o/` Aphex Twin – Cliffs o/`

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Woohoo! This is that perl birthday script I wrote a few months back… this was it’s first real test %)! And it works… I assumed it would, but pretty much forgot about it until I woke up this morning and saw that it had properly done it’s job. YAY!

Last night turned out to be really nice. Usually evenings with family suck… I mean sure they are possible to tolerate, but it’s rare that I actually can say I enjoyed myself. I didn’t really know anyone but Myk, his mother, and his mother’s boyfriend… but I wasn’t too shy, and I was able to talk to people like a normal person, and I think I made a good impression. It didn’t even bother me too much that I had to admit to being unemployed several times *shrugs*

So yesterday I got a call from the guy I made the seawinds realty website for. Apparently he “doesn’t have the time” for it right now, and asked me if I could take it down for a few months so he doesnt need to pay for it while. Now I am horribly disappointed by this, but since we never had an actual contract, and I never really set up any official rules as to any of this, I can’t tell him no, so I agreed. Oh well, I’ll know better next time I do a business deal, must have all rules outlined FIRST!

Now there is this girl on one of the lists I’m on… and it’s really sad and frustrating the way she acts. See, she came into an irc channel where I hang out and starts causing a scene… first she was trying to help someone, and they said “thanks anyway I can handle it later, I’m in a bit of a hurry” and she freaks out and is like “is my answer not valid? Why did you ask for help if you didnt want it?” (she DIDNT ask for help on the actual problem..) … and goes on like this for like 15 minutes until finally people just started ignoring her. This sort of thing has happened several times, in irc, on the list, and apparently in places I haven’t seen. Just recently she felt she was being discriminated against because she thinks that she was “not considered for ops in the channel because of past issues” Come on now… this is a group of very mature people, and she starts out complaining she doesnt have ops? It was certainly the LAST sort of argument I expected to see in that channel. Anyway, I guess she’s about 19… and has had this attitude about taking things so personally for YEARS. It’s actually kinda sad… I mean someone says something and it comes out wrong, they apoligize and move on right? Well she just wont let things go… her life must be miserable! Can you imagine taking everything so personally? Maybe she’ll grow out of it…

Speaking of lists… I was thinking about when to have the Philly Chix meetings, and I was like “oh right… how will I get to these?!” They will be in the city, so I could probably take the train in north wales, then take a trolly in the city. Of course Myk was like “hell no!” hehehehe… So he said he could probably drive me down for the meetings (and my friend Nita too if she wants to come). He was like “I can just wait outside, oh I know, I’ll be your bouncer!” hehe! I feel really bad about making him wait outside %( but I can’t drive into the city by myself (I’m not on the insurance, and I’m too freaking scared!)… and all lameness surrounding a key organizer not attending a meeting aside, I really want to go to the meetings!

Hmm… today I will probably read a lot. Don’t really have any plans to go out, which is ok… I want a boring old relaxing day %) Myk was working on getting oracle installed on clockbot (the computer, not clockbot.net). And he said he’d give me an oracle user account, YAY!!! So I will start to learn how to use o
racle %) Not that it is a whole lot different than the databases I am used to dealing with, but it’ll be cool to have experience with something a bit bigger and more widely used in corporations %)

Now I am probably going to go crawl back into bed because Myk is there and it is so snuggly and warm *wanders off*

o/` BOA – Deeply o/`

I should make a section on my website about the applications I use… I used to have one, but I’ve moved away from using many of the gui applications I gave props to. No more xchat, no more xmms… and I believe I said there that I used gnome-terminal. Anyway, I took that section down because it was so outdated and I didn’t feel like doing anything with it. Maybe I will do that on monday… Pages like that are cool ’cause they give people a whole new glimpse into what someone else’s desktop environment is like. Plus, I think what a person uses as far as software can reflect a lot on what type of person they are…

