Nirvana – You Know, You’re Right

Yes, I live under a rock, I didn’t know they released an old Nirvana song! Gah… it’s really great %) A friend of mine sent me the mp3, it’s on my webserver, so I will now illegally share it in the manner that I illegally recieved it

http://www.princessleia.com/sounds/Nirvana-You_Know_Youre_Right-Full_Studio_Version.mp3

I will only keep it up for about a week or so, so grab it if you want it %) in that sounds directory I also have some They Might Be Giants that I havent got around to deleting (in fact, you might wanna bookmark it ’cause I use this directory for giving people mp3s… so the choices of what I have are always changing).

Fooey.

Just heard from the realtor… we didn’t get the house %(!

Ah I can look on the bright side, now I can get a new computer

*starts planning all that she will do with her new computer… starting with the name*

Soul Coughing – Unmarked Helicopters

I love sleep

Sometimes things just suck because you had such high expectations.. then you realize later that they didn’t really suck at all. I hate that. Last night we went to the Drafting Room for my birthday. I was expecting to get all sloshed… but it turns out the restauarant, dispite it’s bar and grill atmosphere, was nice enough for people to bring kids to, and they did. We should have been smarter and gone to a completely 21 + place… ’cause I have this serious problem with drinking in front of kids. Besides that we had the WORST waitress in the world. If it had been Unos I could understand it, but the food was quite expensive, as were the drinks, so we expected good services, but this woman was just AWFUL… She was like 45 and I SWEAR she was doing some sort of drugs in the back to make her cheerful, which just turned out to be obnoxious and annoying. She really made us all feel uncomfortable, and got all flustered when we asked for separate checks (so we just told her to forget it). She was NEVER around when we needed her, never offered to even replace our drinks when they were empty… It was just awful. I didn’t really get drunk…

On the bright side (last night I was feeling sorta down dwelling on all the sucky stuff) I DID get to try some yummie stuff. Myk ordered some La Chouffe (It’s a belgian ale), and that was really yummie… exactly what I have come to expect out of a Belgian Ale. I ordered some Lindemans Kriek (again belgian), it’s a ‘fruity’ beer, and dispite people saying “it still has the beer taste” i could hardly taste it.. it was all cherry yumminess. Unfortunately the stuff is like $120 a case (the Chimay we usually get is only $70-80 a case), but I really think it’d be worth it for special occasions. Mike (mct) got some Lindemans Framboise (same as mine, but rasberry), I tried some of that, it was much fruitier and wetter (mine was rather dry)… I didnt like it as much as mine %) Nita (Mike’s girlfriend) ordered a Red Death, which I tried and was impressed with.. then she ordered a Long Island Iced Tea, i tried that too and didn’t really like it.. but that’s not surprising ’cause I am not much of an iced tea person, and she said that particular one was quite strong anyway. Ed (n-tropy) got a mudslide, which I didn’t bother tasting ’cause I have had them before (albiet home-made). The food was quite good as well. For an appitizer we got this yummie spinach and crab dip with pumpernickel bread, mmmm. Then for dinner I had a grilled chicken sandwich with brie on it (mmm cheese). Then for dessert I had a yummie warm brownie with some rocky road ice cream %d

After dinner I was a bit disappointed that I was only a little tipsy, so we came home and hung out with Mike and Nita for a while (Ed went home) and I had a couple beers, just because it WAS my 21st birthday and all. After they left I spent the rest of the night watching Adult Swim and munching on chips and drinking beer, then around 12:30 I was REALLY tired (from the drinking no doubt) so I went to bed and had no trouble falling asleep… it was nice %)

One thing that did bother me about yesterday was the realization, yet again, of how insanely shy I am. See I get all excited about going out, tell myself that I AM comfortable with the people I’ll be hanging out with, and have all these images of me finally being the center of attention, or at least talking enough to be part of the conversation most of the time. And again I failed. I dont know what it is, when we go out with just Mike and Nita I am fine, but the addition of Ed just maybe makes it one person too many.. or maybe I am not as comfortable around
him as I thought.. gah I dunno %( It’s just frustrating that I am shy, and I really can’t help it. And it’s just in social situations. If I am working somewhere I can interact with customers in a casual non-shy manner (even when it’s 7 drunk italian guys at 2 am in seneca falls, and they all want subs). And even when we were dealing with the realtor, I was being helpful and talkative, and open with exactly what we were interested in as far as a house goes. But drop me at a club with friends and I turn into Super Wall Flower. And it’s something non-shy people can’t understand at all. I mean Myk is sorta shy, but he can also be very socially active around friends, so he can’t understand when I get frustrated by not being able to talk much.. he just says “you’re intelligent and pretty and you have all sorts of good ideas, you just need to talk about them”. If only it was that easy %( I wish I had just grown out of this! Oh and of course in chat I am not shy, quite the opposite (Myk mentioned last night that I should get out more, move away from chat… but what is there to do? Who can I hang out with?… then I told him that chat was not the problem, that I was actually more shy before chat, he didnt believe that was possible!). Bleh, I dunno what my problem is. Maybe it’s some sort of subconcious left over self-esteem problem from my teenage years when I thought I sucked, so I’m afraid I’ll make a bad impression on people who I want to be my friends, when conciously I KNOW that if I was just my normal self people would like me.

