o/` Frank Sinatra – The Most Wonderful Of The Year o/`
I was feeling really down last night, I think I was just tired… but it still sucked. Ended up going to sleep around midnight, and I didnt get up til 10:30 this morning, but I’m still exhausted. I also woke up with a sore throat, I’ve been munching on sore throat drops all morning, I hate sore throats! Hurts to eat, hurts to drink, hurts to swallow. I just hope this doesn’t mean I am getting a cold.
I think I actually know enough about MySQL and php to create my own little “Poll” for prinessleia.com… I had one back when I used phpnuke on my site, but have never gathered up the courage to write one myself. I think I will try to work on that this weekend, it’d be nice to have a guestbook and a poll up when I get my site all moved and stuff %)
I think we are going to put lights up on our little porch this afternoon *looks into the bag of throat drops* and I’ll need to get summore of these… other than that I think I will prolly be reading most of the day… I am so boring, hehee.
*wanders off*
o/` Fisher – Six Hundred Sixty Six o/`
Well I was going to put my guestbook up today… I ended up making it all pretty yesterday and even making it so each entry is colored with a randomly selected color (out of 5 different colors) .. I guess it looks a little tacky, but I can always change it someday if I really hate it, hehe. But we talked about getting rid of the cobalt last night, and decided we really need to save all the money we can for a house and the cobalt is *VERY* expensive (it’s a 20 gig cobalt at a NOC, oc-48 connection, unlimited bandwidth, use your imagination, hehe)… so probably sometime next month we wont have it anymore %( We’re going to move our sites to our home cable connection, and hope we dont have too many connection problems. It’s going to suck, and each time someone surfs our sites the connection speed will be shot to hell, but we must make some sacrifices to get a house someday, and this is a very small one in the scheme of things. SO I decided to just wait til we move the sites down to our home connection to set up the database for the guestbook, that way I wont have any problems moving the database or anything, and wont have to set it all up twice in a relatively short amount of time.
So today I got up, cleaned the apartment like I do every friday morning, and then came to my computer with 43545 ideas about what i could do today (when I take walks, clean, or most anything away from my computer that i have spare brainpower during I tend to think of all the stuff I will be doing once I get back to my computer, hehe). I ended up messing around with irrsi command binding %) Wrote a script so when i type /xmas it returns my “christmas facey” … and then i wrote one so when i do /x what i want %) to say … it turns the %) into a christmas facey… hehe, it’s all silly of course, but I hadnt done any perl scripting for irssi in a few months. I made one for Myk too, so his 8) has christmas’ness too, hehe… and now our chat nicks are PrincessJingle2 and ChristmasTime YAY! %
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Anyway, it’s friday, yay! I doubt we’ll be doing anything really this weekend. I havent been reading as much as I usually do, so I want to get a bit of reading done, maybe start setting up a box to handle all 4 of our domain names, n stuff.
*wanders off*
o/` Radiohead-Paranoid_Android o/`
It’s Snowing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ahem, now that I got that out of my system… the snow is nice, fluffy, happy snow %) We have something like 4 inches on the ground, it’s not supposed to stop til this evening, YAY! I love snow, and last year we hardly had any. We’re calling a place that delivers half cords of wood to get one delivered this weekend hopefully, with any luck that’ll be all we need this winter for our fireplace, and hopefully we’ll find room on our little porch for it all, hehehe.
