spongbob squarepants, I was quite upset ’cause I was going in there to check out some of their uber goth black dresses for Halloween. A month before Halloween and the ‘goth’ store is advertising some bad Nickelodeon cartoon?! I’d think they’d be having a 3 month Halloween celebration! But no, they have bright white and yellow cardboard cutouts filling up their windows. It was too much.

So this leads me to the REAL rant I want to make. I hate posers. The renewed interest in old cartoons, and new bad cartoons (the new cartoons craze no doubt spurred on completely by Marketing, like Leslie said), is the perfect example of people taking something that at 11 they forsook as “childish” and “not cool” and embracing it because it’s cool again. Now of course they will say “oh, I liked it all along, I was just embarrassed by it, teehee” right, you have your private stock of Rainbow Brite movies in your closet? “of course not” WELL SOME OF US REALLY DO. When I was in high school (oh years and years ago, haha) it was cool to have Winnie the Pooh stuff, and a lot of the people I knew did, but I didn’t, Winnie the Pooh was alright but I could never have called myself a fan. I was insanely crazy about Disney. Disney clothes, Disney bed sheets, Disney binders and folders and pencils, my whole bedroom was a Disney black hole. And did I do this because I thought it was cool? Did I venture out to the theater to see EVERY full length animated feature that came out for Disney on opening day (or before that if i could get advanced tickets) purely for social gain? Absolutely not! I am sure people looked at me funny because of my strange obsession, and I really didn’t care. I wasn’t about to go hiding my interests because they weren’t cool anymore. I never hit that “teenager stage” where I got rid of all my old kid stuff and decided to grow up because it wasnt cool anymore. I played with My Little Ponies through the 8th grade! I had a whole ‘town’ of stuffed animals that played with all through high school, I STILL have a Lion King comforter on my bed. And that quite possibly makes me crazy, but at least I’m a very happy crazy person, the same of which cannot be said about a lot of people. The people who sadly chose to hide their true loves for the sake of “being cool”.

Now this brings me to saying how wonderful Myk is %) One of my mother’s bit of wisdom she ever gave me that was worth anything was telling me that when I find someone to spend the rest of my life with, they must allow me to keep my child’s heart, and accept all my eccentricities, or else I will never be happy. Now this may seem obvious, but I was very unpopular in high school, and didn’t start dating really until very late in my senior year, and even then it was online relationships. I had this great fear of rejection, so in one very long relationship (the really crappy one before Myk, where I lived in NY and worked at a gas station to support us) I was forced to keep my stuffed animals in a closet and my Disney movies shoved in the back of the video cabinet. Why after all this time spent in high school not caring did I finally push this all away? Because I finally had someone who “loved” me laughing in my face about it all and I thought for a moment that maybe he was right and I needed to push these things away to grow up. What a fool I was! I was miserable! When I started dating Myk I realized that I NEVER wanted to be in such a situation again, so right away I told him how I slept with stuffed animals, and yes there was a cow pillow on my bed and how much I loved the Disney posters around my room. He thought it was all fine. And when I moved here with him I had a garbage bag full of stuffed animals that I just put in the closet.. and then one day I came out of the computer room to see what Myk was doing in our bedroom and I found he was taking them all out of the bag and putting them around the room, I almost cried, I was so happy. So from a rant to how wonderful it is to be in a relationship where the person loves you so much that they let you get away with all your strangeness, yay tangents!

So before I get carried away (ahahhaa) I guess I’ll go.. it’s freaking cold in here, we havent turned the heat on this year yet, I can take it! Hehe… it’s only 40 degrees outside, and in here it still must be at least 60. Bed is so warm… going back now…