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So I am in a lousy mood again. Maybe it’s because of the rainy weather (er at least it was rainy last time I checked, like 3 hours ago). Still it’s all cloudy out… and although I used to love rainy weather I think now it might make me feel more trapped, unfortunately I know if I had a car I’d just be bored AND spending money and wasting gas getting lost.

So in an attempt to alleviate my boredom I *finally* got around to doing something with Princessleia2.com. That’s the domain that Myk bought for me back in September before we were dating, and since I got Princessleia.com I sorta just put a huge message on princessleia2 saying I had abandoned it and to go to princessleia.com. Well considering I was being snobby by having TWO domains and not using them (ah most people dont even have one) I thought I should do something with it, ’cause it was just a waste of space. So I pretty much deleted everything on it this morning (it’s all on princessleia.com now so I didnt really need it). Then I made Princessleia2.com into an about me page… Damn, is that even *More* snobby? Nah it’s just self centered. Hmm, what *was* I supposed to do with a domain that is my online nickname? I was gonna turn it into the #13thHour page, but then I remembered that I am letting it expire in september so that would be dumb. Anyway, it’s not like anyone will go to the page anyway… but just in case it’s better than an abandoned page. I’m rambling. But when I mentioned the #13thHour page I wandered over to see if 13thHour.com or anything like it was available yet… 13th-hour.org is… but I dunno… maybe I should just wait a couple more years, hehe, seeing as 13thhour.org is a strange bible ministry site (really, go see for yourself).

So in other exciting news, I am using the oven for the first time today… see it’s a new oven, only about a month old.. I making myself some little pizzas for lunch out of rolls and some tomato sauce and mozerella cheese. I really didnt want fake pizza like that… I could have gone for some nice papa johns delivery… but dispite the amount of money at my disposal it’s all in the bank, no cash… I think delivery places should take credit cards, like over the phone when you place your order you can pay then, it would make things much nicer, because then I’d have real pizza. And papa johns has a nice “order online” thing, it would be SO easy for them to accept credit cards through that! And while I’m at it, all chinese places should deliver, I know that some do, but never any that I live around %(! Ah, this wouldnt be such a problem if I just had a car, or decent public transportation.

*Sighs and eats her homemade pizza* So anyway, it’s friday again… which is good ’cause Myk will be home with me all weekend and I wont get so lonely. It seems like that’s all I ever have to look forward to. I was thinking this morning (well I think this a lot) about how much of a failure I am. Not in the “oh man I suck *cry*” way, but in the contributing member of society way. I keep trying to convince myself that I am learning lots of stuff that I’ll “someday apply to computer related projects I’ll work on” … but I’ve been unemployed for over 6 months, and my skills are barely better than they were when I had a job. So then I try to justify my staying home by saying “oh women didnt work much out of the at all before the whole womens rights stuff!” But then I try to think about what women did do, and I picture my grandmother, who did TONS of volunteer work and was a prominent person in the community, but she always had been.. was head cheerleader and all that *sigh* … so then I think of what it is to be a “homemaker” now-a-days and I cant escape the stereotypical “sitting in a trailer part with curlers and fluffy pink slippers and bathrobe watching soaps all day” … and that’s not me at all either. I guess I’ll go back to telling everyone I am learning programming languages so someday if i need a job I’ll get one in that sort of field. But then there is the whole college thing. Sure I want to improve my math skills, sure a college degree would be nice… but if I am just gonna do independent developing with only a chance of getting a job, how will I pay off my college debts? I certainly cant leave that to Myk… Ugh, it’s so frustrating!!! At least I’ll be 21 soon so I wont need my parents for anything anymore…

Anyway, I have rambled enough… *wanders off*

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  • Leslie2003
    Friday, Jun 14th, 2002 at 20:00

    If it makes you feel better I’m living off my parents’ income and not being a contributing member of society or learning anything, really.  Wait, I don’t know why that would make you feel any better.  Just that you’re not in that boat alone, I guess…

    RE: Linkin Park, I think they have teen angst because it sells to the angsty teens.  Whatever.  Obviously it’s worked well for them, so what can you do?  At least they’re not N’Sync…