Nine Inch Nails – La Mer

I havent done much today, how surprising! Took some Benadryl this morning for my stupid allergies and I’ve been out of it ever since, I hate that… but it’s the only allergy medicine that works well to relieve all my congestion, bleh… sooo drowsy…

So I’ve been validating html all day… still probably not half done, heh, sooo frustrating %( But worth the time I think %)

I also wrote a little script to auto op the room owner (i guess she’s the room owner, hard to tell in there) of #brit-cit, since I am always there, heh. Perl is nice %) and it’s good I havent forgotton anything in the past month, hehe… I really should get around to porting madragoran’s shitfi unmasking script to irssi, but I’m just so lazy o_O Maybe later this week, after the validating is done %)

Ok, Benadryl making me so sleepy, I’m gonna go back to doing html validation, very little brain power needed %)

Peter Murphy – My Last Two Weeks

We didnt end up going out for dinner last night… ordered in Indian food, Bukari Jheenga… a shrimp dish in a tomato and cream sauce, yummie!

A bunch of old friends came into #13thHour last night and made it a fun night, which was cool, I missed the good old days of that channel…

*wanders off to keep validating html on her site*

Finished Another Fine Myth and Myth Conceptions last night:

Another Fine Myth/Myth Conceptions, By Robert Asprin, 395 pages

These are the first two books in a series, that were now re-released as one book (as they are doing with the whole series I believe). The stories are fantasy-based, same characters in both who range from dragons, to demons, to green-haired assassins. It is also a comedy. Not only playing off the hilarity of modern fantasy novels, but drawing from our conceptions of what certain mythical creatures are and how they act. I really liked these books and despite trying to take my time reading them I found I finished in less than 3 days. Often I found myself laughing out loud at some of the references and remarks that the characters made, and I don’t often do that. And the book had enough seriousness to hold the story together and get you to care about each character. I suppose it might take a certain sense of humor to enjoy however.. In all it was a lot of fun.


Started reading book 6 of the WoT today..

I talked to my sister Heather on the phone today she is in college now, a Biology major, seems to be doing well %) I’m happy for her, glad she’s doing well… we had a nice talk, which isn’t common since she’s pretty quiet on the phone most of the time. I think I might be getting a little lonely for friends and family tho, I kept feeling like I had to think of things to say to keep her on the phone, i didnt wanna have to hang up %( I should get out more.

I got an email from my broski from Rochester, Pete. He’s doing good, he’s funny… but it’s good I can keep in touch with him, since I only knew him for such a short time in real life and we seemed to get along really well.

Anyway, we’re gonna get going soon… prolly out to dinner somewhere, yay getting out of the house! %) so in the words of my broski Pete:

-Peace, love, happiness, hugs, smiles, and butterflies

Jewel – Near You Always

So I have a new crusade concerning web standards, w3c.org validation on my webpages. I figured it would be about a day’s work to make my html perfect (with the exception of the front page for the time being, since php nuke obviously doesnt conform to those standards, i wont be using nuke for much longer however…). Little did I realize how strict perfect html pages are. In short, my pages are a mess. AND I have a big site… this could take weeks. But I suppose it’ll be worth it, I got one, single, tiny, mostly text page validated this morning… %)

Other than that I guess I’m not doing much. Myk wants to mess around with LEAF, a debian based firewall this weekend so we’ll prolly be home all weekend again *shrugs*

On the bright side Myk fixed the 10 gig harddrive that went in clockbot (it has other drives too…) and I complained that I don’t have enough room on my windows drive. Shame on me? Naw I just use windows for games… and games are big %) So I needed more than 12 gigs for all the games we always play at lan parties. So last night he put the drive in r2. So now he has 3 harddrives. 40 gig for linux, 12 gig for main windows and 10 gig for windows slave.

