o/` Nirvana – All Apologies o/`
*Looks at her two previous entries and shakes her head* No, my weekend was not dominated by drinking, s’just at those particular times all I could think of was the act and the results when I decided to write in my web logs.
The superbowl was last night, I didn’t watch it, completely forgot about it til I got onto IRC on Sunday morning and a couple people were talkingabout it. I hate sports.
So I log onto Yahoo! this morning to check my email, and scan the headlines quickly to see what’s going on in the world (my daily dosage of biased news from Yahoo! YAY!)… and BELOW the superbowl scores I see “Powell says has lost faith in inspections” … now did we have any doubt they were going to pull this? “You didn’t tell us what we wanted to hear, you must have failed” … fucking US, the UN won’t support our government if we attack, and according to stats I heard on NPR saturday 63% of Americans do not want to risk a war without UN support. But these statistics and predictability of the stupid US’ actions are not what amaze me about this whole thing… it’s that the freaking superbowl stats are listed ABOVE important lifeordeath war news! I read another article recently about Janeane Garofalo’s Anti-War stance, and she correctly said “It’s disgusting that we know more about Winona Ryder’s trial than we do about the Iraqi people.” … I don’t by any means see her as my hero for saying something like this, but it’s good a few people who can get camera time on the news are voicing an opinion, even if the media proceeds to tear them to pieces. I hate war.
What a wonderful monday, two of the three first paragraphs end with me hating things *tries to change the mood of this entry*
It snowed last night %) It’s so pretty out now.. and I’m watching for snow squirrels o_o … what’s a snow squirrel? Well last year was VERY mild here, so even when there were flurries it was always bordering the freezing mark, and the squirrels spent the entire winter preparing for winter, they were out looking for food and stuff to make their little squirrel-homes warm even when it was snowing! The first time we saw this was when Myk was on his computer and looked out the window in front of him and saw a little squirrel looking at him, before it scampered off into the snow. It was so cute %)! There havent been as many this year, maybe they realized that winter is here for real this time, hehe. So, thinking about squirrels this morning I wandered over to some squirrel sites, like squirrels.org (a site which I must commend, because although their site is a mess of evil java, you DO have the option of seeing it as “text only”)… did you know that the original name of a squirrel (skiouros … named in anchient greece) means “he who sits in the shadow of his tail” ? Yay! Useless facts!
Last night while reading up in my World History For Dummies book, I realized that over the past few months I really have learned enough about anchient history to finally have a solid base for learning more. I can give a fairly accurate picture from what is known about the beginning of civilized world til the fall of the roman empire. Again, I know we learned all this stuff in school, but I just dont remember. What is it about learning in school that did me absolutely no good? Was it just because I didn’t care? Is the method used to teach history bad? I remember the history that we learned in “fun” ways (games, interesting projects) even as far back as 5th grade.. and yet I can’t remember learning some things we were taught in my junior year of high school. I suppose it’s a bit of both, if some teacher had gone far enough to actually spark my interest in history instead of just going by the textbook learning method of temporary memorization I probably would have been interested and learned more. *Shrugs*
I have finished three books since my last review, so here are my most recent ones…:
Dune Messiah, By Frank Herbert, 331 pages
Thsi book takes place a few years after the first, Dune. Paul “Muad’dib” Atreides (now the Emperor), has secured his hold as ruler of the known universe through his massive Jihad. The guilds outwardly obey his wishes, millions of religious pilgrims are flocking to Arrakis, the world of the Messiah. It is obvious from this book that Herbert expects the reader to be completely familiar with his world. Like the first book, his attention to character AND plot development is complete, even in so few pages. Basically this book is focused on a single plot (of many before it no doubt) which precededs Paul’s final steps to becoming “immortal.” An excellent book, this series is quickly turning into being one of the best I’ve ever read.
Brave New World, By Aldous Huxley, 270 pages
This book is of the genre that books like 1984 and Fahrenheit 451, and movies like “Gattaca” and “Brazil” … it’s the future, technology has taken over, and we have order but no freedom. In the world of BNW, people are not born, but manufactured for different social classes, each essencial for a thriving society. They are conditioned to feel and behave in a certain manner, suited for their place in society and kept blissful through various entertainment, sexual promiscuity, and a manufactured drug called “soma.” This book was amazingly written, the future so frighteningly believable (yet we hope humanitarians would never let scientists go quite this far!). The social commentary in the last portions is very interesting, explainations of how and why the society “civilization” was made and suceeds in this form was enthralling and scary. Wonderful book.
