The weather is terrible this morning… dark, rainy, icy… actually I like it, but it’s terrible to drive in I’m sure. If the weather clears up by this afternoon we get to go see Two Towers %D! YAY! … actually I wont get *too* excited, the weather reports arent looking very promising.

I was actually quite sucessful with my poll yesterday, all I am doing now is working on a page to display the results, I can probably get php to calculate percentages fairly easily, maybe I can even make a sort of bar graph, that’d be cool, all sorts of html fun…

Yeah, so I am going to go do that noew *wanders off*

o/` Something Corporate – Konstantine o/`

This song depresses me, I should not listen to it.

I took down the christmas decorations this morning, it was also depressing, I guess I am not having a very good day so far. It’s also Myk’s first day back to work after 12 days off AND I barely got any sleep last night, of course all this adds up to me having a crappy day. I guess I am just slipping into the post-holiday winter depression again, and that’s not cool. I dont understand it, since I really do like winter, and it’s not the lack of sun thing, I never like the sun %) *shrugs* I think I just tend to feel hopeless around this time of year… and maybe particularly this year because it marks an entire year of me living here, and although I have made staggering progress with the computer, I just don’t feel like it’s enough, I mean, I even know how to cook now! But I still feel like a failure. I guess it’s because I don’t have a job, no matter how muchI glorify my acomplishments at home, I still feel like I am still ‘leeching’ off Myk, and I wasn’t taught to be like that at all *sigh*

I am going to cheer up now, or at least turn this entry in a more positive direction, dwelling on suckiness never helps, and I really am happy in life as a whole, I shouldn’t be depressed.

I have new years pictures YAY!:

Time (Myk) and Relic (the cat)

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Time and Relic again %)

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Grant in his seat near the fireplace

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mct (Mike) in his corner spot

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lost1 (Nita) drinking, YAY!

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PrincessLeia2 (Lyz) drunx0rd

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So I want to make a php poll for my website, using mysql as the database to store votes of course, and I am thinking about how to begin going at it. And while I was thinking about this I realized there was an interesting pattern to all my projects:

1. spend 3-5 weeks talking about it
2. finally get down to business and diving into what I want to do, ignoring IRC, closing browsers, focusing all energies on my project (usually this is on a wednesday or thursday).
3. about 4 hours into it get so frustrated that I complain that I will never get it done and that I’m stupid
4. around hour 5-6 making a major breakthrough and thinking I can finally do it
5. day one ends
6. don’t get much sleep that night because I am thinking about how co
ol the end project will be and how awsome it is that I am being sucessful
7. wake up early the next morning, pouring all energy into the project again, fixing bugs, and ‘making it pretty’
8. finishing the project mid afternoon on that second day

It’s quite funny actually, I have gotten better at #3 tho, I sometimes laugh at myself now when I get to this point… hehe

So I was at Eckerd’s Pharmacy on new years eve to get some soda and chips for the party, and the woman at the counter that is always there when I go asked me if I was ever going to submit my application. This surprised me because last I knew they were already hiring someone and submitting mine would only do me good if that person “didn’t work out” … so I sorta told her that it turns out we might be moving soon so I wasn’t sure I needed a job anymore. She was all sad and said “awww, that’s terrible! We need an assistant manager, and I told my boss I knew someone who would be perfect for the job, you!” … Gah! Assistant Manager? That must pay better than just a normal clerk, but there was a line at the store and I
really think we are going to move within the year, so I didn’t ask how much it was. *shrugs* why do jobs like this come around right before I move? I won’t be too quick to call it a curse because I DO move quite often ;)

Ok, I am going to go try to get something done today.. *wanders off*

Got so drunk last night, *everything hurts now*. Lan party awsome, we played lots of Unreal Tournament 2003 %) YAY!! My friend Nita and I made strawberry daquari mix + vodka slushies, they rocked. I ate lots of junk food too, hehe. We have pictures of the party on our digital camera, I’ll post them tomorrow probably, once we get the pictures uploaded to my site. Anyway, I am going to go back to bed for a little bit, need to give advil time to work, hehe. *winces as she reaches up to click the submit button then wanders off*

We’re going to a lan party this evening… it should be a nice New Years %)

The lan party is going to be great, usually we go to this couple’s house and since they have dial up it’s not online, and that’s fine, we have plenty of fun. But this one is at a friend’s house who has a T1 %o … so we’ll be online with a T1 AND he is going to borrow some cisco switches so we can have a fiber lan, YAY!!!! It’s going to be so nice. And it looks like about 10 or so people will be showing up at least, yay! Anyway, i gotta go take a shower and head out to the store to pick up snackfoods for the party… *wanders off*

o/` Patrick Doyle – The Price Of Success o/`

I actually did get some work done today despite my earlier post %) When I made that I was tired and thinking about wandering off to read with nothing but my email being checked and some chatting done to constitute as my daily acomplishments. Eventually I came back tho, and typed up a couple book review to start:

Coldfire Trilogy Book 2: When True Night Falls, By C.S. Friedman, 617 pages
This book is the sequel to Black Sun Rising and continues the crusade to save the world from the evil taking over. The characters this time are across the ocean on a continent uncharted and basically unknown of by their home. Their adventure against the fae-borne evils in this book are exciting and clever. The last 100 pages or so really bring this book together and make the whole book worth reading, as it takes the reader on a rollar coaster of emotion, revelation, and excitement. Again I am impressed with Friedman’s blend of science fiction with fantasy. I was much more impressed with this book than the predecessor, and I’m glad I kept reading this series.

