Michael and I are starting to get more into exploring spirituality in a group setting, spurred on by our need for someone to marry us. These past couple weeks Michael has been doing a lot of exploring of websites and contacting pagans in our area. We’re planning on going to a couple meetings in the near future. This search for someone to marry us has again made me look at how much I lack as far as spirituality. I can say that I’m an atheist, cast my rune stones, but there is something missing when I get into lousy, hopeless moods. Some days I just can’t pull myself up by my bootstraps.
But honestly, that’s ALL I’m missing in life right now. I’ve never been this happy before, I never thought I’d be this happy. Even a year ago when I felt great and didn’t think better was possible, I have learned that it is.
I have Michael, we have a house, we both have good jobs, the only debt we have is our home mortgage, we’re healthy, we have great friends, we live in a nice area, we have the greatest cat ever. Things have really come together for us. The pessimist inside of me keeps warning me to watch my back because things can’t possible stay this good.