And I am gonna look around a bit this weekend for a good deal on a 1.2 ghz processor (pentium 3, sorry all you AMD enthusiests, and no, i dont want to have a debate about which is better) and a motherboard to match that can handle sd ram. Shouldn’t be too hard %) but that’s what Myk said he’d get me for my birthday since r2 is still only a 450 mhz computer %D

Yep, that’s about it… *wanders off to fight with her html*

Moody Blues – Your Wildest Dreams

I spent most of today writing a letter to my father, in responce to the one he wrote a few weeks ago. It took a lot of thought so it took a very long time to write.

I finished reading Dune last night:

Dune, Frank Herbert, 537 pages

Dune is the story of the desert planet of Arrakis’ people recieving their “Messiah” and using the poer given through him to gain freedom from Imperial control of their planet. It’s been made into two movies, and has won many notable awards, and I was very impressed. In a single book Herbert manages to encompass a complex ruling system, a religion, and story to create a very tangible
world. By constantly focusing on the thoughts of various characters he is able to develop the characters quickly and give us a very clear idea of their intents. Very well written, I can see why there are so many sequels though, the storys has only just begun!


Othere than that not much has been happening like usual. Yesterday the power went out where Myk works. He works right next to a Navy base so they think that had something to do with it, it being the 11th and all… they did panic at first of course. Myk ended up coming home in the afternoon for a few hours ’cause there was nothing to do at work… went back around 3 to check if the power had come back on and it had… so he stayed at work til about 7:30 then came home and we had pizza %D! Watched Toy Story 2 ’cause Myk had never seen it and I hadnt seen it in a while.

Oh and a friend of mine is zipping the contents of all his halflife cds and sending me the zip files %D! All i need to do is burn what’s in the zip onto a disk and install it that way… it really will work, apparently he tried it last night %) It’ll be kewl to play Half-Life with some people online %)

But noew I am gonna wander off and do something productive *wanders*

HIM – In Love And Lonely

Well it’s September 11th 2002. A whole year since the worst attack upon American soil in history… somehow it seems like it should feel more profound. I guess if I got out more I’d see the effects of it more… But this day has made me reflect a bit, funny how a terrible event such as this makes one remember most of what they did on that day. This is like “where were you when Kennedy was shot” of the past generation… I think most people can recount the events of the day the World Trade Centers were attacked. I would recount them here, but that would be more boring than my usual blog. But I do remember what I was doing now, at 10 am on the 11th last year, sleeping. See I had spent the previous night breaking up with my ex, and on the way home we got a flat tire, waited 2 hours for help and didn’t get back home until about 8 am, so of course I was sleeping. I didn’t find out about the attacks until noon when my ex came into the room to tell me that our friend was at the door freaking out about some ‘bombing’.

As much as I never said much about the attack, and still downplayed my patriotism as much as I always have I do feel for the lives lost, and the families that had to continue after losing loved ones. A few months ago I wrote up a long boring thing about 9.11 on my website, if you havent seen it, and your are bored you might wanna check it out: 09.11.01.

So the memorials today are centered around the World Trade Center attacks. And sure, the loss of life in those were much more than the loss of life in the Pentagon, but still why do people seem to be avoiding the fact that the Pentagon was attacked at all? At first I thought it was just the Pentagon was a bit ashamed that it let the attack happened, but then my buddy Rubicant had to come down with his Conspiracy theories. Now I’m not one to believe these sorts of things, I don’t believe the moon landing was fabricated in a hollywood basement, or any of those silly things… but this pentagon theory makes more and more sense each time I think about it. It says that the Pentagon was NOT hit by a plane. From what I’ve read a few European countries (including France) are almost positive that this is the truth, but I’ve see pictures of the pentagon after the attack, next to pictures the size of a plane that would have crashed into it and things just dont quite add up. Well you can see for yourself at this french site i found on the whole thing:

http://www.asile.org/citoyens/numero13/pentagone/erreurs_en.htm

*shrugs*

So enough about the whole September 11th thing, we are moving on, recovering from that. So now back to talking about me %P