Good news! Yesterday I made several breakthroughs with PHP and MySQL! I ended up creating a user for ‘guest’ in the guestbook database, made a table called book, went and then connected with php and I was able to write to the database using the mysql php module. Then I was able to grab the entries made by the php page with more php and display them on a page… all this took about 3-4 hours. Then this morning I finally got finished being able to post all the entries onto one page.. this was actually the hardest part of the whole process.! Uh, well if anyone is interested I’ll just post what I did after the connection to the database was established here:
$Rows = mysql_query(“select count(*) from book;”) or die (“Invalid Query”);
$NumberOfEntries = mysql_result($Rows,0);
$Entry = mysql_query(“select * from book;”) or die (“Invalid Query”);
while ($NumberOfEntries >= 1)
{
$NumberOfEntries–;
printf(“Date: %s?br?n”, mysql_result($Entry,$NumberOfEntries,”date”));
printf(“Name: %s?br?n”, mysql_result($Entry,$NumberOfEntries,”name”));
printf(“Email: %s?br?n”, mysql_result($Entry,$NumberOfEntries,”email”));
printf(“Webpage: %s?br?n”, mysql_result($Entry,$NumberOfEntries,”webpage”));
printf(“How: %s?br?n”, mysql_result($Entry,$NumberOfEntries,”how”));
printf(“Comments: %s?br?n”, mysql_result($Entry,$NumberOfEntries,”comments”));
printf(“?br??br?”);
}
Hrm, it appears these weblogs dont like replacement values for <'s and >‘s … well that’s what those ?’s are in the code %)
That looks like this (with two entries in the database at the moment):
It’s not very complicated, but I am really inexperienced with both MySQL and PHP, so it’s quite an acomplishment for me %) I’m really excited. I will make it all “pretty” today, and I’ll have Myk add a user for me in the MySQL database on the Cobalt (currently only root can write to the database, and I dont have the root pass) so I can put this on my webpage tomorrow. YAY!!!
We decorated the tree last night, well, put lights on it and an angel on top, hehe. We have bulbs to put on it, but none of those little wire things that you hang the bulbs from, I think we had this problem last year as well and said “aw we’ll get them next year..” hehe. The tree looks nice just with lights on it tho %)
My father called me last night. He seems to be doing alright, I guess his arthritis is getting pretty bad so he is seeing doctors about it… but he’s doing ok in the rehab program, reading a lot and doing a lot of writing, which is all cool ’cause those are things I enjoy too, and that I know he enjoyed before he became an alcoholic. It was nice talking to him though, even if half the conversation consisted of “you should move back to new england, the job market is nice, it’s beautiful here, you will be near family!” … I do love new england, but I don’t have terribly strong family bonds, so the only reason I would move up there is if Myk could find a good job, and we could find a nice place to live. My dad asked if I was getting married sometime too, ugh, my *mother* asks that everytime I talk to her too! Parents! They’re divorced, I’d think they’d know better than anyone not to rush into anything… I guess they just want to see me taken care of *shrugs*
Anyway, I’m gonna go make my guestbook pretty %) I’ll be making a “preview entry” page too I think, it’ll be fun anyway, I like making things pretty, hehe. *wanders off*
o/` Frank Sinatra – Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas o/`
Yes, Christmas songs already… we got a tree last night %) It was sorta a pain ’cause we didn’t know where to go to get one, so we just sorta started driving toward a place we had seen a few days before, and stopped at a stop light right next to a tree place. So we stopped there, it was just a place in a parking lot.. a local landscaper selling trees. So we picked out a tree and the kid went to cut part of the stump off and couldnt get the chainsaw started, then said they didnt wrap them OR give you anything to tie it onto your car with, so after 20 minutes of standing in the frigid weather we said forget it, heh. SO we decided to drive out to Frank’s Nursery and Crafts to get a tree (we got ours there last year), and on the way there we saw another place set up to sell trees, so instead of driving all the way to Frank’s we turned into that parking-lot. This time we had much better luck. Obviously this early not too many people are buying yet, so we were the only ones there, and they guy was really helpful. We *wanted* to get a smaller tree than last year, but I think we ended up with one the same size, hehe, trees look so much smaller outside! The guy working there helped us pick one out, and of course I was indecisive, I wanted the perfect tree! Finally, the 5th one he showed us seemed to be nice. We brought it home, cleared a space in our livingroom and put the tree up. It was a fairly painless process %)
We were able to get a tree last night ’cause Myk went into work early and so got to leave early, he went in early again this morning. This of course means that I got up early too, since I try to keep the same schedule as him. It’s really not so bad, I’m not a morning person, but getting up early doesnt seem to bother me, yet.
Don’t buy cheap socks. I got these socks at Ames las year and almost all of them have holes in them… I don’t even go out much, these are socks I wear around the apartment!. I hate having holes in my socks.
I finished updating my resume this morning. I guess it still sorta sucks, but it’s better than it was %D I suppose I am going to put it up on my website, why would I be reluctant to do this? I doubt someone will give me a job by visiting my site, and I’m not sure that’s worth the risk I take by putting my address so publicly on a site like that… but of course if anyone really wanted to stalk me there are 5465465 other ways to find that information. Yeah, so wanna see my resume? HIRE ME!. I hate writing resume’s … I’ve never had much talent for writing (says the girl with the daily huge weblog, I know).
