So my youngest sister Annette came into chat today, which isn’t anything unusual, she usually says silly strange things, gets offended by everyone and is all around strange with the people I chat with. But she is only 13 so I don’t pay much attention to it. So anyway today she was in chat and I knew already that she listened to rap (eww) but today she’s like “do you call people people or homies?” ugh… then said: “you know how black chicks talk?? thats kinda how i talk now” Gah… there is no hope for her. Wanting to “talk like a black chick” how she puts it is like wanting to talk like a southerner… assuming a completely different dialect to be cool. Very strange, especially since she lives near Augusta Maine… I am so glad I was sheltered in a preppy school.

In other news I got the “about r2d2” page up, you can check it out here About R²D². It took quite a while, going through logs to find some old stuff that he did, since I totally forgot what kind of bot he was at first. But I put up zip files of all 3 versions: mirc, xchat, and irssi… and I put up txt files of the perl scripts (as if anyone is interested..).

So last night I slept very well… I didn’t even hear Myk get up this morning, or the shower, or anything, I woke up at like 9:30 .. so strange. I dunno what I’ll do today… I should really learn summore perl, I have recently looked into Gimp Perl scripts, but they are difficult, and I have a terrible time focusing on a project if it doesnt have a very good chance of being needed in the near future (like how I needed r2..).

So yesteray was my sister Heather’s 19th birthday I forgot to put up a happy birthday heather thing on this site… not like she’d see it anyway *shrugs* I didn’t forget her birthday tho, I made her my own little ecard (’cause ecard sites suck… its just a way to get email addys to sell to tons of spammers). Didn’t get her a present tho ’cause she didnt tell me what she wanted (i asked her about a week ago to give me a list of books and cds she wanted… she never did). See I don’t want to get her something she doesnt want, ’cause she and my father are moving soon and they won’t have room for much stuff… So speaking of that, yeah, they are moving. No more old house.. Apparently the landlord is selling the house and they have 2 months to find a new place %( Sucks… it’s such a weird feeling knowing I will never be in the house I grew up in again… Luckily I got all my stuff out of the house (least I hope I did…) the last time i was up there.

*Yawn* Damn I shouldnt be tired o_O Anyway… I’m gonna go find something useful to do so I don’t feel like a complete bum… maybe I’ll play with shellscripting or something, yeah… bbl…

Take the “How Do You Use Magic?” test! Written by Brimo

Neat.

I didn’t end up getting much done yesterday. I got into one of those “everything fucking sucks” depressed moods when Network Solutions/Verisign kept jerking me around… I swear, when I finally officially own princessleia.com I am moving it to another company, Verisign SUCKS!!! It’s such a pain on the phone with them too ’cause you can hear their hold music just fine, but when the operator gets on you have to ask them to repeat what they said 34254 times before you can hear them. Ended up telling me that I had some password that started with HQ(which i dont, never did) and since I didnt recognise it they couldnt change my secondary domain server, ugh! I have to send them a fax, with my noterized signature on it to change it… fucking pisses me off… I dont have the time or resources for this! It was so hard hearing the person on the phone I didn’t even bother to inquire again about the status of the domain switchover of princessleia.com .. sometimes I think it would have been better to let it expire and then buy it, heh. They told me like 3 weeks ago that the request had been recieved… I don’t know what’s taking them so long. Anyway, talking about this is just upsetting me %) moving on…

I did some work this morning on my irssi bot.. I wanted to get him to read actions as well as regular messages, but I cant seem to find any examples of scripts grabbing info from actions, so it’s been difficult, I sorta gave up for the day ’cause it was bugging me too much. I did go for a walk this morning, which was nice ’cause it’s been too hot lately, we opened the windows last night for the first time in weeks, it was sorta damp, but mostly cool… I didn’t sleep well tho, bleh, i need like perfect conditions to sleep well, lol %)

I guess I’m going to finally go write up the “About R²D²” thing I’ve been meaning to write for about a week now… I’m gonna upload all his scripts too, from mirc to irssi, should be interesting %)

bbl…

Well my hatred of clothing shopping finally won out and I bought a bathing suit online. I wasn’t going to, since bathing suits are sorta the kind of thing you want to try on before you buy them… but I really don’t feel like going to stores in the end of July only to discover all they have left for bathing suits on the rack are size 4 bikinis, ’cause who buys a bathing suit in the middle of the summer? Oh well, I checked with the return policy of this one place and it seemed pretty good so I spent like $50, I don’t think I’ve ever spent that much on a bathing suit, but I didn’t want to get one from a crappy no name online company, that’s scary. Anyway, the reason for getting one was is that we have a pool here at the apartments, and it’s been hot, so I want to go swimming. I paid extra for quick delivery, so it should be here by friday or so… what can I say, I’m an impatient young american. The sucky thing is that I tried twice last night and the website was all “our site not working, come back later” and now when I look at my online bank statement it shows charging me 3 times… “Debit pending” of course, so hopefully when the bank realizes it was a mistake those will go away… I called the company this morning anyway to make sure they only charged me once. Gah, I wouldn’t be to happy losing $100 by some browser mistake, I’d lose all faith in internet shopping.

