You know how sometimes a day is going good, nothing to spectacular, but good, and then something little happens that just totally upsets you so that the rest of the day is spent being depressed and bored? Well it’s one of those days for me! This morning when I wrote my post I was in a pretty good mood.. and noew I just want to go to bed and wait for a new day to come along so I have a fresh start.

First of all, the scifi chat server is all unstable today, and ok, it’s like that a lot, so it’s just irratating. But I am trying to work on scripts for my new bot and I cant freaking do it on a server that wants to quit every 3 seconds. So noew my script is a little weird ’cause I was working on it (testing new things), when the server quit last and totally pissed me off… *UGH* I was so frustrated that I even wandered to another irc server to try to work on it, only to find out that the scifi server is so freaking special that my scripts only work there. *Sigh*

As if this isnt enough to upset me, we found out soon after I wrote that first post that Myk isnt getting the Sparc box afterall… apparently one of our friends responded first. This was all after Myk wrote all this stuff in one of the chat rooms about all the stuff he wanted to do with it… and was so excited, and so happy and all saying how his birthday was gonna rock… I guess when I thought he was gonna get the sparc it made me feel better that I wasnt really able to get him anything (well I *could* but it would be paid for out of my savings, and he’s told me before that he doesnt want me spending that on him). Plus he’s so impossible to shop for.. I thought I could pay for this and it’d be so perfect! … So I guess the whole thing falling through really upset me: 1. because I know how excited Myk was about it 2. All that guilt came back about not getting him anything … I guess I’m too sensitive, and I dont take disappointment well, I actually started crying! Yep, I’m such a girl… I guess it was just the mood I was in, and I slept weird last night too.. maybe I’m tired? I dont even feel like going to the plug meeting tonight ’cause I’m so depressed about all this crap, it’s so stupid.

*sigh* I guess I’m gonna go play with my neopets, or something… even if the scifi server comes back up in the near future I think I am just too upset and frustrated to work on my script… laters

Ah well… I am so happy %) I got my xchat r2 working! He does the most important thing that mirc r2 did, and that’s responding to the ! command.. so !cake and he gives you cake… it’s really kewl, today I’m gonna add summore %) So once I get the xchat bot up and running I’m gonna wander through irssi stuff and try to port the script to irssi, yay! Hey maybe nex week I’ll even have him up and running in irssi, that’d be so cool! Anyway, I’m really happy that I’m understanding this perl stuff, ’cause I thought it would be very difficult and impossible… luckily I’m determinded to get r2 off windows %)

So tonight were going to PLUG (philly linux users group)… should be fun I guess, as long as after the meeting we dont roast in a silly pizza place… it’s so hot out, already 91 at 10 am… all this week there have been severe weather advisories directly because of the heat… it sucks. Luckily we have nice a/c so I dont have to go outside in it! supposedly the heat index got to around 110 yesterday, bleh, I’d be soooo sick if I was in that. I guess dispite philly being a little hotter than other places I’ve lived, it has the advantage of widespread air conditioning. Of course that also makes the electric companies happy… EAK @ our electric bill.

Anyway, at the plug meeting I guess a friend of ours we know from the group is selling us a little sparc 10 box %)! Myk’s really excited, he just saw the post about him selling it last night, and responded really fast with “GIMMIE” … hehe, he came into our bedroom where i was reading and was like “GUESS WHAT!!! HEHE!!! I FOUND MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!” … it was so cute %) But yeah, tonight I guess he’s gonna get his new little sun box (he uses one at work and has since wanted one for home use). So that’ll be kewlies %) I guess he’s gonna put debian on it.. and we’ll have a 6 computer lan %) … Oh and he’s gonna set up an irc server for me, so I can develop perl scripts for xchat n stuff and not have to worry about the scifi server’s continual restrictions and gayness… Speaking of which the server has been up and down most of the morning, stupid thing. Pisses me off! I cant work on this script if the server is that unstable! %) If the server doesnt get stable soon I’ll have to wander to another server to work on it which could cause problems in the script since the scifi server is a “special” STUPID EVIL server that’s not the same as any other in existance because no one but scifi would be so stupid as to have one that bad. Hehe… But it’s my home %)

Moving on.. I read something very interesting the other night. See I am reading the books I talk about, but in addition I am reading this HG Wells book “The Outline Of History” … it’s only the first half, and it’s an old book, hardcover published in like 1940 (and this is the 1940 edition, so .. yeah). It’s been very interesting because this half of the outline describes from the beginning of the world, to the beginning of roman empire, using the knowledge they had in 1940. Of course this is post darwin, so it bases human development of the fossils found of “pre man”… And at times it’s kinda funny ’cause they defend themselves when they allude to religion as being mostly BS… Like where they describe where they thought religion with a central god figure got it’s beginnings. They believe that in some pre homo sapien species of man there was an “Old Man” of each little group of people. He was respected because of his age and wisdom, even in times before a spoken language existed. Well this, they believe, might have sometime turned into a godlike figure.. maybe one time a very important and influential old man of a group died, and from then on people did things in his honor… I guess it’s widely seen that sacrifices (human and animal) were some of the first “religious rites” preformed… the people thought that by pleasing the old man, or god, that their crops would grow well, they would have good health, etc… Of course this progression from old man in pre homo sapien species to human crop sacrifices to god took thousands of years, but it does seem to make sense. *Shrugs* at least to me %) It gave me something kewl to think about anyway.

