o/` Enya – No Holly For Miss Quinn o/`
The cold seems to be going away luckily, I woke up this morning and I still have the cough, but the sore throat and sinus congestion have mostly gone away, yay! Don’t worry, I won’t go out partying tonight ;) I am going to continue to try to relax to make sure the rest of this cold goes away.
I got some bad news today. Uh, if you read my web log for linux stuff and not for my “life” then I strongly suggest you skip this paragraph %) It’s not for the faint of heart! I had a gynecologist appointment last month, it was a bit stressful because I had an irregular pap smear the time before. But 4 weeks had passed and I didnt hear anything, so I assumed that this time it came back fine. Then this morning I get a call, irregular again. They want me to go in for a “colposcopy” I have to make an appointment soon *sigh* I got online as soon as I was off the phone to learn about what this was, apparently it’s not painful, and it’s a rather short precedure But it still scares the crap out of me, what will they find? One of the possibilities for this is just some sort of infection or inflammation, but since it’s been almost a year between visits i think that’s unlikely. It could be dysplasia, it could be just some harmless cells that are irregular (but good to keep an eye on), or it could be early signs of cancer. Cancer doesnt run in my family, and I don’t believe I have ever been exposed to anything that would cause it, but it still scares me. Especially since it’s so easy to look at a cancer victim and think that it “can’t happen to me” heh, well it can … I just called to try to make an appointment, all booked, dammit! I need to call next week to see if I can get an appointment, ugh… This definately has not helped my mood any *sigh* Before getting that phone call I was actually getting out of my depressive rut, but now I’m right back in it, I am a notorious worrier and this wait will not be good. I think I need to talk to a woman about this, I’m scared… any volunteers? Heh…
Ok you can start reading again ;) I am not sure what started me feeling depressed yesterday. It was just one of those days when I wake up and for some reason I am thinking of all the reasons I suck. I guess part of it is that I am sick, it’s like I’m *always* sick, even though I know that to not be true. I dunno, I hate feeling depressed, I really do have a nice life, but of course thinking “i have no reason to be depressed” inevitably makes it worse because I think there is something wrong with me. Bleh… stupid depression.
I’m doing pretty good on that php thing, I worked out a few bugs it’s almost done, I just need to clean it up, finish the readme, and get it all tarred up. I don’t know if I will do that this afternoon. I probably could finish it, but I think I am too depressed and not feeling like doing anything. But maybe working on it will get my mind off of things. And just a quick thanks to Teanah for sending me that mycathatesyou.com link, I was amused %)
So I am finally going to post all *5* book reviews of the books I’ve read in the past three weeks…
Guards! Guards!, By Terry Pratchett, 355 Pages
This, another book in Pratchett’s Discworld series, tells of a group of people who decide to cas a spell to raise a dragon. Of course things don’t go according to plan and we are introduced to that Ankh-Morpork City Watch. I really enjoyed this book. Not only was a lot of attention paid to the big dragon, but more than ever there is a great amount of time spent focusing on the small swamp dragons! I love the dragons. So Pratchett’s usual with, humor and memorable characters is paired with a story that will entertain all sorts of dragon lovers, a great book.
Homebody, By Orson Scott Card, 430 pages
As with most of Card’s stand-alone books, th
is one starts out fairly slow. It shows the read a quite normal situation, the characters are regular people, which allows the reader to feel a sort of kinship with them. About 130 pages into the book, the plot takes a turn for the strange. Don Lark, a master craftsman who specializes in restoring old houses, purchases an old mansion in a quiet southern town. His plans to renovate are quickly influenced by several strange occurances. A trio of old women from next door warn him of the house’s evils, a young woman is discovered to be living in the house, and some of his own personal demons come back to face him. I enjoyed this book, the second half I read almost in one sittings because I just couldn’t tear myself away from it. Another great book by Card!
Intensity, Dean Koontz, 436 pages
This novel tells the story of Chyna Shepard, a young, shy woman with a troubled past, who finds herself in the path of a serial rapist and murderer. I can’t say I enjoyed this book much, the story was gripping and of course I wanted to know how it ended, but I was frustrated at the “cheap” writing style of Koontz that keeps the reader interested, and turns a 24-hour ordeal into a 400+ page book. The ending was alright, but it felt rushed, like Koontz struggles with resolutions, or maybe he does this intentionally to satiate his impatient audience? Unless I hear awsome reviews from someone I trust I think I’ll stear clear of his books in the future…
Eric, By Terry Pratchett, 197 pages
This is another book in the discworld series, and it brings back the Wizard Rincewind! Eric is a teenage demonologist who follows in his grandfather’s footsteps by being terribly unsucessful. Instead of a demon, he summons Rincewind (who is stuck in another dimention, after events in a previous book, Sourcery), much to the dismay of the demon king Astfgl. Not believing that Rincewind is not a demon, Eric demands him to grant him three wishes. While executing this request, they travel on a humorous journey through time and space, and quite literally to Hell and back. I enjoyed this book, the luggage tags along as always, and Rincewind’s clumsy cowardice is as entertaining as is always is. Short but sweet!
Ender’s Game, By Orson Scott Card, 324 pages
I first read this book about four years ago (1999), maybe it wasn’t what I expected, maybe I just wasn’t ready for it, but whatever the reason, I didnt enjoy it nearly as much as I did this time. It tells the story of Andrew “Ender” Wiggins, a brilliant child who is chosen to be, with dozens of his peers, trained for military combat. The enemy? An alien race of insect-like creatures that attacked the human race decades before. Card is masterful when it comes to making the reader feel what the main character feels, and this book is no exception, Ender is so REAL, and even if you can’t relate to who he is as a person, you can understand him. The story is amazing, it’s sad, yet full of triumph, at the end you are not sure whether to smile or cry, but you don’t want to put this book down.
Yay books. Honestly, I don’t know why I didnt like Ender’s Game when I first read it, it’s a really awsome book… ok so my opinion may be a bit biased because of my known fandom for Orson Scott Card, but this one DID win the Hugo and Nebula awards %) I am going to start to read Children Of Dune tonight… hopefully I can find a friend to tape the scifi mini-series of it for us (we don’t have cable).
Anyway… wow it’s gotten late %) *wrote this entry on and off all day* … right, I should go do stuff *wanders off*