Foo Fighters – Walking After You

Bleh… So about my last entry… I was in a bit of a lousy mood… had a headache from allergies that wouldn’t go away. Then I found out someone invited another lamer from scifi onto the server. I immediately banned him from all my rooms, the last thing I needed was him causing trouble. I had a bit of a discussion with one of my friends about what this kid had done, and it was all fine. So I come back on this morning and he’s unbanned from #brit-cit … of course I banned him again and then this ‘friend’ of mine gets all pissed ’cause he was the one who invited him here. GAH! Just yesterday I had made it clear that he wasn’t welcome, and he had agreed! I don’t know what makes people change their mind like this, it’s really frustrating. Anyway, I have this kid on ignore… he pm’ed me yesterday and called me a lamer… which just cuts him off the “second chance” list all together.


He’s stupid:


– bluefox83- hey you knwo where i can download slackware ?
-@PrincessLeia2- linuxiso.org
– bluefox83- well i’m getting kazaa and imesh =)


He’s insulting:

(while in a discussion about pirating software)


-@PrincessLeia2- i do illegal stuff on my computer all the time
-@PrincessLeia2- hehe
– bluefox83- cyber sex isn’t illegal :P
-@PrincessLeia2- wtf?


He’s annoying… once pasted a huge log into chat after someone said they didnt want to see it, and wouldnt read it if he emailed it to them.

Not even to mention all the crap that started this all… I told him that his bot was not allowed to be opped, and I deopped it, which of course led to his responce of deopping me and kicking me!

I wouldn’t normally go on like this, this kind of behavior is quite normal… FOR SCIFI! But I left scifi, and when I left I made it QUITE clear that I left (and I said this exactly) “because of people like bluefox”. Now I can’t even be comfortable on MY OWN SERVER because people choose to invite kids like this. And of course Yoshi (who is GREAT buddies with one of the servers we are linked to), intentionally made this all worse by saying that he was welcome to come on THEIR server… so giving him a global ban would only cause problems among ircops, and I don’t want that. So I just left the room; if they want a little mini scifi then that’s their business, but I won’t be part of it.

I know I shouldn’t take things in chat so seriously, it’s just I get so frustrated sometimes… I just want to chat and avoid lamers, and I am
consistantly finding it’s not possible, even on a server I partially own…heh END rant.



Anyway, enough about chat, no one really cares anyway, and I’m just upset… I won’t let it bother me for too long, I was getting too into chat anyway, I should decrease the number of rooms I’m in and focus on stuff I am working on more anyway. Like learning PHP, I was really getting into that and then just sorta dropped it… I mean I’m still interested in learning it, I just wandered off to chat, and wasted my time a few too many times % Anyway, yeah… I’ll chat less noew.

So I was thinking recently, after reading something in my friend Reichelle’s blog… she mentioned how she was 20 years old and still felt like she was a kid. That really got me thinking about how I’ve ALWAYS felt going into new situations. I recall when I was about 7 years old, looking up at the big high schoolers and wondering when I would “change” to be like they are… then of course when I was in high school being startled by the realization that I still felt the same way I did when I was 7… there was no cataclysmic change that took place to change me, it was gradual, and I learned a lot along the way to help me cope with what I was facing. Of course I was still terrified %) But I went through all sorts of experiences then that prepared me for the next, and each time, although I didn’t feel I was ready, I made it through. And now, when I look back at high school, I realize again how much I’ve changed… there are so many little things I can do now that I couldnt do then! And yet I still feel like a 7 year old in an “adult” world. I have caught myself saying “when I grow up” so many times it’s become a joke between Myk and I. I know this all is pretty logical and obvious to everyone, it’s just interesting that while there is a noticable difference between child-teenager-adult we are still the same person, and dont see that change. I think this is the reason for “this part of life” (18-25) being consistantly called the hardest. We are making a significant change in ourselves, learning to live on our own, trying to find our “place” in life… and it’s all quite scary O_O.

Hmmm… ah we were going to go to a LAN party this weekend… but I think we sorta decided against it. Apparently the place that is having it allows smoking, and people smoke A LOT %( I guess it’s at someone’s house, but still… I dont think I’d do well being around cigarette smoke for that long, since I’m sorta allergic. It’s a bit disappointing.. but I’d prolly just be all shy and withdrawn like I usually am around people I don’t know.

Anyway… I have decided on the motherboard, processor, and ram I want! I am going to the the ASUS P4S8X (i think i mentioned wanting it previously) Motherboard… it’s nice, but I am having a difficult (IMPOSSIBLE) time finding a place that sells it without onboard sound and lan… which are optional per the manufacturer, but no one seems to want to sell them like that. Which is strange… I mean seriously, if someone is getting the board for the fast AGP (slot for crazy wonderful graphic cards), do you think they are gonna want the crappy 6-channel sound that comes on the board? I don’t. But since it is so impossible to find one that doesnt have this I think I will just have to deal with getting onboard sound. There ARE ways to bypass it, hopefully I can do that in the bios so I can use my SB Live card (some cards require you to make software changes, others bios, and some actually require hardware changes with jumpers…)… but then I was thinking about it all, and realized how I probably wouldn’t notice the difference, since I have absolutely no ear for music. So if it comes down to it, and I have a TON of trouble bypassing the onboard sound I can just live with it, my speakers arent very good anyway and prolly arent utilizing the quality my card offers anyway. Moving on, I am going to get a 2.0 GHZ Pentium 4. I looked at prices, and that’s the fastest I can get without a $60 price jump. And I’m getting one 512 mb chip of pc2700 ddr ram… those cost about $150 (for good ram, not cheap stuff) … The board can handle up to 1 gig chips, but those cost upwards of $400 %o! I dont think I want to pay $400 for a ram chip… And so i figure I’ll get a 512 chip… if i want more later I can just throw another 512 in there and it’ll be very happy (there are 3 slots… so in theory i could get up to 3 gigs of rd ram in there %d!). Oh and I discovered I need at least a 300 watt power supply. I don’t know what I have now, but I doubt it’s that much. So yesterday I was wandering around looking for powersources… I want cheap, powerful and quiet… is that possible?! %) I read the reviews of some of the cheaper ones… one said “my diesel truck is quieter” I dont think I want that one..
Ok, it’s almost 11, I’m gonna go actually get some work done noew… writing has calmed me down %) *forgets stupid chat problems and wanders off to do some work*