Speaking of which, I just finished the Third Wheel of Time book last night and wrote up a review:

The Dragon Reborn, by Robert Jordan, 701 pages

In this third book of the Wheel of Time series there was a lot of moving
of characters, it was very well written so that you are equally
interested in all the characters movements. I find that in some books
one set of characters is more interested than another and I always pull
myself through reading the uninteresting stuff to get the the
interesting stuff. Not so with Jordan, he really makes an effort to make
the whole story flow very well. Unfortunately, with this book I find
what flaw people have with Jordan, this book was about 700 pages long
and very little happened. Or hardly anything very important anyway, he
manages to take up a lot of space to write a small progression of the
story. I personally don’t really have a problem with this, not now
anyway, but I’m afraid I’ll learn to dislike it as the series
progresses. Some people have said that he created this series so that he
could write it for his entire life, he is very good at describing
scenes, and developing characters, but it takes so long. Anyway, the
plot is pretty much all the characters growing in their chosen tasks,
and all end up chasing different people all to this city of Tear. The
climax occurs toward the end when The Dragon Reborn takes a vital step
toward world proclaimation of his status. So in all? I
liked it, breezed through it in a little over a week, I’ll probably be
heading out for book number four in a couple weeks.

So I just looked up on my bookshelf and saw a book I hadnt read yet Redwall I’ve actually read another in the series but not this one, they are fantasy stories whose characters are animals *shrugs* It’ll be a nice break between WoT books. Hopefully I’ll get to the bookstore before I’m done with this so I wont have to do something silly like reading the Celestine Prophecy next or something. Then again I am sure I could look through my piles of books and find a few things I havent read… The problem is that I have a terrible habit of acquiring like, the second book in a 5 book series or something, I cant read that ’cause I havent read the first, and even if I decide to go on without reading previous I sorta get committed to a series *shrugs* I am gonna go wander off and see if I can get some work done, since it’s after 1 and all I have done today is unsucessfully tried to change my secondary domain name, bleh.

Well I actually left the house this past weekend. Last week our cable was all screwy.. lost channels 23-46, which are pretty much all we watch… thought something had broken when they installed the cable next door so we had ppl come out and check out line, they said it was fine so I called back today and they told me that we had been getting standard cable when we were only supposed to get basic, heh… 7 months and they discover this now? Well it’s freaking $30 extra a month to get what we’ve had the whole time living here… who knows if it’s worth it, we hardly watch tv… but when we want to we don’t want to just get crappy channels! UGH! H8 @ Com(munist)cast!!! Oh well… We went out friday night to get a movie, rented A Beautiful Mind since we hadnt seen it… turned out to be a really great movie, I was very impressed, ‘specially since I dont like Russell Crowe much, but he did a really great job. Then on saturday I was like “Myk, we have to do something tonight” ’cause I was terribly bored. So we went to this arcade in philly called Jillians… Hmmm it’s not only an arcade, it was a big place, arcade, bowling alley, dance hall, pool area, bar, lots of stuff, it was a kewl place and we hung out in the arcade the whole time… played a bit of skeeball (very badly I might add).. and air hockey a few times, that was kewl, and we played this virtual bowling game… you could bowl through cities, or the woods, or in a regular alley, we played in the woods and i kept screwing up and hitting trees n stuff, it was… interesting, but fun. I’ve never been a big arcade fan ’cause it was expensive, but this place wasnt too bad, and they use these neat credit cards to play games, each card has points on it and you use that instead of carrying around quarters or tokens. Anyway it was a good way just to have fun.. afterwards we went to Friday’s … were they screwed up our order ’cause they seemed to have a cook there that liked to put bacon on everything even when I asked them not to, heh, I DONT EAT PORK! %) We got home around 10ish and Myk was msg’ed by someone on IRC (a guy we sorta know from PLUG) asking us if we wanted to hang out for a bit that night. So it was 10ish, and we werent at all tired so we got some directions and drove out there, ended up being almost an hour away, hehe… but it was kewl spending time with real people. I had never met Ian’s (Ian is the guy’s name…) fiancee before, and she seemed really nice. Apparently she works as an electrical engineer… and he works from home from what I gather. And he’s a KDE developer (KDE is one of the window managers for linux… like Gnome, or Enlightenment… yeah). So we spent a couple hours over there, mostly Myk and Ian talking about computer stuff that I barely understood. Heh, they asked me what I did and I didn’t know what to say, just looked at Myk and was like “uh… not much… I don’t have a job…” Myk was like “she’s learning perl!” Gah, I hate when people ask me what I do, I feel like such a failure. I guess they know I use linux, so Ian was like “you should just tell people you are a consultant” lol… I guess I could, and maybe someday I’ll even get paid for my advice so I wont be lying! But for now I’m a charity consultant, hehe. I guess I was pretty shy again, I can’t help it %( Plus I felt pretty dumb ’cause I know Ian and his fiancee graduated from college, and Myk was totally involved in the conversation. I think they tried to get me into the conversation when they started talking about books, Ian’s fiancee is an Orson Scott Card fan too, so that was kewl.. but for the most part Ian was bragging about reading big books at age 12 n shit. Not that he’s a bad person, he’s really smart and nice, just has that “i graduated college, that means I am so smart” additude that I have found among some college grads. Anyway, we had a nice time there, it’s cool getting to know new people *shrugs* Ended up leaving there around 1:30ish… came home and chatted for a while before bed. Sunday was not so eventful… got up around noon, chatted, my allergies were acting up really bad so I ended up going to read around 3ish, took some Benedryl that made me feel all froozy, and it didnt make my sinus headache go away like it said it would! I just sorta napped a little til Myk came in and asked if I was ok. I took some tylenol finally for the headache, and felt better… we ordered pizza and channel surfed the channels we do have for an excuse to snuggle on the couch. We watched some of these new Law & Order shows… they suck %) Then ate some ice cream and watched Adult Swim on the cartoon network… I went to bed around 1..