Hmmm anyway, it seems like the scifi server has stablized a bit *knocks on wood* so I am gonna go play with my perl xchat script summore, yay! Laterski (%

SO with madragoran’s help I wrote my first perl script for xchat yesterday %D! YAY! All it does is give voice and a welcome message to friends in a list, but it’s a start %) I had a bit of trouble at first … and madragoran helped me when I made obvious mistakes, but in all I only actualy “stole” one line from his script, hehe.. and although I am sure there would have been other ways to do that certain thing, I was unsure I could figure any out so I borrowed it for noew (of course I SAID in the script that I borrowed it… hehe). So it’s mostly mine, and I understand the whole thing, so that’s cool %) I’m really proud of it. Of course I spent at least 5 hours working on it yesterday… after I was like “I just spent 5 hours on a 19 line script!” .. but as always with these things, I was sorta learning as I was going so that explains a lot %P Anyway, today I am gonna go through some more scripts and see if I can write something that can respond to commands given in the channel by other people (like my mirc bot does)… Since the perl.c library for xchat is so extensive in theory there *should* be a way to do it, but I *am* still a newbie at both perl and xchat stuff.

Other than that I got the books I ordered %) YAY! … I went for a little walk yesterday and when I came home they were sitting at the door, I was so happy.. I started reading the Sorceress of Dashiva last night, s’good so far %) Oh and Myk has thursday and friday off for the 4th of July, YAY!!! Then on saturday, the 6th is his birthday %) YAY!! It should be a good weekend %)

Hmmm I guess that’s it for noew.. laterski.

Hmm I didnt write anything really yesterday… Oh well not much went on %) Got up pretty late (11ish) and I was looking through the 2 xchat perlscripts that my friend madragoran sent me… did a bit of looking at perl.c as well *sigh* I’m very frustrated ’cause I still can’t understand it enough to write a script. I was really tired yesterday too (despite sleeping late I didnt sleep well… and although that’s not too unusual, it does make concentrating very hard). SO I am gonna see if I can find some simpler scripts online today and *try* to just write a simple on join +v script… so maybe someday I can get R²D² off mirc, and so he’s more stable n stuff. Plus he’ll be all off icky, icky windows %)

I think I’m gonna go for a walk as well… It’s supposed to be near 90 today… but in the upper 90s for tuesday and wendesday… so there is no way I’m leaving the house then!

Well I am gonna go get a shower, and dressed.. Then I’ll get to work on the xchat scripts %) Hopefully I’ll have more luck understanding them today…

It’s good to have my page back… but I spent most of the day reading, I finished Quantum Psychology and wrote up a review :

Quantum Psychology, By Robert Anton Wilson, 202 pages

In this book, the author tries to draw parallels between the
scientifically world changing concepts behind quantum physics and his
new way of looking at how our mind works and interacts with the
universe. With no “formal” education in Quantum Physics (no degrees in
this field, etc.) he takes both the simple and more complex theories in
Quantum Physics and makes them understandable to the casual reader,
while also describing how they reflect our own human psychology. He
brings forth examples like how a photon “is” a particle, and “is” a
wave, and puts this into real life, intellectual, situations (where many
people say quantum theory has no place). In all although I am not sure I
agree or completely understand all of what he says in this book (I guess
it *does* require a bit of a mind for understanding pretty abstract,
“unnatural” concepts), I can say that this book DOES get you thinking
about things you might not otherwise think about.


Oh and last night I was able to put up my cute little neopets sites (since princessleia.com is back up to host them on), yay! They are :
http://www.neopets.com/~eveey

http://www.neopets.com/~firethrower13

http://www.neopets.com/~rhtux

I’ll prolly submit one of them to the neopet’s “site of the day” sometime next week or so… but I’m not sure which looks the best, any suggestions?

I also got a WTC thing written up like last week, but of course couldnt post it ’cause my site was down, so that’s up now… here,.

Heh… this is like a whole blog about my webpage… oh well, my life isnt much more exciting than that. Although I did talk to my cousin today. She’s a little older than me, and we never knew each other too well, but she moved down here last week to live with her boyfriend who is going to med school here… So we’ll be hanging out some %) YAY! Should be cool…

I guess that’s it…

Well my site’s back up %) YAY!!!!

Well it’s friday again, another week has gone by without acomplishing much… I am almost finished with those neopets pages tho, just need to write a little about my little penguinish pet named rhTux (linux name, yes). Sun was supposed to have released that apache patch for the cobalt today, if so Myk will install it tonight so tomorrow my page will be back up (hopefully). And then I can move my lil neopets pages from my harddrive to the ‘net so I can post my stuff here so people can go see how neat they look, hehehe.