Yesterday evening the women in #linuxchix started talking about Belgian beers. Well of course this is a conversation I HAVE to jump into because of my love for them %) They eventually got to lambics… oh how I love lambics. And of course since it was a friday night I just couldnt help but ask Myk if we could head out to The Drafting Room for dinner. Myk agreed (come on, how could he resist? Hehe) but it was 6:30, hmm… the Spring House Location is about 3 miles from our apartment (dangerously close!), but it’s a friday at peak dinnertime… and we know from experience that the Spring House one is awful during busy times. So we opted to drive to the Exton Location… sure it was nearly an hour drive, but it’s worth it! We got a really cool waitress, and although we were stuck between a birthday party and a baby shower, it really was a nice evening. I started out with some of the Lindeman’s Framboise (raspberry lambic) from the tap, and we got an appetizer of Belgian Cheese Fondue… oh yum! The bread was a bit salty, and we didnt really want to complain but our wonderful attentive waitress somehow noticed that we werent completely pleased and brought out some unsalted bread for us %) It was really great. Then I got the Grilled Chicken Breast sandwich… it’s so good, has brie on it! I ordered a bottle of Lindeman’s Peche (peach lambic) … which isnt nearly as sweet as the other ones, which makes it my favorite for most occasions. Then came dessert. I was so full! But how can i resist chocolate cake labelled “chocolate indulgence”? So I got it with a capuccino. It was freaking huge! A couple of the women at the baby shower table noticed it and were like “Oh my goodness!” *insert other womanly chocolate envy comments here* hehehe… I ended up eating about half of it and taking the rest home. It was a very nice dinner %) We got home around 9:30.

Tonight we’re going to Myk’s mother’s house for her boyfriend’s birthday. It’s just a little surprise dinner, nothing big, and his mother is really nice… I don’t often feel uncomfortable around her, and I do think she likes me. It should be a nice evening.

I had a lot of really weird dreams last night. I guess I didn’t sleep well since I remember having so many weird dreams, it sucks… I wish I could sleep! I have tried so many things, and I was sleeping good for a few months, but it’s going back into sleeping badly -_-

Must resist having the chocolate cake in fridge for breakfast, hehehe.

Well I’m going to go take a shower and try to wake up… make some coffee so I start feeling like a normal human being. *zombies off*

o/` Nine Inch Nails – Underneath It All o/`

It’s finally raining.

For the past 10 days or so there have been clouds in the sky. Each time we walk outside it feels like it’s about to rain. I think this has had a very strang impact on how I’ve been feeling. I love rain! And I anticipate it. So when they say it’s going to rain and it doesnt it gives me this strange empty feeling.

The Stitch and Bitch get together is tonight. I realized this morning that I don’t want to go. It’s not because I’m depressed… I am really not. I think I just need to be in a certain mood to want to meet people and socialize. I mean going out to the movies, or to dinner, or something like that would be totally cool, but sitting around knitting and talking? I don’t think I’d enjoy myself, not right now. I do plan on going to the next one though!

So it looks like the plans for my trip to Maine are starting to solidify. I’m going to fly up to NH on the morning of June 7th (saturday) probably spend saturday in NH, sleep at an aunt’s house… drive to Maine on sunday, spend most the day with my dad, maybe meet up with my friend Leslie that evening/night, sleep probably with my sister Heather in South Portland, then head up to Winthrop where my mother lives on monday, spend that day with her, probably spend the night, then on tuesday drive back to New Hampshire, spend more time with family there before my flight back to Philly around 5 pm. I know everyone will be compleining that I didnt spend enough time with them, but I really cant spare any more than just those four days. We’re planning to have our first philly chix meeting on the thursday of that week, I wouldnt want to come home on wednesday and then have to get everything prepared for the meeting the next day, that would be a bit stressful -_- Yeah, so hopefully this little visit will shut my family up for at least another 6 months.

Again, I’m reluctant to leave Myk for a few days. It really is upsetting me more than I thought it would… I think I partially feel guilty, but I have a feeling that most of this vacation will be “duty” and not “fun” … but all the guilt aside, I really will miss him! I’ll have to make time to email him every day %) And I’ll probably wander into IRC a couple of times if I get bored…

Yeah.