Maybe I shouldnt run apache all the time, it takes up resources and it’s sorta silly, it’s not like I NEED my network page active all the time, only Myk ever sees it, I only actually have it for testing stuff anyway, and I am not always testing stuff, sometimes I am wasting time writing in my weblog %D
Stalkers suck. “Oh no, another stalker pl2? That sucks” … NOPE! It’s not someone stalking ME this time… it’s someone stalking Myk, and ex-girlfriend to be exact. See, a few months ago this chatter came in as “Captain” … at first I thought it was a guy, for the first few weeks actually. Then one day she said something that made me realize she was female, and we saw that her ISP was the college that Myk’s most recent ex went to. So the next day I asked where she lived, she said Michigan (NOT the place where the college is, it’s in West Virginia) and I asked where she went to college and she said that that was also in Michigan. So unless we had been mistaken, she was lying. It sucked because I had been really nice to her and helped her out with some things, given her computer advice, etc. Then, last night, she came into chat while I was in the bedroom reading, and Myk asked her if she went to that college in WV, she said yes, he asked if she knew his ex, she said yes. Then she started this whole thing about how Myk’s ex was bisexual now, always hanging out in bars, etc… Now the reason Myk’s ex broke up with him was that she was “born-again Christian” even to the point of becoming a missionary to Honduras, so something was strange here %) Given that Captain’s credibility was shot to hell since she lied about living in Michigan, Myk grabbed her IP and found out that it was the same ISP that his ex’s parents use (with whom she was living with last we knew). So we came to the conclusion that Captain IS his ex, and she is fucking crazy %) Why can’t she just leave us alone!? She broke up with him because he would never become a Christian, so it should have been over then… but last year when I started dating him she started harassing me until we started ignoring her, and now this! Holiday Stalking Season. Creepy.
Don’t you love how my weblog jumps around from random subject to random subject? No transitional sentences here!
I have been watching more tv than usual lately, I am not sure why really… it’s weird. I was watching CourtTV the other night and they had some show on E. Coli … I never knew much about it, it’s nasty! The show made me very glad I don’t eat beef %) They said that something like 3% of ground beef is infected! Of course if you cook it properly you shouldnt have to worry about the meat being contaminated, but what about when it’s in your refrigerator and has the chance to get on other food? Ick. Yay paranoia!
So in response to Ailstyn‘s comment, yah, newsspeak… I dont actually use it often, heh, but now that it’s brought up … I should really read 1984 again.. it’s been a few years. And yeah, i play computer games, and run linux, and like anime, and play magic the gathering, and all sorts of things girls don’t usually do… but I’m one of the most “girly” people when it comes to stuffed animals, cute animals, and the color pink (% hehee.
PLUG is tonight, I doubt we’ll go though, it’s supposed to snow, and the LAST place I want to be when it’s snowing is center city. We really should go to a meeting sometime tho, haven’t been since june %
I am going to go noew… I never did get around to messing with PHP and MySQL yesterday so I will do that now *wanders off*
o/` Hooverphonic – Mad About You o/`
I posted entries from the previous days (I post to a livejournal as well, so I just grabbed the entries from there to update here) … and I read the apology from xanga about the down-time, and I am pleased they offered AT LEAST that apology. I mean I know I really shouldn’t complain about a free service, but if I actually paid for this, like so MANY people do, I’d be veeeerrrry upset. I have to hand it to xanga tho, they obviously have a very good business plan to make so many people comment on their apology with “aww that’s ok, you dont need to apologize” … they made their business seem like a community, instead of an entity providing a premium service for a price.
I didn’t get much sleep last night. Ever since I was about 12 years old I have had trouble sleeping at night… I remember going to a few slumber parties and being all happy that I was the last one to fall asleep, ’cause it really wasnt difficult. Of course this has always hampered my ability to function %) But I’ve always been really good at sleeping during the day… so I guess it’s not exactly classic insomnia, I guess I’m just nocturnal. Anyway, I did get myself onto a normal nighttime sleep schedule and that seemed to help. Unfortunately when Myk has vacation time, like this past weekend, I tend to go to bed at 4 am… wake up at 10, go back to bed at 1 pm then wake up again at 3pm. So I get enough sleep, but again slipping into sleeping during the day again. Last night I read for a while then tried to go to sleep around midnight. Tossed and turned til about 1:30 when Myk came to bed… and was awake in bed most of the night just thinking about things, and dozing off a couple of times I’m sure… Ended up just getting out of bed finally when Myk left for work early (around 6:30 am). I actually don’t feel bad right now, but I am sure I am going to be really sleepy come this afternoon. Must. Resist. Napping.