Hmmm I think I solved my headache problem (hopefully) … I think it’s probably lack of caffine… see we havent had soda in the house lately (hating people too much to go to the grocery store for little things we run out of you see), and I havent been drinking coffee. I woke up with a headache again this morning, and made myself some coffee, and it’s gone! %) So hopefully it’s just a caffine dependancy (yes, hopefully, ’cause that I can manage %P! Intravenous caffine plz, just like a real junkie! … that’s a joke)

Oh I am almost done with that Perl tutorial %) I am working on Regular Expressions now, why can’t all regular expressions be uniform somehow?! * means something in vim… something else in bash scripting, and something different again in perl! It’s so annoying… I am going to get SOOO confused. But at least I understand the logic/reasoning/method behind Regular Expressions, or I’d be totally lost by this %) Myk even asked me when I’m done if I could teach him some of what I learned… hehe… I’ll prolly just pass him my 15 pages of notes, hehehe!

So I think I will go work on that tutorial summore… My books should be arriving in the next couple days, yay! So that’s something to look forward to %) Plus it’s the weekend… (%

I have a headache again. I guess I havent mentioned them in previous blogs, but I have been getting them a lot lately. Maybe it’s because of the air conditioning? Maybe it’s allergies? I dunno but I’m certainly keeping the pain reliever companies in business %) But it does make concentrating *very* difficult. I was working through that perl tutorial, writing some little progys on my own and I just couldnt focus. I did get a whole page further in the tutorial today, before it got too bad to think. Hopefully this headache will go away and I will be able to do some shell scripting later %) That’d be kewl, I definately need to learn some of that, since I am terrible with bash and I *know* I spend a lot of time I dont really need to doing repetitious tasks I could preform with a simple script :)

Anyway, I went to see Lilo and Stitch last night. We had been sorta planning to see it sometime this week ’cause Myk mentioned in chat (in the chat room we chat in with our RL friends) that I wanted to see it, and Mike and Nita said they’d come along too. So Nita called last night and asked if we wanted to go… I guess it was pretty good, funny, cute %) And it was so sad ’cause Stitch doesnt have a family because he was created by an evil Doctor (this isnt spoiling, really this all is part of the first 4 minutes or so)… I admit, I got a little teary-eyed! Hehehe. It wasnt one of Disney’s best, but it wasnt awful either… And this makes it so I dont break my tradition of seeing every disney full length animated feature in the theater since the little mermaid intact (Fantasia 2000 SO does not count, since that was only in IMAX, and I didnt live near any… I saw Dinosaur that year anyway). Oh and apparently Disney (i assume?) Is coming out with “Treasure Planet” later this year… 2 FLAF’s in one year? *Sigh* I dunno how I will convince Myk to take me to see that! Hehe… I guess it turns out that I’m DEFINATELY more of a movie theater person than he is. Prolly ’cause everywhere I’ve lived the only thing to do is go to the movies or hang out at coffee shops, so I sorta got used to it. Last year around this time I was at the theater almost every other week… I even saw Pearl Harbor and Atlantis in the Drive-In… Drive-ins are kewlies, 2 movies for like $6 per person! And you can sneak in tons of food very easily, hehe… not that I’d do that… often ;)

Sooo I was playing with my Neopet this morning (no way!) and I was playing Scorcho Slots and I won all 6 of the faeries! … Ok I bet that means *nothing* to most people but it’s really cool and they are worth tons!!! Hehe… need I say again I am freaking pathetic? Well I did learn that my aunt gail and both my cousins kelly and scott have neopets too so I dont feel *so* bad ^_^ .. woohoo justifying my insanity!

Well I think I am gonna go zone out for a while, til my headache goes away, ’cause I cant think enough to write much, or do much, st00pid headache!!

Bleh… another day. Hmm sometimes I feel that i am being really silly, wasting my life away one day at a time, getting barely anything useful acomplished… but then I wonder, what ARE we supposed to acomplish in a day? And then from there I get all introspective. *Sigh* All that thinking doesnt help me from feeling useless tho…

Ok, so what’d I do today? I chatted some… played some games on neopets (god I’m pathetic!) and I’m working on cute pages for my neopets… not so much for the fact that I need cute little webpages for them, but I dont generally pass up an opportunity to use my newly found color theory skills. Plus I dont want my html skills to get rusty! This gives me content to make pretty pages.

I finally decided to quit reading Preternatural it just sucked way too bad. The only other book I read that was that bad was this lousy dragon-themed fantasy novel, that was obviously only printed once… is it only scifi/fantasy novels that are so bad that I cant finish them or do they publish really crappy books of every genre? I guess I must encounter more in scifi/fantasy since that’s mostly what I read…

Ok, so yesterday I didnt work on that perl tutorial at all like I said I would, so today I really am going to, since I have been wasting so much time doing nothing the past few weeks, I will be very depressed if I dont get *something* worthwhile done this week… *out*