Jane Siberry – It can’t rain all the time

It’s been a good day today… got up this morning, did some laundry, cleaned the house, now i smell like bleach even tho I took a shower… hehe… I guess I can use that as an excuse for my typos %D And my good mood… hehe.

Myk and I are going with some friends to see the movies “Signs” tonight, should be fun, i need to get out, and we havent seen our friends much lately… been spending my weekends reading, and gets that boring %)

Anyway, a friend of mine sent me a picture of one of her rats… really cutey, and made me think about adding a part to my site with people’s cutey pets, hehe.. so i am gonna do that… bbl

Peter Murphy – Crystal Wrists

I finished The Celestine Prophecy last night…:

The Celestine Prophecy, By James Redfield, 246 pages

I wasn’t sure what to expect when I began to read this book, checking the cover for some sort of distinction into a class (non-fiction, fiction, religious…) and couldn’t find one. The story is an adventure of one man who travels to Peru on a whim after hearing about a revolutionary manuscript that was discovered. Through a series of coincidences he discovers the “9 insights” of evolving humanity… where we have all come from and where we are all going as humans and a culture. The book in itself as a story (fiction, used only to demonstrate the ideas) was full of surprises, the church has convinced the Peruvian government that this manuscript must be destroyed, so our main characters are forced to run throughout the novel to avoid capture… but the coincidences, so avidly described tended to get on my nerves a bit, as much as they were necessary for the point to get through. But of course the adventure was not what the book was about. This books was one man’s vision of spirtuality in this changing world. I was hesitant about his views at first because he believes that we are living in a special, profound time… and I think that everyone who has ever lived would have liked to think of their time period as a special turning point in history, every christian thinks their generation will be the one to see christ return. The insights pretty much outline a better way to treat our fellow beings, and it does make a lot of sense, even without his “energy fields”… Energy Fields, these were described as coming from everything living, energy that can be moved among things through different actions, and although I thought on this for some time, I really couldnt accept it, in the book the characters could actually see these (which I assume would sorta be like auras). Ok, so in all? I liked this book, it’s another one of those pychological books that got me thinking. I don’t believe that we will reach a perfect conciousness someday and transend material possessions, but treating fellow humans with respect and love is something we all could use a bit of practice with and this book outlines a very good way to doso.

That’s probably one of the longest I’ve written.

So yesterday Myk started thinking about us starting up a consulting business. Sounds like a good idea, could bring in some extra money and I’d actually have a job of sorts, even if it is just consulting, at least when people asked me I could seriously say “I’m a consultant”. So I started writing up a consulting proposal yesterday, which isn’t as easy as it looks, especially when our references and history is pretty sparce, since we are just starting consulting and all. Plus we don’t have a name, so it was difficult, “We ___ would like to develop a webpage for your company” that sort of thing. Anyway, I will work on it a little more today, hopefully get a standard one together. It would be kewl working on webpages and stuff professionally, since as of yet I havent made a penny from all my webwork.

In other news I am still working on that Magic bot getting a lot of help, a friend of mine on IRC is writing up card descriptions of all his cards, that should help ’cause I wont have to do them all myself. I am gonna go for a walk tho before it gets to unbarably hot… bbl

^^ Neopets Addiction Quiz… That’s strangely comforting.



^^ Personality Quiz.. k



^^Life Outlook quiz… gee, something to remind me how boringly normal i am, yipee!


I don’t really feel like writing in this… I’m in a crappy mood, feeling terrible about myself, hating myself even, heh… I’ll get over it. Yesterday I went swimming, the pool here is really big, I never realized… and when I got there I was the only one swimming, as I was leaving a few other people started coming, but it was kewl to have the pool all to myself. The walk there wasn’t too bad either, I had just rinsed out my hair, and when my hair is wet I’m generally cold… so walking in the warm weather wasn’t so bad… same with coming back. Luckily the pool was pretty warm too, so I didnt go into shock from going in.

