I’m not sure why I started feeling depressed yesterday. It was really strange… see I was wandering around reading people’s xanga sites ’cause I was bored.. and started feeling like a serious loser ’cause other people put up kewl stuff about their lives and fun stuff they were doing.. and I put up a couple silly book reviews.. I started thinking about how pathetically nerdy that was… I am not sure why that made me depressed, I usually like it when people call me a geek *shrugs* maybe it was a bit of the “society’s view of what I should be” creeping in and making me feel like I wasnt living up to the expectations of a woman my age… er something. Anyway, Myk came home from work… and we spent a really nice evening together.. not that that’s much different from other evenings, but I realized I was really happy, and I shouldnt be depressed because of what I do enjoy, as geeky as it should seem.

So now that that’s done with, I guess I should move on… Last night when Myk came home he found a package in our mailbox. He was surprised and then read that it was from a friend of ours online, in Belgium! I gave him our address a few months back (btw, anyone crazy enough can easily get my address by doing a whois on my domain… so I am not too scared about giving it out to friends, at least they asked instead of being devious about it). But he didn’t give any indication that he actually sent anything. So we opened the box and he sent us a couple cans of Belgian beer, a bunch of yummie yummie chocolate, a cd-r with The Crow on it (’cause I had never seen it, and he had a copy), a cd-r with a bunch of mp3s, a euro coin, and a hand-written letter. It was really cool %) We drank the beer during dinner, it was good, better than american beer anyway. And the chocolate… ooooo… mmmmm… sooo mmmm good %d I went ahead and found the website this morning, and took their little “chocolate lovers quiz” … found out that I “Undoubtedly you belong to the great family of: Melted Milk Pleasure-Seekers” hehe… so true (% the site is www.cotedor.com, because I know you are interested %P Anyway our friend from Belgium (his name is Nick… but his online name is Yann … s’too weird to call him Nick, lol) is in France for a few days, watching a cycling thing… ’cause I guess he likes cycling, er something. We kept making fun of him saying he likes to watch men wearing spandex. But we’re gonna have to thank him TONS when he gets back %) it was such a nice surprise. We were trying to think of things to send him from here… since he’s using us as his door the learning more about the US, but we can’t seem to think of anything that’s so US specific AND good (everything from the US sucks, beer, chocolate… hehe). So if anyone reading this, if anyone reads this has any suggestions I’d really appreciate the input.

So I watched The Crow this morning, it was much better than I expected… I was anticipating some lame ass teen goth movie or something I guess (hey I was drawing from the ppl I knew that were big worshippers of this movie). But it really turned out to be an interesting story n stuff.. I can imagine how sequels would suck tho, they ARE probably lousy teen goth movies %) But this first one I did enjoy.. I started listening to some of the mp3s he sent too, but then I decided to go clean up the house a bit ’cause I was feeling lazy… Besides, Myk finished up a rough version (if you could call it that, it sounds fine to me…) of his latest Ambient mix, and I was downloading it to listen to it.. so I’m listening to that now, it’s really good %) I guess I have to try to give him summore time alone to work on making it perfect, hehe.

So I guess it was when I was feeling depressed yesterday I was surfing through some websites from this linux chicks site (I think I was looking for others like me so I wouldnt feel so sad, hehe). I stumbled upon this one girl’s site that had some quake 2 instructions for getting it to run on linux… so I was bored so I decided to check them out even though I have no current intention of installing quake 2… and toward the end of the description she mentioned that the brightness controls built into the game dont work in linux so you needed to adjust xgamma before you ran the game… I was like… wtf is xgamma? So I typed it into a terminal… apparently by adjusting the color levels in xgamma you can make your screen brighter or darker! This is exactly what I needed to make my screen bright enough to play UT!!! I was so excited %) I ended up writing a shell script to execute to start UT and change the gamma settings (I make it pretty bright for UT… and those brightness settings are a little too much for my typical desktop). So the script sets the xgamma higher when I go into UT… and then sets it back to normal when I exit UT, s’pretty cool… and a dreadfully basic script, but it does work, and now I can stop complaining about my old monitor, hehe

Anyway, today I want to start getting my bot’s script ported to irssi… it runs on xchat currently, off my own computer. Which means I have to keep x running all the time, and when I reboot, restart x, turn off my computer for any reason, the bot goes too… and if i wanted to go to windows, for some reason, I’d have to launch the old mirc bot… besides, my cable connection is unstable, and the bot is required in the room to give voice to people on the friend list. Anyway, I’m gonna go do that noew… laterski.