I had a really bad headache last night… sucked ’cause it started out right before Myk got home, sorta felt like a sinus headache so I took some Advil Migrane (LOVE Advil Migrane… it works wonders). That seemed to make my headache go away until about 10, when it came back, REALLY bad. I was sitting there giving Myk a backrub while he worked on some stuff on his computer and my head started hurting, stomach getting all upset… %( I took summore Advil Migrane and went to lie down… headache didnt go away for about 2 hours… at least that’s when I finally fell asleep. Luckily I don’t have a headache this morning %) Stupid migranes… I hadnt had one for like 6 months tho, so it’s not *so* bad. I don’t know what caused it though. *shrugs*

I guess I’m gonna go try to get some work done noew… *wanders off*

Poe – Haunted

Didn’t end up getting much done today, but i will tomorrow! Yes tomorrow I will, as long as we don’t get bombed or something. That would suck.

The scifi server has been really messed up today… I sorta expected it ’cause since Farscape was cancelled on SciFi people have been coming on the scifi server as a way to speak out against the cancellation and try to reverse it. Well the scifi server is pretty sucky anyway, and so when a server that is used to 150 users has an excess of 400 things are bound to go wrong. Anyway it was quite a mess of disconnecting and reconnecting for about a half hour… very annoying. I am almost afraid to say it’s finished, hehe…

Anyway, I did get a logo finished for the disney part of my site, I know… out of all the time I had today that’s ALL i got done, I am ashamed of it too! But the logo is cute:



Comments? Heh… hopefully the section will be done, at least presentable by the end of the week… we’ll see.

Well I am gonna go wander off and read or something for a little while til Myk gets home *wanders off again*

Peter Murphy – Let Me Love You

I have a tooth ache again, I really should get that looked at %s It just sucks ’cause I dont have insurance, and so it’d be really expensive if it turns out to be a few cavities, or me needing to get my wisdom teef out %( that would suck.

Hmmm anyway I decided I should ignore most of chat today and actually get work done on my site, or something useful ’cause I have been very lazy lately and I think it depresses me o_O

Hmm well I guess I’ll go work on stuff then *wanders off*

Jewel – Enter From The East

I forgot to post a reply to one of the comments… they asked if I was talking about irc… then said they were an mirc junkie. Well I WAS talking about IRC, but I don’t use mirc… why? 1. Because they dont make a linux version 2. because it’s graphical, and I want a text based client to run on my webserver.

I take great offense to being called an mirc user %) and when people confuse IRC with mIRC, mIRC is merely a client to connect to Internet Relay Chat servers. And sure, I have a “how-to install mirc” thing on my site, and I DID use mIRC for a couple years, it’s great for the beginner. The scripting language is simple enough for a child to write and it’s very clicky-pretty. Of course these things are also what gains my contempt for it %) You get lame-ass users on IRC who can script in mIRC and think they are so 1337. Drop them at a command prompt of a unix box and they’d panic of course, but they gain this sort of respect for their scripting abilities by others who don’t realize how easy it really is. And of course you get the lamers who take advantage of all mIRC tools to write floods, nukes, etc that execute through mIRC. I even know some people who control half their computer remotely through mirc, it gets quite absurd %)

So I hate mIRC, and while I am ranting about irc, I hate it when I am in a chat room and people decide to bring in all their half finished bots and commence to have a bot making party where they spend the afternoon messing with their bots! *grumbles at the people doing that now in #brit-cit* it drives away people who actually want to chat, can’t they MAKE a room to do this in? S’how I test my bot.. I never bring him into a room until he is finished because I know how annoying it is for people to test their bots while I am trying to chat… rar.