Snow Crash, By Neal Stephenson, 448 pages
I first heard about this book a couple years ago, and it interested me, but I never really had the time to read it until recently. Often compared to William Gibson’s Neuromancer, this book takes a look at what the futuristic Internet might look like. The Metaverse, world of 3d, reproduced in front of your eyes, a world you can become lost in, and as the book tells, a world you can become hurt in. It’s the tale of Hiro Protagonist, and his efforts to deify himself and save the Metaverse from “Snow Crash” a virus that infects a ‘hacker’ and causes real physical harm. This exciting book takes place in fragments, between several characters and in the real world and the Metaverse, and explores a cult, some ancient Sumerian history, and paints a picture of a society ruled not by laws and countries, but by corporations. Even if you are not into “cyber-type” novels, there is really something for everyone in this book. I loved it.

1984, By George Orwell, 267 pages
This was my third time reading this book, and it was as good as I remembered. It tells of a future where the government has complete control over it’s civilians, primarily through around-the-clock survelence. Every word you say, movement you make, expression you show can be watched, and scrutinized. This book tells of two rebels, Smith and Julia who vaguely think they can cheat the system, but quickly learn how futile it is. But the plot is really secondary to the message, and warning, of this book. The message makes this book a nightmare, more scary than a Stephen King novel, and what makes this book so wonderful. When the government has complete control, your thoughts, your feelings, your soul, is not your own. Humanity as we known it today ceases to exist. If you haven’t read this book than you must, it is vital for our time, and an absolute classic.

I actually was feeling VERY lazy, since I had read 3 books since I last wrote a review, then looking back I realized it had only been 12 days, hehee…

After writing that short blog about the possibility of cutting my hair, that *very night* before I said anything to Myk, as if as an omen, this occured in #13thHour:

* Rubicant looks at Time….Has she cut her hair?
-@PartyTime- PrincessLeia2003 has always had long long long hair.
-@PartyTime- 8)
-@PartyTime- I like it.

(we have our new years nicks on, so PrincessLeia2003 is me, and Myk is PartyTime… of course)

Hmm, so maybe I wont cut my hair, I think still consider it tho.

In addition to finally getting those reviews typed up I also … don’t be shocked! Actually did a bit of work on the Recipe section of my site, YAY! … it’s even almost ready to be shown to the world, hehe.

I spoke to my Granddad this afternoon (my father’s father) .. I gave him my phone number with the Christmas Card I sent them, it was nice hearing from my grandparents, I have been a very bad granddaughter, hadn’t spoken to them in over 3 years. He wasn’t upset, just glad to hear from me finally, which is good, since I was paranoid about the phone call. Him and my grandma seem to be doing well tho, and they want to see me (of course) “we’ll buy you a round trip airline ticket!” … i might take them up on that offer in a couple months actually, heh.

Anyway, I am gonna go noew, prolly go make some dinner ’cause I’m hungry *wanders off*

i am so lazy

*Thinks about writing a long rambling entry*

*laughs and goes back to her nice warm bed*

If there is one thing I miss about New York, it’s the pizza and buffalo wings. People here in Philly just don’t know how to make either! The one good pizza place we go to is only ‘pretty good’ pizza (havent tried their wings) and they are a half hour away, close to the city (ick) so we don’t go often. Last night I wanted a new york pizza. So we called up this local little pizzeria around here, since Papa John’s pizza just isnt that great, and we ordered a large cheese pizza and some buffalo wings… Now we had hopes for this place, even after they told me that the sell the wings by the half dozen, with FRENCH FRIES. So I drive to the pizzeria, pick up the pizza, it’s a decent looking place, the people there are really nice and the food smells GREAT. I get home, look at the pizza and it looks really really good, nice thin crust, yummie looking cheese… so I pull out a piece and I try it. The bottom is fairly dark… so it tastes a little burnt… %(!!! I HATE it when my pizza is burnt *sigh* I guess i could give this pizzeria one more chance, I mean they cant burn ALL their pizzas, maybe I was just unlucky. But the wings smelled good, they must be good right? I should have known from the french fries. They were sorta buffaloy … mostly coated in sauce, but they just didnt have that fried/dripping with sauce taste that i love! … It’s like an experience a few weeks ago when we were at Unos pizzeria, and they had “boneless buffalo wings’ … sounds good right? They turned out to be chicken nuggets with a little bit of buffalo sauce on them… and they were a bit soggy. *sigh*

Anyway, I miss New York pizza. There was this place in Seneca Falls that had some pretty good pizza, you know the kind with thin crust, lots of cheese, and just the right amount of grease, and their buffalo wings, oh man, so dripping with sauce and grease that they would soak through the styrofoam container. Thats some good eatings %)

With cravings like this it’s really amazing that I am still thin, LOL… In other news I think I might cut my hair. Not trim. Seriously cut, like maybe a little longer than shoulder length… I think I have grown out of the long hair thing. I dunno, I am still thinking about it, and I have no idea what Myk will think about it, heehee, I guess I should run it by him and get his opinion… anyway *wanders off*

Sooo lazy today %)