The Door To December, By Dean Koontz, 510 pages
This book tells of a girl who, kidnapped from her mother by a crazed father, is recovered but is no longer a normal 9 year old girl. The story quickly unfolds, and a clever detective must solve a string of inexplicable murders surrounding the girl’s case, all while trying to keep the girl and her mother safe from unknown enemies. This is the first Koontz book I’ve ever read, and it interested me because of it’s paranormal ties. I guess the only problem I had with it was that it’s ending was rather abrupt, the ending comes 2 1/2 pages after the climax, certainly not enough time to resolve everything to my liking. Still, it was a good, yet not difficult to read, book… It kept me turning the pages chapter after chapter.
Whee books.
So it was recently brought to my attention by a friend that I might be “missing out” on part of life because I have never truly been on my own and single. They were concerned that I’d grow up and hit middle-age and realize that I never lived the single crazy life that I should have. Myk has hinted at similar possibilities… I don’t believe they are correct, but I can’t help but wonder a little bit. Everyone I’ve ever dated (4 guys) I met online and since 1998, when I started dating my first online boyfriend (at 17) I haven’t been single for more than a total of 3 weeks. I guess I do tend to rush into things, but at the same time, with 2 out of the 3 previous relationships I was in I dragged it out, feeling guilty for breaking up with them, putting it off until there were absolutely no feelings left. And EVERYTIME there have been male friends around to comfort me. Now, each time, I naively thought they really were all trying to be sweet, comforting friends, but as SOON as I started dating someone again I hardly heard from these other guys. I guess Myk is the exception, he was always a close friend. I guess what I am trying to say, is with my personality, it would be difficult for me to resist being in a relationship. I am just not the kind of person to have a “one night stand” … so if I wanted to enjoy my time with someone in more than just a “friendly” relationship I’d have to be involved with them… I guess a big part of my problem is that I have trouble keeping myself happy, alone. I spent most of my high school career being alon
e, and I fear that now, if someone offers me attention I draw from that, and do everything in my power to return that attention. Is this a bad thing? I suppose I do demand a lot of attention, especially from Myk … I’m one of those “high maintenance” girlfriends, hehe… Anyway, I do intend to spend the rest of my life with Myk, so maybe I have missed out being crazy and single, but do I need that? I have supported myself, lived in a “real world” while one of my ex’s sat on his ass and played video games in our apartments, been responsible for my own well-being, is that enough to be well-rounded?
Enough of that…
Ah, so, my weekend. Friday evening I went grocery shopping (yuck), took back dvds to blockbuster, and got that check from my grandparents cashed.I got home and certainly didnt feel like making dinner, so around 7 I called the local Indian Food place, and went to pick up some beer and the yummie dinner. It was soooo yummie, and despite my craving for beer that I’ve had for weeks, I only had two beers. Saturday I got up around 10:30, played around uselessly online for a couple hours, woke up Myk… then around 2 Myk’s friend from work came over so he could get Debian installed on his system. I read most of the afternoon while they did the install, but I spent a little time hanging out in the computer room with them. It was interesting to see a windows lover try to use linux. There is no such thing as a perfect linux install on a new system, and that was difficult to explain to someone who had always used windows. And it quickly became apparent that he is scared of the command line, which isn’t cool. We got pizza and buffalo wings around 5ish, and Myk showed Brent a bunch of linux things, got KDE set up for him, and by 9 pm he had a pretty nice linux system running. After he left we both had doubts about how far he is going to take it, his fear of the command line is going to severely deter his learning… I guess I definately take my interest in computers for granted, I just dove into everything linux when I began using it, I suppose it’s not that easy for everyone.
Before Brent left we started drinking a little (apparently he doesn’t drink tho *sigh*), I ended up getting really silly around 11ish… and at one point I was trying to find this stuffed animal that I COULD HAVE SWORN that I still had, it was driving me crazy, I went through ALL of them and couldnt find it! I then blamed my drunken state for my inability to locate this toy, but even the next day I was looking and couldnt find it, very very strange… the gnomes took it %( I’ll find it the next time we move, it’ll be packed with all my stuff and I’ll know I am crazy. Anyway, we had a nice night on saturday, I got pretty toasted, yay! Sunday moring I felt like crap of course, but I drank lots of water, and was never far from the Advil, and by the afternoon I was feeling fine again. I read for a while in the afternoon… made boca burgers for dinner (yum!)…
Yep, that was my weekend. Goddamn this has been a long entry %s I am going to go work on things noew *wanders off*