Myk just forwarded me an email about a web development studio that’s hiring… looks interesting. Apparently they are looking for people who work with php, mysql, and/or graphics designing… hmmm. Looks like you send a list of your skills, and if they accept you into their group they will contact you in the future sometime to work on projects. Apparently most people work for free, but if your skills are worth it to them they’ll pay you. Well it may not be a way to make my first million, but if anything I can get experience, even if I have to work for free for the first few projects. Ah volunteer web work is great to put on a resume! *grins* I really need computer related projects/work to put on my resume, since i’ve never had a job in the field…
Anyway… oh, a guy that I know just recently broke things off with his fiancee. I wouldnt normally mention this, because I don’t particularly like this guy very much, but the conditions of the breakup were what bothered me. The girl is about 2 years older than him (she’s 19 and he’s 17…) and apparently she cheated on him, lied to him, and was an all out bitch. When they finally broke up she said she not only didn’t love him, but she HATED him and would get a restraining order against him if he didnt leave her alone. She also said that she kept saying she loved him because she “felt sorry for him” and she said she’d marry him because she “wanted to make him happy” … and in the end she said she didn’t love him anymore because he “wasnt cute enough” … Now how cold-hearted can you get?! How could leading someone on and making them falsely believe you love them make someone happy? I mean lying to yourself about loving someone is one thing, but actively cheating on someone while saying it is completely different! Now of course he is paranoid that when he falls for a girl she’ll just turn around and cheat on him… I hate girls like that. Make all of us look like cheating whores, and no doubt this guys next girlfriend will be kept under close guard to make sure she doesnt cheat, which is completely unfair. *sigh* Liars suck
Oh I am going to talk about my keyboard again! *ahem* This new one is really nice, but I realized the other night when I went to put a cd in the drive that i don’t have any hot-keys on this keyboard! After all the work I went through learning about xmodmap and xev so I could bind cdplay to those silly hot-keys on my old keyboard, and now I don’t even have them anymore… very sad. I was so disappointed I almost switched back to my old keyboard, hehe.
Ok, I am feeling tired already, it’s going to be a long day.
I installed Open Office this morning so I can update my resume and send one off as a .doc file, as well as html (Myk has an html to pdf program that I need to grab from him sometime as well so I can have it in pdf format as well…). This is the first time I’ve run OpenOffice on my new computer, and I have to say I am quite impressed, it’s not nearly as slow and annoying as it was on my 450 mhz machine %) Of course I am sure this is to be expected, but still, it’s actually a nice program when it doesnt take three minutes and all my computer power to launch. I just need to work on having it play nicely with my ttf fontys, hehe.
A friend of mine has a quake server running on his box now, and told me that I “HAVE TO” install quake in linux so we can play sometime… There is a linux installer at http://www.quakeworld.net … of course I need the original version of Quake, so my friend has to send that to me I guess *shrugs* It would be fun tho, as old as the game is (% especially if I can get it installed without breaking anything, hehee.