Anyway, a few of us got bored in chat yesterday and decided to think of ways to play Magic:The Gathering in IRC. Very very very sad… we are so geeky that we can’t even go to the gaming store with the other geeks and play like normal people! Heh, anyway I worked a magic bot to help us play, even more geeky huh? *Yawn* Oh! Myk’s mom came over last night with his b-day present… a VCR, hehe… we’ve needed one since moving in and just havent been brave enough to go to the store and be laughed at by ppl who only sell dvd players now. *Shrugs* maybe i’ll watch the lion king this afternoon, or something else i dont have on dvd and havent seen in forever, lol. bbl

Current Song : Hoobastank – Remember Me
Ah a new wonderful day of heat advisories.. stupid philadelphia. Luckily I have a/c … unfortunately I decided that today I really am going to go swimming and the pool is on the other side of the complex, so if I don’t collapse in the 100 degree weather walking 1/4 of a mile I’ll be fine. I guess I feel weird going there by myself, there’s a lifeguard I mean, but going to the pool alone is weird… But Myk doesnt have a bathing suit, and he’s at work anyway… and it’s probably busy when he’s home. I am sure I’m not the only one to go alone.. Hopefully there won’t be too many kids in the pool, that would totally suck. But we ARE paying to live in a place with a pool, and I did just spend $50 online for a bathing suit, so I would feel bad if it was all a waste. Right. Moving on…

I didn’t do much yesterday, did some editing of some of my older webpages, oh and I posted a thing about a Platform Independent Web. Boring maybe, but I had had so many discussions concerning webpages that “only look good in IE” or whatnot that I wanted to write something up to consolidate my arguements, at least the ones I could think of when writing it.. Heh, I played with my Neopets some %D But that’s ’cause I was feeling down… didn’t feel like doing anything, and I had taken some Benedryl for my icky alergies so I was feeling kinda froozy.

I played some UT (Unreal Tournament) this morning.. trying to practice ’cause it just sucks that I am so lousy at it sometimes, I figure if I play a map each morning with some moderately hard bots I will get progressively better, and I wont be “that girl who plays that sucks” .. ugh, see it’s that female geek stigma again, if I am a girl and I play video games I am expected to absolutely rock or really suck (because I am “just playing the game ’cause of a guy”). I should really learn to ignore these stereotypes, it’s ok to be average!!! Ugh.. I am gonna go get some lunch then head out to the pool around 12:30ish *wanders*

I’m always listening to music of some kind when I’m on the computer… Maybe I’ll write what song I’m currently listening to everyday when I start my blogging.. yeah. Starting now.

No Doubt – New

This is very surprising since I havent listened to No Doubt in forever.

I’m in one of those monday afternoon depressive moods. Today my thing to be depressed about is my lack of real life friends. I have a bunch of friends online, and that’s very cool, there are lots of really great people there, I love them lots %) but when I am bored, on a monday afternoon I can’t say “Hey (insert name here) wanna go get a coffee?” The most we can do is chat. That leaves me in the house, in this silly computer chair. I want to go out sometimes! I hate depending on Myk for everything, even all my social interaction. But can I help it? I’m terribly shy, so even if I knew were to look for people to hang out with I probably wouldnt have much luck approaching them. I guess I have a hard time getting close to people in real life anyway. It’s probably because everytime I do either I move, or they move, or something stupid happens that makes me not be able to hang out with them. When my friend Jim an I hung out back in Seneca Falls it was mostly at work ’cause my ex would freak if he saw me anywhere else with him… A few months after getting really close to my friend Eric he went to college… less than 2 months after I met my friend Tom I broke up with steve and ended up moving… and just TWO WEEKS before I left rochester to come here I met my friend Pete… Me moving has had a lot to do with it I guess… It’s always still hard knowing that I have probably only one person from high school that I even remotely talk to (yep, that’s you Leslie), while it seems everyone else in the world have “friends they have known forever”. Heh… life sucks.. I’m gonna go try to find something to do to keep my mind off it.