I made oggs of all my NIN cds this morning while I was cleaning the apartment… fun stuff. I did it because I was so frustrated with how many of my NIN mp3s were corrupted for no reason…

Now I am going to go get some work done %) *wanders off*

o/` Ducktales Theme o/`

It looks like I’ll be going up to Maine the second week of June. I havent worked out all the details, when exactly I’ll go up there, or for how long. My grandparents have agreed to pay for a planeticket. Unfortunately since Myk just started this new job he is unable to come with me %( That was the biggest issue with making this choice, I mean for the past year and a half we havent been apart for more than 12 hours! I will be so lonely! And I felt sorta guilty planning a trip without him, ya know? But he said I should go. I’ll work out most of the details this evening so I can get a price on the ticket and such.

Yeah, this internship is going to be interesting.

-co-worker- So Myk, are you sure you want your girlfriend to be an intern here? you know we abuse them right?

Hehehee.. I’ve been a temp worker, so I know the kind of abuse they are talking about. Sure I’m a pretty weak person… but I think being in such a position will be beneficial to me. I need to be stronger, it’ll be a challenge to maintain a good additude under pressure and not much encouragement. I think I’ll get used to using my sarcasm and wit while working there ;) I should be ok… especially if I can prove to them that I’m not a complete moron… or equally stupid college student who knows nothing about the world. We’ll see how everything works out, it’ll all be good for me.

I spent all morning replying to emails, mailinglists and the like… wow, I’ve really found ways to take up my time in a day! And that’s not really a good thing, hehe. I will feel like I have lost so much when I do get a job…

PrincessLeia.com has really gotten some considerable traffic this week, it’s really cool. I was looking back through the access logs, and that’s when I realized something interesting. I have a sailor moon section on my site. At one time I was pretty into the whole sailor moon thing, I still have some of the cards from the CCG (collectable card game), and a couple DVDs… so at that time I made a section on my webpage about it. That was back when I had a spree.com webpage (they dont do hosting anymore)… and so after creating my .com I found the old page and decided to put it up on the site.. ’cause hey, I did put a lot of work into it, who knows! Little did I know how much traffic it would get! How strange! It’s one of the most heavily visited sections of my site…

Ok, I’m going to go get some work done. *wanders off*

o/` Enya – Evacuee o/`

Today was a very frustrating day.

No, not more stuff with PLUG. The flame died and considering the attention span of most of the guys on the list the ones who flamed wont remember it in a week. I have been doing a lot of work on the PhillyChix site though, working to make it a real community thing, going on feedback and such I’ve gotten from the other chix. I have a whole new respect for LUG coordinators that keep up to date with everything %)

The phone kept ringing.

5 calls this afternoon.. when I’m used to getting none. I wasnt in the best mood anyway, so getting a bunch of phone calls wasnt something I was happy about. One of them was FINALLY the guy i had been talking to about the business website I made… finally found out why I hadnt been paid yet. It was just an honest mistake, but I had started worrying because he wasnt returning my calls. Another was some recruiter that saw Myk’s resume, two calls were from the car insurance agency about “changes in the policy that they needed to advise the customers about” and then one call from my cousin asking about me coming up to visit family. UGH! Of course calls like this from family always upset me, especially if my sister had nagged me about the same thing earlier the day (via IM). Then of course Open Office was being a pain… I was trying to print on an envelop, and it wouldnt let me print sideways.. you know, so i could put the think in the printer! Hehe… after a bunch of frustration I decided to install abiword. Well I was unsure if abiword uses gnome stuff, ’cause at the moment (because of a frustrating issue with my sources.list which is my fault) gnome stuff on my system is broken… so I was afraid that i wouldnt be able to install abiword. Well of course the broken gnome thing was really bugging me anyway, so I thought “Maybe I should reinstall debian tonight” … so i started backing things up. Eventually I finished that and decided to try to install abiword just so i could get the envelop pritned. I was able to install it, got the printing done (abiword is very nice…). And of course we dont have any stamps. I think my problem is I just didnt get enough sleep last night %) I hate being crankie!