I am thinking (after I get my resume updated) of trying to mess with php and mysql a little to see if I can create a guestbook for my site. I had a guestbook on princessleia2.com when that existed, it was called EZGuestbook or something, and it was not hard to setup I guess, but it didn’t always work… and that’s annoying. Besides, I need the php/mysql experience… it’ll be fun too. I am actually going to try to make it so I can distribute it for other people to use (I have a terrible habit of creating things so they work especially for me and would be infinitely confusing for anyone else to use… yes, taking the easy way out… writing a script is easy, making it user friendly and writing documentation is hard!). Yeah, so I am going to start working on how to do that today, which should take quite some time seeing as i don’t even remember how to open a mysql database with php %D
Wow, it’s my normal time for waking up, I guess that means I didnt waste any time today writing in my weblog! Hehe… I should sleep less… er… nm… i love sleep z_Z
Right, so I am gonna go noew *wanders off*
: : Monday, December 02, 2002 11:02 am : :
o/` Ani DiFranco – Untouchable Face o/`
Well I got drunk last night. It was fun.. chatted a bunch, then watched adult swim. Around 12:30 I decided I was tired enough to go to sleep, of course I hadnt sobered up by then. Brought a glass of water to bed like usual and fell right asleep. Woke up at 3 am really thirsty since I didnt really bother to drink much before I went to bed… finished my glass of water, got up to get another, drank it, got another and wandered back to bed. Had a *terrible* time sleeping after that. Myk didn’t come to bed til this morning sometime, and it must have been right before he came to bed that I finally fell back to sleep (something like 6 or 7 this morning, I can’t see the clock when I dont have my glasses on, and you arent supposed to keep looking at the clock when you cant sleep! Hehe). So then I got up this morning at 9:30 ’cause I was out of water again and needed more. I feel terrible! Luckily it’s just that I’m exhausted, not a headachey sick stomach hangover thing… I hate hangovers.
So Myk has off today, we were going to go get my PA license today (yes, I am a bad person, I still have my Maine license), but it turns out that the license centers are only open tues-friday! WTF?! Stupid government workers! Hehe… there actually are a couple that are open for a few hours (until like 4:15 in the afternoon)… Maybe some other day, thursdays they are open til 8 pm… We probably will go get a Christmas tree though, if we are both awake before 5 pm tonight, hehe.
Yeah, so I am gonna go back to bed ’cause I’m tired.
: : Sunday, December 1, 2002 3:04 pm : :
I went to a LAN party yesterday. It wasn’t as organized as they usually are, and there ended up only being 6 of us playing, but I did have fun anyway. Instead of just playing one game the whole time like happened at the last lan party, we played a bunch of different ones, so it was cool… played Battlefield 1942, UT 2003 (which rocks, and since we installed on linux we dont need the cd in the drive to start! I have it forever now) Warcraft 3, and Mechwarrior 4: Mercencaries (I couldnt play this one ’cause my computer got all weird on me… really messed up screen when I started up the game). Anyway, it was fun. We were there from about 4:30 til almost 3 am. The only problem we had was when our friend Barry tried to install UT2K3 on his computer it told him to reboot, and when he did it came back to a really messed up screen, there were all these weird processes running, and hardly anything would run (we got freecell to work! heh). Anyway by the time this happened it was around 2 am, and I was exhausted, so we decided to leave. Accidentally left our Battlefield 1942 disks there too %( And then I got a call this morning from Barry, telling me that a few other computers that were at the lan party were also infected with the virus! … which as it turns out is actually a worm, they alsosaid it didnt show up on virus scan, but i just assumed that was because they had an older virus scanner. Anyway, I booted into windows just to check on my system, and I realize that I dont have anti-virus installed! So I grab norton anti-virus 2002, install, get updates, reboot, and do a virus scan. Nothing. I look around for abnormal behavior, and can’t find anything (mind you, I am not windows techie, I might have missed something, I will have Myk check it out for me later). Just in case though, I am grabbing my important windows files and saving them here in linux, a complete windows reinstall would not be the end of the world, just a big pain in the ass %)
The people who hosted the lan party have two really great dogs. I love playing with them, even though they are big dogs.. but everytime I go over there I realize that I really do have allergies to animals %( After a few hours of being in that house I start getting sniffles, and coughing, watery eyes… it really sucks. I’m slightly allergic to cats too, and no doubt most anything with fur… I love animals! It really sucks, growing up I was *fine* we had tons of pets, never any problem. I think I will try to have a cat someday, because I will be so lonely without a pet! Hopefully the allergies will never get much worse.
I’m not using my uber cool cordless keyboard anymore. I really do like it, but a couple of the keys are a pain to use ’cause they are sorta broken (yay keyboard abuse). Like, the right arrow key is almost impossible to use unless you are careful, so when I play games that require arrow keys I get really frustrated with it… so I am using this extra keyboard we have, it has a reaaallly long cord so I can still move it around like my old one, but it’s got really nice keys that are quiet, and they all work, hehe.