I don’t want to get dressed today, I just wanna sit here at my computer in my pajamas and cuddled in my comforter.

Myk installed Gentoo Linux (www.gentoo.org) on part of his computer last night. It’s quite nice %) He’s gonna show me some more tonight (since I was way too tired last night) but it’s very promising. Myk seems to think that if we don’t get the house he wants to buy me a nice new computer, then I could use r2d2 as a test box… if that happens I might play with debian and gentoo on r2d2, it’d be fun %D I wont get too excited tho, since I STILL don’t know what’s going on with the house. Anyway, I am looking forward to checking it out more, seeing how well enlightenment runs, and better yet how well UT2003 runs %)

Anyway I wrote my second shell script this morning. I am lousy at shell scripting, mostly because I never used it much, so each time I find myself doing somethine repeditive I get all excited and write one. This one was for generating ircstats for #13thHour. All it does is cd into the pisg directory (where the perl script to generate the stats is), run the pisg script, cd’s back out of the directory, then starts the scp to upload the html stats file… all i need to do is type “bash ircstats” and then put in the password for the scp. It’s nice and easy %)

Well I have stuff to do today (I guess…) so I’ll go noew *wanders off*

Slight change of plans, we are going here instead:

http://www.draftingroom.com/

CHIMAY ON TAP!!!!

I’m gonna get so trashed %D

Happy birthday To Me! Yay! (shh this is my blog, I can be as self centered as I want).

I went to a convinence store last night to pick up some soda, milk and ice cream. I get to the counter, hand the lady my credit card and I get “we dont take any credit cards here, only cash, the MAC machine is over there”. I stood there for a second, trying to understand this… then pushed my stuff off to the side and went over to the generic mac machine (that charged me 1.75 to use it, plus i will get a 1.50 charge from my bank for using a machine other than theirs).. and got $20 out to pay for my stuff… Ugh… And it’s not like it was a small mom and pop store, I could understand that! This was a big chain store… now I assume that other stores in the chain take credit cards, and I am not sure why this one was different but it really was amazing. I think every store should take credit cards… I hate cash, this is the 21st century dammit! %)

Anyway, last night we had yummie indian food for dinner %) I guess you could say yesterday was Myk’s and my ‘official’ one year anniversary, so we decided having yummie food in would be nice. It turned out to be a really nice night (%

Um, I guess that’s it… for noew… I’ll be sure to post tomorrow with all the details of my 21st birthday fun tonight, hehe, mmm drinkys.

Wow, I was really bumming in that last blog yesterday… I feel better noew %) I’ll probably take Leslie’s advice and just go out for dinner tomorrow, have a drink there. I am thinking of going to Unos.. ordering a cheesey deep dish pizza, and some sort of disgustingly sweet/strange alcoholic drink… and top it all off with a brownie sundae. That would be good.

Of course we haven’t heard back about the house yet. No doubt the relocation company doesnt do anything on weekends so it’ll be next week before we hear anything. I guess Myk wants to get me a motherboard and processor if we don’t get the house, but I was thinking about it recently and there *are* games that would work better if I had a faster processor, but I am really content with it right now. What I REALLY want is a certain domain name (which will remain unnamed until I buy it because I can hardly believe it is unowned). If we register through gandi.net it’s only $10.. and we still have that part of the cobalt put aside for the now gone princessleia2.com so it wouldn’t be *too* much work.

I dunno what we’ll do today, prolly nothing.. we have to swing by blockbuster and return a video (an mst3k movie… “Mitchell”), but other than that I think we’ll just chill.

I got a birthday present from my mom yesterday %D!