On the bright side, we went grocery shopping last night. I hate shopping, but the day after a shopping trip we have lots of yummie food! Hehe.. tonight we’re probably going to have boca burgers mmm. We got eggplant too, so i can make eggplant parmesean tomorrow! Oh I love food %) hehe. And more good news.. Myk’s boss knew that I was into computers, and asked Myk if I would be interested in a summer volunteer internship at their company. Volunteer as in, no pay. But what have I got to lose? This time spent unemployed has been to expand my skills and learn. I think I am ready to take a step to get at least some exposure to a real working environment. Plus, he said if I do good enough he might even hire me! AHH!! That’d be so cool. Of course at the same time I’m scared… I mean I’ve never done anything like this before. But Myk does know my capabilities, and he said he would have never recommended me for the job if he didn’t think I could do it. I should work on my self esteem and my morbid fear of failure %) Honestly.. best case scenario, i get a job with Digital Wave. Worst case? I admit defeat and go home, and I’ll be back where I started. There isn’t really a risk since in the beginning it is understood that it’s a trial thing.

Yeah, so I’m going to go make dinner now. *wanders off*

o/` Bel Canto – Blank Sheets o/`

15 seconds of infamy on the local LUG list.

As I mentioned in yesterday evening’s entry, I have started work on the Philly Chix website, for the Philadelphia chapter of linuxchix. Well it wasnt done. Far from it! It was (still is at the time of writing this) a rough outline. And I certainly did not intend to make it public this week, let alone last night. Well, Myk was so excited about the whole thing that he pasted it in the #plug channel. Which is ok… but then someone in the channel decided to take it to the plug list! Oh no!

The first couple posts were encouraging, then we got the “*groans*” that started a flame. These guys claimed that a female only group was unacceptable (as if it’s any of their business) … some even claimed that by creating a sub group we would fragment and destroy the existing PLUG. Now there are some things you must understand about the Philadelphia area groups before I continue.

1. The PLUG group always has at least 30 members per meeting, over 200 are active on the mailing list.

2. The highest female count at a meeting? I believe it was 4, and that includes me and a woman Myk invited from his workplace.

3. There is an established “sub-group” PADS – Philadelphia Area Debian Society.

4. There are women on the PLUG list, but for the most part they do not post.

Now, do you honestly think that creating a female only chapter will hurt PLUG? If anything (as Samantha, co-coordinator pointed out) we will be more of a recruiting force. Bringing women who might have been afraid to join PLUG in the past (because of it’s male-centric additude) might be encouraged to become part of it, knowing they would not end up being the “token female” or a woman for the geeks to leer at, because us other chix will be there! But we wanted our group to (like I said) be a comfortable environment for women who might be a bit shy sharing their thoughts, views, questions and solutions with men. And come on now, do creating a new and better mencal or a cross-stitch program for linux interest men THAT much? *grins*

Why do women still feel there is such a barrier? Because there is. Recently at a PLUG meeting a woman answered a question, and the person asking it ignored her and went to the next person, who said the same thing. He finally accepted the answer. Now why on earth would this happen? Am I wrong for assuming it was because she is a woman? Similar things have happened on the list with Samantha, her answers are often ignored, even when they are correct. So there really is nothing wrong with us wanting to have our own group… And honestly I did NOT believe this would cause issues with PLUG.

So hopefully this flame on PLUG will die down soon and they will realize that a women only linux group is going to do more to help PLUG’s attendance than hinder it. MEN! Hehehehe… You know, in the end I think they are just intimidated by us because they cant get laid %D

So now that the site is basically public anyway I will post the link here:

Heh, unfortunately the webpage is hosted on my home connection… an entire list full of PLUG members have been killing my connection all night! Hehe. At least I wasn’t slashdotted!

It’s strange “Making waves” in a community. Especially because Philadelphia is a big city, and PLUG is a big group… and I’m so quiet and shy! Feels kinda good though! We have new female members on the list because of this post… and come on, I am proud to have a lot of traffic to a site I designed and am especially proud of %) Even if it wasnt finished!!! At least it was presentable.

Wow, what a rant!