I am talking about keyboards o_O
Yep, that means this entry is coming to a close… *wanders off*
Peter Murphy – Subway Epilogue
I’ve had, I’d say, two legitimate crushes in my entire life. In high school I had a huge crush on a good friend of mine, Brian Crosby… then after graduating I began to have this huuugge crush on Myk, which of course lasted until I started dating him and then ‘crush’ turned into ‘infatuation’ then love. I suppose I’ve had little crushes on people in the past, fleeting things that were never anything, like in the 6th grade when I had a crush on Chris Rovsar (no excuse for this one, I thought he was cute and he’s way smart… I think I heard he even goes to Yale now, heh), then that short thing I had for Seth Dromgoole for a couple weeks in high school (I can’t really explain this one, other than that he was nice to me sometimes, when I hung out with him and his cousin Lisa, despite completely ignoring me in anything else that could be considered a social situation. Um, you know come to think of it, he was Lisa Clark’s cousin.. and Lisa’s cousin is Lynn Perkins, and my mother married into the Perkins family… so I’m actually *related* to Seth now, albeit distantly, yay Maine!). Anyway, the reason for this? Partially to entertain MorganHorse, who I went to high school with, but mostly to say I know exactly what it feels like to have a crush on someone, and be too shy to say anything.
So last night a friend of mine came to me.
(the basic jist of the convo)
friend: you around?
me: yep %)
friend: … i have a confession to make, if I didnt tell you I’d feel like I was lying
me: um, ok, what’s up? %)
friend: I know you are with Myk and all, but I have a crush on you
friend: I dont want it to ruin our friendship
me: i dont want it to either, but I hope you know I’m probably going to be with Myk for the rest of my life
Now this sort of situation has happened to me before, luckily this time this friend was smart enough to see that it was a crush, not that he was “in love” with me like they usually say… so it’s not as troubling. But it’s still always hard when a friend confesses something like this. I can try to just pretend like he didnt say it, and act the same way I always have (which I usually do) but there will always be this nagging feeling, wonder if he still feels that way, and *hoping* that he will get over it quickly. In any event it does change the friendship a little, but I have to say I am glad he was honest with me, I really hope it doesnt damage the friendship though… There have been a few times when it has, and that is terribly disappointing. Hopefully this friend will be strong enough to keep our friendship alive, he’s really cool and I’d hate to lose that.
Now I think I can explain this whole irc crush thing. I don’t think I am particularly special, or great because “all these guys” feel the need to like me, I think it’s all an issue of male:female ratio on IRC. In nearly all (hmm, actually… ALL) the channels I chat in there are significantly more males than females, and so it’s only logical, if I am caring, and thoughtful, and funny, that some guys would feel some sort of attraction, especially knowing that a lot of people on irc (myself included) come there so often because their social life (and usually love life) are a little less than average in activity.
In any event it is kinda flattering I guess, at least I know I am not an old maid yet ;)
Ok, enough of that… s’just something I needed to “talk” about.
Go here it is funny: Jesus.com
We’re going to a LAN party today, yay! I guess we’ll mostly be playing Total Annihilation (which I have never played) and Battlefield 1942.. should be fun.
So I mentioned a couple days ago that I was going grocery shopping on the day before thanksgiving. It turned out to be a very pleasant experience. I went around 4 pm, and sure it was busy, but they were obviously very prepared for the rush so I was able to get out of there faster than normal, it was nice. I hate it when I got there at 10 pm, and all 3 other people in the store all decide to checkout at the same time as me, and they have only one open register…
Myk made me an IRCOP on irc.clockbot.net … the chatserver with 13thHour on it. Apparently he saw that I was an ircop on another server and felt bad that I wasnt one on ours. *shrugs* It’s cool though, there are times that it could be useful %)
I guess I’m gonna go eat some breakfast now *yawns and wanders off*
Yesterday was nice, we had chicken instead of turkey… had stuffing, mashed potatoes, cornbread. Before dinner we had a “cheese snack” of gouda, port wine, and wenselydale cheese, and some garlic hummusy ummie! And of course we had some beer, Rogue Dead Guy’s Ale, yummie stuff. Later we had some pumpkin pie and eggnog with vodka, yay! It turned out to be a nice day, I only wish we had had some wood so we could have had a fire in the fireplace *shrugs*
So it’s “black friday” .. I am not going anywhere near a store %)
I am however going back to bed since it’s freaking freezing in here, hehe. *wanders off*