It’s a supplimental book to the Wheel Of Time series, really interesting… and it has lots of pictures %D hehe. It only covers up to book 7 (book 10 is coming out in november) but since I am only on book 6 that’s ok… it wont give away much if I start reading through it now. It gives lots of in depth information about the history and stuff… really cool, and gives me a much better “picture” of the whole Wheel Of Time world… wow, I don’t think I have ever been so into a series before…

Anyway, I guess I’m gonna go read for a while *wanders off*

Marilyn Manson – Mechanical Animals

So I called the realtor this morning… she says “two other people put a bid in at the same time as you did” luckily we were one of the two high bids, but since there were multiple bids it has to go to the relocation company for review before we know if we got it or not. THAT SUCKS. See my 21st birthday is on sunday. We were hoping to know about the house by today, so if we got the house we could celebrate my birthday here at home, not do much (since we’d be poor because we are buying a house!)… and if we didn’t get the house we were gonna be all depressed and get completely trashed spending outragous amounts of money on alcohol on my birthday. Now we won’t know which to do!!! Damn, I wish this wasnt all happening around my birthday %( Noew I have to have a boring birthday no matter what. St00pid house people!

Madonna – Frozen

So we didn’t hear from our realtor yesterday… I’m not sure why she just *wouldnt* call us after finding out from the realtor selling the house if we got it or not… prolly the answer came later last night and she didn’t want to wake us up or something by calling late? Gah.. I’ll call her this morning once I wake up o_O

So you know those people who just “hate their birthday so much” that they are offended and even mad when you go out of your way to celebrate their birthday? I HATE that! Like yesterday, a friend of mine was turning 32… maybe not a wonderful age, but he certainly isn’t old… I made him an ecard (hosted on my website so no spam), made a topic in a room to celebrate his birthday, and then when I saw him yesterday evening in chat I said “Happy Birthday!” And what do I get? No comment about the ecard… a change of topic in the room celebrating his birthday, and a “Leia.. don’t remind me” when I wished him happy birthday in the channel. Bleh… I don’t know why I try so hard (%

So about that irc network stat generating stuff I was working with yesterday, I found nothing that I could really use for what I want to do. So it was back to trying to make an irssi perl script for pulling the /luser stats from the server. Well that was an absolute failure %) I am not very good at perl you see, and so anything in perl is a bit of a struggle… so I discovered the function “sleep” which is supposed to put the script to “sleep” for a given number of seconds, and in effect working sorta like a timer… I’d create an infinate loop, and at the end I’d put the sleep function, so before starting the loop again it’d stop for … say.. 15 seconds. Well I had a lot of trouble with that for 2 reasons. For some reason (whether it was irssi or something inherent in irc servers I dont know), even when I was doing a test, having the client say “hi” every 15 seconds it would show up to others about 5 times, after that it would continue to say “hi” but I wouldnt be able to see it as another chatter… very strange. Plus, I discovered that the sleep function puts the entire irssi program to sleep! I am not sure why, I only wanted the script to stop, but it makes irssi completely unresponsive, I cant switch windows, or even close it without a kill… it seriously sucks. I tried looking around CPAN for another way to write a “timer” but sleep was the only function I found… SO I decided to give NET::IRC another try. Ugh. I only worked with it for about an hour yesterday, was able to actually connect to a server with the correct nickname, username, etc… but each time I try to get it to do something (like joining a room) I get errors. I was probably just tired and stressed out yesterday tho, I’ll give it another shot today.

Anyway, it’s friday, and that means it’s cleaning the apartment day. So I’ll go do that, then call the realtor if she hasn’t called by the time I’m done… I’ll post later to give news of the house bid status %)! *wanders off*

Peter Murphy – Dragnet Drag

I’m stressed out %(

We havent heard back about the house yet… but it’s only 11 and they have til 5 to tell us if we got it or not *sigh* We were looking over paperwork and stuff last night, it’s all so expensive… we’ll be able to pay it all, but it’s kinda scary (for me anyway) to be so responsible… the mortgage will be a little more expensive than what we pay for rent here, so our standard of living really shouldnt change much, it’s just when you own a house there are so many things you have to worry about. I guess I’d be nervous if we were millionares too %) In some ways I really don’t want our bid to go through because then we would stay here another year, putting off all this work just that much longer, afterall, I am the Princess Of Procrastination %D

Well to get my mind off all this I was playing around with some irc network stat generating things. One of them uses the Round Robin Database, but doesnt seem to want to work properly.. messed with that for WAY too long yesterday, hehe… I just stumbled upon this other one that uses the MySQL database (that I have been doing some work with recently) to collect ircstats… it’d be my job to write up the php to interpret the info, it might be a kewl project! And I would learn a ton more about php and mysql.

Gah anyway I’m gonna go wander off and hope that I get that call about the house soon… I don’t know what I want the response to be, but either way I’m sure I will be quite relieved when the call comes…

The Cars – Since You’re Gone

Yeah, The Cars… I was at a keg party once and they were playing an old vinyl of The Cars and I realized how cool they were and downloaded a bunch of their mp3s when I got home, hee.