Um, Myk and I took a walk yesterday evening… it was really nice. I will miss the trail around this apartment complex when I move… we even saw a rabbit on our walk! So cutey.

We need to go grocery shopping… i took some things out of
the shelf on the door of the ‘fridge and put them in the main part so it would look like we had food, haha. Yeah, I’m about to go grab the last two slices of bread for my lunch %)

I guess that’s it for now, need to put some more work into the phillychix site… *wanders off*

I spent almost all day working on the linuxchix site for philadelphia. I’ll post a link here when it’s near finishing, I’m very pleased with how it looks, and how clever it is %) The woman who is working with me on creating this group is wonderful, she’s not someone who says “yeah lets start a group” and then wanders off… we’ve been mailing each other several times a day, and even had a brainstorming session this afternoon on irc. So far, we’ve grabbed the interest of two other women who are involved with PLUG (philadelphia linux users group), so, 4 so far! I’m going to do my best to promote this, and maybe something will come of it. Maybe we’ll even manage to get our own domain name someday %) I’m excited about this. And after a bit of discussion we decided to make the group women only. It’s been a touchy subject with linuxchix, the linuxchix.org mailing lists and chat, even the members profiles list includes men, but it is up to the individual chapters to decide whether theirs will invite everyone, or narrow it down to female only. I think our philadelphia chapter can get away with being female only. PLUG is already a very active group, and we are members of it, just sometimes intimidated by the men.. and we agreed that we dont want our linuxchix chapter to turn into PLUG2 … we want an open, comfortable forum for not only us, but other women who might be too afraid or shy to join a group with men in it. YAY!

I spoke to my mother yesterday, since it was mother’s day. For once it was a stress-free conversation %) She didnt nag me about every little thing, never even asked when I was getting married or coming to visit! Hehe… of course the call was only 10 minutes long since she was leaving for dinner %) At least she can’t say I never call.

I am feeling much better, I seem to be healing ok, the only time this weekend I was in any real “discomfort” was after a mile long walk yesterday evening, I probably shouldnt have done that %)

Yeah, so it’s late and I’m going to figure out what I’m making for dinner now… *wanders off*

o/` Vangelis – Tears In Rain (Blade Runner Soundtrack) o/`

I went to bed at 1 am, woke up at 6:30 am… why? Insomnia, I hate it! An awful night sleep…

Yesterday afternoon we headed out to Unos to meet with our friend Bob like we do a couple times a month. It was nice. Bob asked me a bit about the “computer stuff I do” and mentioned that he might have some contract work for someone good with php and databases. I dunno… I expressed interest, but a real company offering me work is just so scary! I really plan to brush up on my php skills though, if this ever works out and I do get a temporary job there, I will need to know more than I do now! Maybe I can get the experience I need from working on the #13thHour site…

In other news… I am sick of being lied to.

It seems that the more I wander into the linux/bsd/open source community, the more I run into assholes who think it’s cool to impress me by lying. I guess I can sorta see that they believe bragging about their acomplishments would somehow impress me… but don’t they realize that if I am telling the truth about being a geek that I’ll see right through their claims? I try not to outwardly confront them, usually I entrap them into some sort of lie and finally get them to admit themselves that they don’t really know what they are talking about… but sometimes that’s impossible, and they just keep up this front of knowing it all, when it’s obvious they dont. Can’t they just admit defeat? I’d have much more respect for them then… In fact, if a guy came along, and honestly said “I used Mandrake once, I am a total newbie” then I’d be more impressed then with someone who might know a bit more but lied! It just *feels* like people who lie to me take me for a fool, like I won’t figure it out! Bah… if you don’t understand something then just ask, don’t try to fake your way through a conversation with me. Men! *grins*

Speaking of which, another one of those so loved snippits from IRC! ($nick = name changed to protect the moron … pleia2 is me of course):

-$nick- woa
-$nick- pleia2 == girl
-$nick- ??
-pleia2- yeah
-$nick- wow, I’ve been asking you all these linux questions and I had no idea you were a girl! :)
-pleia2- heh
-pleia2- what does my gender have to do with asking linux questions?
— insert long pause here —
-$nick– I just have a totally different view of you now