I guess I’ll start out with the review of the crappy book I read this weekend


The Shipping News, By E. Annie Proulx, 337 pages

This book tells the story of a man, born and raised in New York, who after losing his adulterous was killed in a terrible car crash, decides to retreat with his two young daughters to an old family home in Newfoundland. It’s a pretty typical tale of someone who is at “rock bottom” and takes a chance at being
content. As a Pulizer Prize winner I guess I expected more, but even 100 pages into it I started guessing that the reviewers fell asleep while reading it and just dreamed it was a good book. A little harsh? Maybe. I think it’s just one of those books that they will make kids read in high school and pull all
sorts of deep meaning out of, which we all know to be complete bs! The characters were boring, story-line predictable, and the setting couldn’t have been more dull. I only finished it because it’s one of the last books on my shelf I hadn’t read…


I hate it when books suck.


I went to amazon.com to see what other people thought, and I found that half of them agreed with me, and the other half said it was so great and critized the others for not recognising great prose when they see it, Pulizer suckups… This one guy (who I agree with obviously) said: “the book should have been titled The Misadventures of a Loser who Obviously Cannot get through anything in life and who doesn’t even try” heh… I also found out the are making, made? A movie about it… there is a trailer *goes to watch trailer* Right, so I booted into windows to see the trailer, and before it even started I was startled to learn that Kevin Spacey was cast in the main role… now maybe if a Kevin Spacey *type* character was in the BOOK I might have liked it more, but he doesnt fit the role at all! The character in the book was a fat, clumbsy, loser of a man; I can’t see spacey being that… in the trailer he definately was not fat. And the character of Wavey is NOT portrayed well either (through the trailer anyway). I think the only character well-presented was the dead wife of Quoyl, a character that could have been played by tons of different hollywood whoreish actresses. And apparently the movie is on DVD already… with the impressive cast list I’m surprised I had never even heard ot it… Anyway…


I got my bathing suit in the mail on saturday, and it actually fits pretty flatteringly, why do I still think I’m fat all the time? Maybe leftover self-image issues from high school. Speaking of high school, I took the link to that CEHS thing off my site. No one responded, maybe for the better, it was a dumb idea anyway, there are only a couple people I knew in high school I’d like to talk to, the rest can probably go into the “i hate you” catagory. Damn high school sucked.


So Myk was working on minute a lot this weekend, it’s a faster machine for second (uh, yea, for some reason the faster the computer gets the higher incrimint of time we name it (second, minute, hour.. seems backwards huh? It is.) so it should work better as being the gateway/firewall on our network… I spend time reading a lousy book, which put me in a pretty crankie mood all day saturday, and when I’m crankie I usually look depressed and feel like doing nothing. I did play UT for a little while tho, that was fun… it’s nice to have a bunch of real people come together and play sometimes. I guess all we did other than that was go out for sushi last night, then watch adult swim *shrugs* it was late by the time finished dinner at the sushi place so the bookstores were closed *sigh* guess what I’m reading? Yep Celestine Prophecy, and already I disagree with it… it might progress well and my issues with it might be resolved somehow with more explaination, so I guess I shouldn’t jump to conclusions.


I did a lot of thinking this weekend, since I had all sorts of time to think in between terrible pages of The Shipping News and realized how this point in life really sucks. Between childhood/school age and adulthood, trying hard to grasp at something real, trying hard to finally grow up and do something that matters. I think every one of the people I know who is my age is feeling that at the moment. Maybe it’s the crappy economy, maybe ’cause it’s summertime and we are thinking back to summer vacation and knowing that we dont/wont have it anymore. Whatever it is it’s very nice to know that I’m not alone in my “depression” of being lost. I do have an advantage however… Myk. I am not alone through this, and although he’s older than me he’s not so much that he forgot what it’s like to go through this… and having someone love you is definately helpful when looking into the vast expanse of “wtf am I going to do for the next 60 years of my life?” And he makes enough to take care of me, which leads me to another point. I’m a woman so it’s more socially acceptable to be a “housewife” and work from the home if my career plans don’t work out. Then again if I was a man maybe I’d have some sort of natural drive to pursue a career.. *shrugs* I’ll never know, I have no idea what it’s like being a man, that would be weird. Anyway, I guess all i’m saying is that it seems pretty common at my age to be depressed about not going anywhere, not making progress… but everyone grows up eventually and finds their place, we can’t ALL be failures.