Oh boy I’m in a bad mood, STUPID MIRC!!! %)

Well Myk fixed my net connection %) yay! So I can post this thing I wrote this morning:
Hooverphonic – Magenta

My connection is icky %( Stupid Comcast… When you are uploading something it just eats up SO much bandwidth. I was surfing the net at like dial up speeds for a while, but things seem to suck pretty bad noew %) *writes this in vim to copy it to xanga later*

So I have no net atm what is there to do? Write a huge xanga entry! Yesterday I spent doing nothing really… read more of Dune… surprisingly I’m already a little over halfway through it. I should be getting my new books in the mail any day now… Hopefully they will come before I finish Dune… If not there is always finishing rereading Return Of The King. I talk about books in my weblog, how dull. I watched Adult Swim last night too… funny stuff even though I’m not a big fan of The Oblongs, or Mission Hill, or Space Ghost Coast to Coast for that matter… Home Movies, Harvey Birdman, The Brak Show, Sealab 2021, and Aqua Teen Hunger Force are great tho %D I guess I watch all of adult swim only because I was drowsy all day (stupid Benadryl) and I probably would have fallen asleep if I kept reading (Adult Swim is on Cartoon Network at 10 on sunday…).

It’s September 9th. Now I know most of the country is getting all prepared for wednesday, and the whole “One Year Anniversary” of the September 11th Terrorist attacks, and that’s perfectly commendable. I tend to think of this time of year a bit differently. Last year on September 10th (as I am sure most of you know) I broke up with my ex-boyfriend, ending a 2 year emotionally abusive relationship that I *still* have dealing with. This was a huge step for me… I never had too much self-esteem, and when you are in a position such as I was you feel like you deserve the way you are being treated. It took a lot of strength for me to break out of that cycle, and I wasn’t sure I had that strength. I had all sorts of support from friends, and used all of them as a rope to pull me out of that situation. The attacks on the 11th only compounded my regret for pushing these very friends away a year before when my ex “told me to stop chatting on scifi”… I realized through the attacks how I could have lost any of them and never have forgiven myself, and how lucky I was. My family also stepped back into my life, as much as I had ignored them as well, right there waiting to help me out again because, after all, family is family. When I finally was out of the whole situation with my ex I realized I had a whole new respect for family and friends, and for myself… self respect is eternally important, and as I can still see my flaws, and my weaknesses better than anyone, I realize that dispite these things, I still deserve respect and REAL love… afterall no one is perfect.

That’s what this time of year will eternally mean for me I guess… a sort of rebirth of myself. It was at this time I came back to chat with all my old friends, got back into contact with my family, and renewed my love for everything computers. I had a new strength and feeling of self worth, and couldn’t believe that I survived without having it before. After leaving my ex I moved in with my aunt. I was already dating my long-time friend Myk by then, it was a long-distance relationship but I needed some time to resolve my ‘issues’ with my ex, a few months of freedom and continual self-discovery. Of course I wanted to take longer, but November rolled around, and Myk came up to see me and my family (aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents on my mothers side) for Thanksgiving, and everyone loved him, including me. And although I was cautious at first I finally admitted that I needed to be with him. I took a chance and in December last year I moved here to Philly. And of course everyone knows how good that has been going since I hardly shut up about it %P Anyway… yeah, this time of year is profound %)

So it looks like my net connection completely died. Not the net connection exactly, the gateway box still has a few bugs, and all the file upload must have made it get it’s frooze on. So no internet for me today. Gah… I wish I knew more about networking %) I might be able to fix this myself.. but Myk really is the one best suited for this all. The worst part about it really is I don’t have mp3s %( I can live without being online for a day as long as I have my computer, there are lots of things I should be doing to my system that I put off ’cause I’m lazy. Unfortunately for me all the tutorials I have are online so I can’t spend the day catching up on stuff I havent been doing while I spent my time looking for a house. Oh boy I’m rambling.

I guess I’ll start off the morning by writing some long due emails to some friends, I put them off so much that it becomes months between emails and I really shouldn’t let that happen. Laters.