I am sick of this sort of thing. I need to start being more agressive with my recruiting of female linux users so we can break this horrible stereotype someday %)

Anyawy, before i complain more I am going to go wander off and read, maybe make myself a little breakfast…

o/` Barenaked Ladies – When You Dream o/`

We never did get to meet up with that friend last night. It was rainy and the friend he was bringing to NJ just wanted to get home… bleh whatever. Since the drafting room is fairly dead in the morning (er, closed) we realized there wouldnt really be anything for him to do… and he said he wouldnt want to bore his friend (apparently him and his friend went to NJ to drop off this girl). I’m disappointed, but it turns out that I started feeling really lousy again last night, so I guess it’s all for the best that we didn’t go out for an evening of drinking %)

I got almost nothing done yesterday. Ok, that’s not really true… I chatted, I explored some interesting programs in apt, and I cleaned the apartment.

I discovered xteddy. It’s very silly, just puts an image on your desktop (default is a teddy) … it doesnt do anything, you can move it around your screen and stuff *shrugs* It’s cute but not useful at all, in fact it gets a bit annoying because if your mouse is over the bear your keybindings wont work, hehe. I also discovered Festival … it’s a speech synthesis program. Remember those old ones where you’d type some words and a horrible old computer voice would recite them for you? Well it’s just like that! And it’s cool ’cause that is what I was looking for… an old cheesy obviously artificial computer voice for a project I’m working on. I was really happy to find this… for a while I was afraid I’d need to wander into windows for it.

I also went back into the world of console emulators. Specifically, NES. I discovered NEStra. It’s better than iNES in that it WORKS (something is wrong with iNES in debian stable’s apt, it is all broken, maybe the roms are imperfect and making it misbehave? I dunno… the roms work fine with nestra). It’s not as cool as iNES because it doesnt have sound. Oh that’s disappointing… but I suppose it’s not horribly important, it’s so cool that I can play these old games in linux!

I have played with console emulation in the past. Downloaded zsnes back when I used redhat… so i could play super nintendo games (since then i hear snes9x is better *shrugs*), but i had a lot of trouble with the keybindings in that, and a lot of things just didnt want to work, so I stated to lose faith %) NEStra is great tho. And NES roms are very easy to find… Of course I own the games! Well… I did at one time, honest! *grins* … I suppose there isnt a task force set up to eliminate NES rom sites because no one makes substantial money off them anymore. It was amazing how small these games are… the rom for Super Mario Brothers was a mere 40k! Mario 3 was 384k … wow, those were the days…

And of course nothing can replace old nintendo tetris, that was one of the first roms I got %) It’s an addiction that is never fully cured. I won’t disclose how much time yesterday was spent playing it %)

#13thHour on irc.clockbot.net is looking very healthy lately. It’s an old channel (created in late 1998), and started to lack the “new blood” needed to keep a channel alive. It was really sad… I love that place, but it was turning into the room that Time and I talk to each other through when he’s at work, heh. But by inviting people I know from other places, it’s really brought back some activity. I’m just hoping that will continue… and that more people invited their friends will continue. It’s really cool that escapenguin invited his friend Vehicle00 to the channel… and everyone seems to be mostly getting along… even Naru_Chan most of the time ;) (Peacimowen I am sure still has hi
m on ignore because of his occasional crudeness). Of course Peacimowen also hates my good friend ShellGh0st %) And of course Tarist has been with #13thHour about 9 months %) It’s nice.

In light of this recent activity, I’m thinking of setting up a new section of www.princessleia.com/13thHour.html … the main page there usually tells what’s up, but I’d like to have something more involved, maybe postings can be made by room users? Maybe constant welcome sections for new people? Log snippits? Funny things? *Shrugs* any ideas? %) It would give me something cool to work on… and more practice with php stuff, woo!

Now I am going to go figure out what I’m doing all day. Probably crawling into bed and reading, yay for hibernating all weekend! Hehe *wanders off*

o/` All About Eve – Pieces Of Our Heart o/`

My aunt elaine is dating a mobster.