Oh I did end up working on that starwars section of my site… It’s cleaner looking anyway, even if it’s not terribly pretty, I am thinking of creating a new CSS file for sites like the SWS one and the MSG one, ’cause the blue links just look awful… *shrugs* I never got around to cleaning up the MSG pages, I did upload some mp3s tho, I should remake my MSG mp3 section.


Anyway, it’s almost noon, I should probably find something to do today. I thought about going swimming this afternoon, but it’s already over 90 degrees, so I am not looking forward to walking across the complex to the pool… We’ll see.

I finished Redwall tonight, it was pretty much what I had expected, and like always I wrote up a review:

Redwall, By Brian Jacques, 351 pages

This is the story of a battle between the peaceful creatures of Redwall Abbey and the feared hoard of Cluny The Scourge. Mice, moles and badgers make up the cast of heros introduced in this story to battle the fiece rats and weasles attacking their home. Basically a simple take of good prevailing over evil, and a likely hero bringing all sorts of former rivals together to fight for the good. I think I would have liked this book much more back when I was younger and less cynical. The ending was fairly predictable, and the climax disappointing, don’t get me wrong, it was a nice, fast paced read, and fun… but again I think my tastes for literature have matured beyond this point. I have read Martin the Warrior (another book in the series), and at the time, when I was a sophmore in high school, I thought it was quite good, so I’d recommend this to younger readers I guess %)

Yep.

So today instead of making my Star Wars section pretty I ended up chatting all afternoon. A friend of mine needed some cheering up ’cause he’s feeling the “i am 20, I am lost, i make no progress, i suck, oh and i’m unemployed!” depression thing. And an old friend of mine stopped into #13thHour, and so I decided to talk to him as well, that left about 5 minutes sporatically (ooh spelling!) each hour to work on the page, what does this mean? It means I hardly got anything done, and my starwars pages are terribly unbalanced now with their appearances, yay! Heh.

In other news a comment in my friend Leslie’s weblog about the acronym “lol” started me thinking about this one friend I have who is pretty smart, but insists on saying “lolirl” when he is actually laughing out loud so people can hear him… I approached him about it telling him that it seemed redundant to say that, but I am not sure he “got” what I was saying, maybe he isn’t as smart as I thought %) In any event I think I simply chuckle when I say “lol” … the “LOL” and “lmao” are saved for actual prolonged laughs “in real life” … as well as the “rotflmao”, where I am not actually rolling on the floor, most likely I am just laughing so hard I can’t breathe. I know I know I should stop… waaay to much enlightenment from this blog today %P

I think I might actually go do some work on that starwars site now.

http://www.timetravelfund.com

This website a friend of mine from #13thHour has caused so many funny conversations about time travel since discovered I HAD to share it with the world. It’s a group that takes $10 from each person participating, and puts it into this “fund” so 500 years or so in the future when they discover time travel the people from the future can come and get you to bring you to the future… Yep, you even get a neat little certificate to put on your wall saying you are part of the project (is $10 worth just that conversation piece?).. Very strange… people are so funny! Their theory is the $10 will be worth a few billion in 500 years (oooh the wonders of compound interest) and you’ll be taken to the future and live a comfortable life (as long as you recover from future shock and all that). Silly? Of course…

So I was doing something yesterday and I started wondering where the expression “every cloud has a silver lining” came from, because it definately is odd.. And I went looking for it can stumbled on tons of other idiom origins that were really interesting. I ended up collecting a bunch and putting them up on my website:
http://www.princessleia.com/Idioms.html. But I am sure you wont want to go all the way to my site so I’ll mention a few of the more interesting ones here…:

Sleep tight:

Before box springs were in use, old bed frames used rope pulled tightly between the frame
rails to support a mattress. If the rope became loose, the mattress would sag making for uncomfortable sleeping. Tightening the ropes would help one get a good night sleep.

