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Dido – All You Want

I am writing this while waiting for my Neocron download to start at Fileplanet… Fileplanet sucked %) I left it on the waiting list (they have waiting lists to download files..) and it ended up crashing mozilla… so I come back to look at it and it’s all *gone* heh… So I am going to watch it this time! And it’s pretty funny how the time is calculated on it, like I have a 29 minute wait, but in the end it turns out to be something like an hour wait… I was joking in chat last night that their server was on Mars, thus going by Mars time (oh geez guys, I am talking about year time, I dont care about the physics of it all! It takes longer for Mars to go around the sun, longer years, longer minutes). I’m at 18 minutes now %)

Looks like I had some geekage in my comments yesterday… MAX_INT Hee… now I’ve never bothered to learn C++ (in fact it’s under my dislikes along with Visual Basic on deep13.org), and of course never tried any C, gah! But that’s funneh… heh… as for the second comment, maybe I just dont know C++ so I didnt *get* as much of the joke as i should have, heh… Anyway, good to see the only xangians arent 13 year old girls who have dating lives that are more confusing than my Perl scripts %)

I talked to my aunt Elaine on the phone yesterday, she’s the aunt I lived with for a few months here in philly, and again after I left my ex in Rochester, NY… she’s pretty much my favorite family member, hehe… anyway she called me to get help installing her printer… we were on the phone for about an hour yesterday, talking about things going on in our lives (she’s in college right now..) and trying to get the silly printer to work. In the end I gave her some suggestions and she IM’ed me later to tell me she got it working. The first problem was the printer wasn’t on %) That’s why she called me in the first place but in the end it turned out to be the printer cartriages were put in wrong, heh, something I wasnt able to tell over the phone… after all those installs every way I could think of, arg! Obviously over the phone printer tech support is not my forte %) It was good to talk to her tho, after moving out of her apartment in December we’ve tried to keep in close contact, but it’s just so hard when you live hours away %(

Woohoo only 9 minutes left!

I got a letter, like a real paper letter, even written by hand, from my father yesterday. If you arent up to speed, he’s currently in a rehab program for recovering alcoholics… it’s a live-in place, he’ll be there for 9-12 months. It’s really a terrible situation, he’s been an alcholic as long as i can remember, so this really is what he needed. The letter sorta had the feel of “part of the 12 step program” He took responsibility for so much of the crap that’s happened in my life, dispite it not being all his fault. It was quite sad actually how guilty he feels, but I guess guilt is necessary for recovery or something. It was pretty much a huge apology for not being there for me when I “needed him most” and him not supporting me even though I am “so smart” and should have gone off to college and made everyone proud.. he also too responsibility for me leaving before my parents got divorced. That made ME feel guilty. True, I didn’t want to be around when the family fell apart because I spent most of my time growing up playing peacemaker… but another big part of it was just that I didn’t want to face the reality of life and everything. I didn’t want to face responsibility, so I just kept running away… I still am. And sure, maybe if I had more support from my parents in school I would have been more sure of myself, maybe had been stronger and gone on to do the college thing, but I would have been a completely different person I think. I dunno… I will write him back though… even though I am not sure what to say, I’ll think about it and hope it doesnt take *too* long…

3 minutes, yay!

This Neocron is like a 1.1 gig file, lol. I was telling Myk about it last night (www.neocron.com so I dont need to explain it to you too), as well as confessing to him what a crazy gamer I am, LOL even after living with him since december he really had no idea what a crazy fiend I could be. I told him about how when the Diablo 2 expansion pack came out I was at the store at midnight to get it, lol… he was like “but it will be there after that, why go then?” Ugh… lol, and then of course he got me in that mood where I just wanted to talk about gaming, he was like “ah! you are talking about games again!” it was funny… I am such the uber geek for the both of us, lol, even if he is a little more geeky when it comes to geeky computer things…

OMG… Mozilla just crashed AGAIN!!!! 2 minutes to go on the download waitinglist!!! *Sigh* maybe I should just give up %( Or try netscape, this sucks!!! Oh well… I’ll do it somehow, or just give up %) *wanders off to be very upset*

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