Ok, so it’s not proven yet. She met this sweet italian guy online and just yesterday met him in real life. He drives a Jaguar, has a lot of money, and works in construction but “wont tell her what the company name is” … hmm. I guess he’s a really sweet guy (charming away those italian guys tend to be *winks at her italian Myk*), and seems very interested in a relationship with my aunt elaine… but it’s fun to speculate about what he really does ;) I mean he drives a jaguar! While it’s not my luxury car of choice (I have many bad things to say about your dear jaguar!), it is expensive… Now a little BMW Z… *drool*

Anyway, my aunt elaine (she and I are very close, I’ve lived with her a couple of times, she’s like a second mother) called because I emailed her because she wanted to know about how everything went at the doctor’s on wednesday. Yeah. So I got to talk to her for a while, despite my dislike of the telephone it’s always good to hear from her. I found out that a relative of mine has HIV… Not a relative that I am particularly close to, but family, we’ve spent time together, laughed together, drank together, and I love her as family should… it’s very upsetting. I was quite depressed when I got off the phone, especially because of the other issues involved… which are not appropriate for discussion on a public web log (privacy issues). In light of that, I won’t talk about it anymore, but it is horribly depressing…

How do I move on from that? *sigh*

I am feeling better today. Yesterday evening I was feeling pretty lousy, I don’t think the advil is working as good as it was previously, took longer to work so I was in pain for a bit. The worst part is that it’s not a dull ache pain, but a sharp pain… My aunt elaine (who has had this procedure done too) said that this is completely normal, and should “Only last for a few days” only! ONLY! Gaah… I really REALLY dislike pain. Luckily the doctor said that most women who have this done will not have to repeat it in the future *hopes* %)

A friend of mine from #goddess messaged me last night. I was in bed already, but Myk was up and ended up taking to him. Apparently he’s going to be coming through the area this evening to drop off a friend in New Jersey… and was curious if we’d be interested in meeting. Well sure, cool. So Myk talked to him, he should be calling sometime today so we can work out a plan as to when he’ll be coming. He lives in west PA (north of pittsburgh) and has to work out with his friends whether they want to meet and hang out for dinner and drinks on their way to NJ (which would mean tonight), or if he just wants to stop here on his way back home (tomorrow morning). Whichever he chooses would be cool *shrugs* We’re thinking of going to The Drafting Room, where I went for my 21st birthday, yum! They have an awsome beer list. Anyway, it’ll be cool to meet this friend, meeting people from online rocks.

I dunno if I have talked about this before… probably have, but I forgot, so you will all have to suffer through my redunancy (or just not read this). I was thinking about how strange the line has become between “real life friends” and “online friends” .. there are some people who I met online first, but the reason for meeting them online first was because they were real life acquantances of my real friends (I met N-Tropy online before I met him in real life… and there are still some people in the chat room I chat in with ‘real life people’ that I havent met in real life yet). I met TorchDragon online through ICQ because he noticed I lived in the area and was looking for new people to invite to a big LAN party he was hosting, and THEN met him in real life randomly at a local CompUSA he ended up working at (it was strange… I had no idea he was working there)… so would I consider him an online friend? I mean he DID contact me because I lived in the area and there was a good chance that we’d meet sometime. Then of course ther
e are people who I just know from IRC and web journals… no question that those people are “online friends” … but all these catagories of people make it hard for me to make a definate list of how many “people I’ve met from online” Not that it matters… it’s just interesting how the real life/internet life “worlds” have become so hazy for me in the past couple years.

Today… what am I doing today… I cleaned the apartment this morning. I do it every friday, and I felt good enough to do it… plus if we are meeting an online friend it’s good to make a good impression by making sure the apartment sparkles %) Then again I tend to be a bit of a neat freak, so the apartment wasnt actually dirty or cluttered before I cleaned it, he probably wouldnt have noticed the weeks worth of dust buildup, or the water marks on the kitchen counter ;) I think I am going to mess around with some perl scripts I guess… I need to do that often so I don’t lose my touch… *wanders off*