I had a really REALLY strange dream last night. See I think I lived in a mixture of this apartment and the apartment I lived in above a liquor store in Seneca Falls… which is strange because the difference between the two is just so vast that it could only be captured in a dream. Anyway apparently I was living with my mother, and I was in the kitchen doing dishes, and listening to Fisher, when my mom comes in the front door and yells at me for listening to “The Devil’s Music so loud that the whole neighborhood could hear it” Then went on to tell me that she was trying so hard to get back into the Christian lifestyle and I was countering her every move at it.

Yes, very odd.

I am not sure where this dream came from, I guess I was thinking of calling my ma and telling her we put a bid in on a house… and monday Myk made a comment about all the churches in the area we are moving to… and I dunno, OH! During part of the dream Mr Bones (the cat I had with my ex) was walking around and I was cleaning his dish… That must be from Myk and I talking about getting a kitten when we get a new house… I was missing my other kitten %(!

Anyway, I told Myk last night that we shouldn’t talk about “which would be our room” and “which would be the computer room” and “where the cat little box would go”…. until we knew we got the house. I’m just terrible with jinx’ing these things with my excitement… did I ever mention I’m superstitious like that? Heh… so instead I am thinking of all the bad things about buying this house. And I will list them here to convince you (who reads this?!) and myself that they are real concerns.

1. the yard is really small, I like big yards, and because of the lack of space there is a pretty good chance we won’t be able to get a dog (Myk wants a dog…). 2. Owning a home is freaking expensive! We will run into this whenever we buy a house, but as of noew the mortgage is $200 more a month than our rent here. Now of course we will get by… and I will be close enough (about a mile from) to places where I can get a part time job, but still, I will work and we will maintain this same standard of living… 3. The house is in an area that is a bit more populated than I would have liked 4. There is unfinished work to the attic above the garage, and neither of us are good at “carpentry” work… it will need to be finished. 5. The fireplace is a propane fireplace instead of a real one with wood and stuff.

Ok enough talking about the house.

Besides that strange dream I guess I slept alright most of the night.. that is until I woke up just after 7 really thirsty (I keep a glass of water by my bed, but I apparently had drank it all throughout the night)… plus I was sneezing and coughing because they are doing the yardwork outside today… I am so allergic to cut grass (oh! there is another reason, we’d have to get a lawnmower and cut our own grass! hehe). So I got up, got a glass of water, took some Benadryl and crawled back into bed.. not falling back to sleep of course, ugh.

Right, so a little note on the move of my irc channel #13thHour. I was concerned that moving it to another server would “kill” the room… I couldn’t have been more wrong! Strangely enough emailing everyone and telling them about the change has pulled a bunch of people back, it’s much more active than it’s been in MONTHS… I’m really happy about that, I was concerned that the room was going for a serious slump again. Unfortunately we have lost a couple people… but I had to expect that. It’s ok, I really am pleased with how the move has gone… I ended up leaving r2d2 on scifi, in a #13thHour moderated room, if any of his “friends” comes in he -notices- them telling them to go to the new server. And anyone else coming in just will leave… in any event no one gets voice (% So it keeps the room from migrating back. I dunno when/if I’ll ever shut down r2.. I am so paranoid that someone will open in up as a ‘joke’ or whatever… gah… I care about irc too much!!! Hehee

Last night we had our friends Mike and Nita over… they are really cool, another couple that met online, but like 4 years ago so they have been together for a while. We sat around and told them about the house we bid on, they seemed really happy for us after a quick “how long have you been looking? I HATE YOU!!!” (they have been looking for about a year apparently… we started looking in august). Hehe, all in fun tho… we went out to Olive Garden … it was ok, I got yummie eggplant parmesean %d my fave… it really turned out to be a nice night, afterwords we came back here and talked a little more, Myk showed them an episode of Harvey Birdman (click on “harvey birdman” to go to our download site for a funny episode!).. they liked it, hehe. Also Mike showed me a site he has on his server… password protected that he has a bunch of o’reilly text versions of books on, said he’d send me a login and password for it (% That should be kewl. Also we talked about our linking of our IRC server with the others (’cause Mike asked if we had gotten tired of the unstable scifi server yet)… he offered to help me with a perl script to graph the data about usage on the network %D I would write a perl script in r2 to run the /lusers command every 5 minutes or so, it’d grab the users # and the time and put it into a file that I could use for graphing. He said if I had a file then he could help me out with the graph writing part… that’d be kewl %) I think I will look into making the script today, it would be fun…

Anyway, I have stuff to do, and this blog has been freaking long, hee! *wanders off*