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aww my little premium trial is gone, oh well… I’m not gonna pay what they were asking for the few services it provided, besides I’m poor.

Yesterday turned out to be not so cool. I got a call from the cousin of mine that lives down here in philly, and apparently my father is in the hospital again. No one is quite sure what exactly happened, and for some time they didn’t even know where he was.. still arent completely sure since the hospital he said he was at isnt saying anything… its a really messed up situation and has me really worried. I guess part of it is the whole “growing up and seeing you’re elders’ weaknesses” thing. It’s been really hard seeing my father go downhill with his health, and it’s mostly his fault… I feel frustrated an angry that he’s not taking care of himself the way he should. There is nothing I can do about it though, so I shouldnt get so stressed out about it, but like I mentioned previously in another post, I can’t really help it! *sigh* I guess I will just wait and see what happens with this all.

Next week my cousin is going up to see her parents in NH, she offered to drive me up to maine to see my family. I guess most of my dad’s family is really wanting me to go up there, but I dunno… Myk couldnt come of course because he has work, and I’d miss him so much… plus I am not sure I want to see my family again so soon… but then I think I am not sure when the next chance to go up would be. I dunno… if I do go up I know I’ll have a miserable time seeing my father in that condition… I could see my friend Leslie from high school if I go up there, gah, I dunno.. I should really make up my mind soon, since i’d be leaving like, sunday or monday. I am so indecisive %(

Hmm what else… ohyeah, one of my ex boyfriends is a father now. His wife has a son on July 5th… I’m happy for him, just hope things work out for him and his wife (see, he’s 30 and she’s 19…). And it’s good to see that all my ex’s arent complete fucking psychos… I had really low self esteem ok!? At least I finally saw the light and went after the guy I had had a crush on forever %)

I guess that’s it for now, I am working on part of my webpage, a new Magic The Gathering page about the 2 years I played Magic, and posting pics of my cards that arent worth a freaking thing and I spent lots of money on… ho hum.. %)

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