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I love sleep

Sometimes things just suck because you had such high expectations.. then you realize later that they didn’t really suck at all. I hate that. Last night we went to the Drafting Room for my birthday. I was expecting to get all sloshed… but it turns out the restauarant, dispite it’s bar and grill atmosphere, was nice enough for people to bring kids to, and they did. We should have been smarter and gone to a completely 21 + place… ’cause I have this serious problem with drinking in front of kids. Besides that we had the WORST waitress in the world. If it had been Unos I could understand it, but the food was quite expensive, as were the drinks, so we expected good services, but this woman was just AWFUL… She was like 45 and I SWEAR she was doing some sort of drugs in the back to make her cheerful, which just turned out to be obnoxious and annoying. She really made us all feel uncomfortable, and got all flustered when we asked for separate checks (so we just told her to forget it). She was NEVER around when we needed her, never offered to even replace our drinks when they were empty… It was just awful. I didn’t really get drunk…

On the bright side (last night I was feeling sorta down dwelling on all the sucky stuff) I DID get to try some yummie stuff. Myk ordered some La Chouffe (It’s a belgian ale), and that was really yummie… exactly what I have come to expect out of a Belgian Ale. I ordered some Lindemans Kriek (again belgian), it’s a ‘fruity’ beer, and dispite people saying “it still has the beer taste” i could hardly taste it.. it was all cherry yumminess. Unfortunately the stuff is like $120 a case (the Chimay we usually get is only $70-80 a case), but I really think it’d be worth it for special occasions. Mike (mct) got some Lindemans Framboise (same as mine, but rasberry), I tried some of that, it was much fruitier and wetter (mine was rather dry)… I didnt like it as much as mine %) Nita (Mike’s girlfriend) ordered a Red Death, which I tried and was impressed with.. then she ordered a Long Island Iced Tea, i tried that too and didn’t really like it.. but that’s not surprising ’cause I am not much of an iced tea person, and she said that particular one was quite strong anyway. Ed (n-tropy) got a mudslide, which I didn’t bother tasting ’cause I have had them before (albiet home-made). The food was quite good as well. For an appitizer we got this yummie spinach and crab dip with pumpernickel bread, mmmm. Then for dinner I had a grilled chicken sandwich with brie on it (mmm cheese). Then for dessert I had a yummie warm brownie with some rocky road ice cream %d

After dinner I was a bit disappointed that I was only a little tipsy, so we came home and hung out with Mike and Nita for a while (Ed went home) and I had a couple beers, just because it WAS my 21st birthday and all. After they left I spent the rest of the night watching Adult Swim and munching on chips and drinking beer, then around 12:30 I was REALLY tired (from the drinking no doubt) so I went to bed and had no trouble falling asleep… it was nice %)

One thing that did bother me about yesterday was the realization, yet again, of how insanely shy I am. See I get all excited about going out, tell myself that I AM comfortable with the people I’ll be hanging out with, and have all these images of me finally being the center of attention, or at least talking enough to be part of the conversation most of the time. And again I failed. I dont know what it is, when we go out with just Mike and Nita I am fine, but the addition of Ed just maybe makes it one person too many.. or maybe I am not as comfortable around
him as I thought.. gah I dunno %( It’s just frustrating that I am shy, and I really can’t help it. And it’s just in social situations. If I am working somewhere I can interact with customers in a casual non-shy manner (even when it’s 7 drunk italian guys at 2 am in seneca falls, and they all want subs). And even when we were dealing with the realtor, I was being helpful and talkative, and open with exactly what we were interested in as far as a house goes. But drop me at a club with friends and I turn into Super Wall Flower. And it’s something non-shy people can’t understand at all. I mean Myk is sorta shy, but he can also be very socially active around friends, so he can’t understand when I get frustrated by not being able to talk much.. he just says “you’re intelligent and pretty and you have all sorts of good ideas, you just need to talk about them”. If only it was that easy %( I wish I had just grown out of this! Oh and of course in chat I am not shy, quite the opposite (Myk mentioned last night that I should get out more, move away from chat… but what is there to do? Who can I hang out with?… then I told him that chat was not the problem, that I was actually more shy before chat, he didnt believe that was possible!). Bleh, I dunno what my problem is. Maybe it’s some sort of subconcious left over self-esteem problem from my teenage years when I thought I sucked, so I’m afraid I’ll make a bad impression on people who I want to be my friends, when conciously I KNOW that if I was just my normal self people would like me.

I don’t want to get dressed today, I just wanna sit here at my computer in my pajamas and cuddled in my comforter.

Myk installed Gentoo Linux (www.gentoo.org) on part of his computer last night. It’s quite nice %) He’s gonna show me some more tonight (since I was way too tired last night) but it’s very promising. Myk seems to think that if we don’t get the house he wants to buy me a nice new computer, then I could use r2d2 as a test box… if that happens I might play with debian and gentoo on r2d2, it’d be fun %D I wont get too excited tho, since I STILL don’t know what’s going on with the house. Anyway, I am looking forward to checking it out more, seeing how well enlightenment runs, and better yet how well UT2003 runs %)

Anyway I wrote my second shell script this morning. I am lousy at shell scripting, mostly because I never used it much, so each time I find myself doing somethine repeditive I get all excited and write one. This one was for generating ircstats for #13thHour. All it does is cd into the pisg directory (where the perl script to generate the stats is), run the pisg script, cd’s back out of the directory, then starts the scp to upload the html stats file… all i need to do is type “bash ircstats” and then put in the password for the scp. It’s nice and easy %)

Well I have stuff to do today (I guess…) so I’ll go noew *wanders off*

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One Comment

  • Leslie2003
    Monday, Sep 30th, 2002 at 14:29

    I can sympathize with the shyness thing, but then again, we’ve known each other since, what, first grade?  So you know that already.  And I haven’t entirely grown out of it either.  Although a few drinks tends to remedy that, but I try not to use alcohol in my day to day life as a crutch…  Not yet, anyway.

    There’s no iced tea in a long island iced tea…discuss.