Clean bill of health

This widely used term has
its origins in the “Bill of Health”, a document issued to a ship showing
that the port it sailed from suffered from no epidemic or infection at
the time of departure.

Close but no cigar

Carnival games of skill,
particularly shooting games, once gave out cigars as a prize. A
contestant that did not quite hit the target was close, but did not get
a cigar.

Don’t you feel enlightened now? Well you should, and you will be moreso if you go to my site.

I still havent figured out how to get my bot to respond to actions, I think i need to learn more about the parsing methods of irssi to figure out how (haven’t I mentioned that before? Blah..). And right now I’m really not in the mood. I think I will work on my starwars page today though. It’s really lacking in beauty, hehe… there are lots of kewl things I could do to make it look better, so I think I’ll do that today.. maybe work on making my Miranda Sex Garden page prettier too.

I guess that’s it for now… bbl

A picture of my little sis when she was about 9.. making a funny face for the camera, little did she know she’d pay for it for years to come, mwahahaha. I’ve shown this to so many people…

In other news, I am seriously concidering switching my box from Redhat to Debian this weekend… I hate to go to the next PLUG meeting and be “Myk’s silly gf who still needs to use Redhat” *shrugs* do any computer ppl read this? Hehe… Comments? Suggestions? %)

So my youngest sister Annette came into chat today, which isn’t anything unusual, she usually says silly strange things, gets offended by everyone and is all around strange with the people I chat with. But she is only 13 so I don’t pay much attention to it. So anyway today she was in chat and I knew already that she listened to rap (eww) but today she’s like “do you call people people or homies?” ugh… then said: “you know how black chicks talk?? thats kinda how i talk now” Gah… there is no hope for her. Wanting to “talk like a black chick” how she puts it is like wanting to talk like a southerner… assuming a completely different dialect to be cool. Very strange, especially since she lives near Augusta Maine… I am so glad I was sheltered in a preppy school.

In other news I got the “about r2d2” page up, you can check it out here About R²D². It took quite a while, going through logs to find some old stuff that he did, since I totally forgot what kind of bot he was at first. But I put up zip files of all 3 versions: mirc, xchat, and irssi… and I put up txt files of the perl scripts (as if anyone is interested..).

So last night I slept very well… I didn’t even hear Myk get up this morning, or the shower, or anything, I woke up at like 9:30 .. so strange. I dunno what I’ll do today… I should really learn summore perl, I have recently looked into Gimp Perl scripts, but they are difficult, and I have a terrible time focusing on a project if it doesnt have a very good chance of being needed in the near future (like how I needed r2..).

So yesteray was my sister Heather’s 19th birthday I forgot to put up a happy birthday heather thing on this site… not like she’d see it anyway *shrugs* I didn’t forget her birthday tho, I made her my own little ecard (’cause ecard sites suck… its just a way to get email addys to sell to tons of spammers). Didn’t get her a present tho ’cause she didnt tell me what she wanted (i asked her about a week ago to give me a list of books and cds she wanted… she never did). See I don’t want to get her something she doesnt want, ’cause she and my father are moving soon and they won’t have room for much stuff… So speaking of that, yeah, they are moving. No more old house.. Apparently the landlord is selling the house and they have 2 months to find a new place %( Sucks… it’s such a weird feeling knowing I will never be in the house I grew up in again… Luckily I got all my stuff out of the house (least I hope I did…) the last time i was up there.

*Yawn* Damn I shouldnt be tired o_O Anyway… I’m gonna go find something useful to do so I don’t feel like a complete bum… maybe I’ll play with shellscripting or something, yeah… bbl…