So it’s today now… and currently 11:41, I think today I might actually write up that r2d2 history thing for my webpage… I also want to write a little thing about platform independent webpages and why they are so important (I have a lot of discussions about this with people who seem to think everyone uses IE). But right now I am gonna get back to what I was saying earlier about the college grads vs. non college grads thing. I have noticed, in the field of computers anyway, it’s pretty easy to see who graduated from a nice college and who taught themselves everything they know. It’s very interesting seeing the difference. I’ve found that the college grads tend to be a bit more cocky, and talk about things differently… strictly text book… while those who teach themselves attack problems, and explain them much differently. I think if i were to have a teacher for anything in computers I’d prefer someone who didnt go to college. I mean I have friend who are at the same level, some went to college, some just have certifications, and the ones who didnt go to college understand “newbies” much better. Since they were there and they know what it’s like not to have someone take them by the hand and teach them everything they need to know. SO I am thinking I wont go to college afterall… It’s really impressive how much some people have acomplished, one of our friends didnt even graduated high school and he’s doing well.. another didnt go to college and he doesnt have trouble finding jobs because he has so much experience, even Myk didnt get a degree, he just got certifications, and he’s doing very well. *shrugs* I guess college could help, but if I really put my mind to it I can learn everything on my own, and not owe thousands of dollars when I’m done %)

*yawn* anyway I gotta go eat lunch…

It’s like 6 am when I am starting this… can’t sleep. I got up at around 5:15 after I awoke from a bad dream and realized I wasnt gonna fall back asleep. I hate bad dreams. In this one some perv messaged me in chat and Myk saw it and freaked thinking I knew this person for some reason. I dunno why I’d have a dream like that, it as really fucked up… maybe I’m paranoid. Or it’s just a backlash from when I was dating my ex and my every move was suspicious to him. I would never cheat on Myk tho’ … I’m crazy about him.

Anyway, I was depressed again yesterday afternoon. Dunno what it was, I think it started ’cause I realized I hadnt been out of the house since last friday. Sometimes I think something is seriously wrong with me for having all this depression, it definately sucks, i have everything i want… But I did discover how great Radiohead is when you’re depressed… i have a bunch of Radiohead mp3s… a bunch I got after that week I spent in rochester with my friend Pete. See one night we were at his friend’s house drinking screwdrivers and smoking up… I got so messed up that night, and his friend had just gotten some radiohead singles and was playing them, I was totally loving it. We also watched this movie that was all ambient music with random scenes of stuff, I swear I wouldnt have enjoyed it so much if I wasnt fucked up %) Anyway it was a fond memory so I got the radiohead mp3s to remember it by.. getting on with it…
Myk came home, and then left again last night to go to Beer Club… it’s a bunch of home brewers that get together.. myk only went ’cause the guy running it has a linux system and was having trouble with it. When he came home around 9ish he brought home chinese, and complained that the people at beerclub were a bunch of alcoholics.. hehe. Anyway, by that time i had a bit of a headache, ick, and we just ate dinner and watched Toy Story (Myk had never seen it… and for some reason the cable was out…). Then I went to try to read, but with a headache it was kinda difficult… *shrugs* I just decided to go to sleep… so I guess i must have fallen asleep a little before midnight… must have been too early since I am up now %)

But I think I am gonna go back and snuggle with Myk for a little while before he has to get up for work… bbl.

So it was suggested to me to actually BUY a Jimmy Eat World cd if I wanted their songs. There are a few reasons why I wont. One of them being my current work situation, I dont have a job… and although I have quite a bit of savings I’d rather not spend that on cds ’cause once the savings is gone it’s gone, and I am sure there are much better things it could go towards. Now of course I *could* ask Myk to buy it for me, he would have no problem doing that, but if I begged him to get my ever cd I wanted we’d be poor %) besides, I’d feel guilty since he does buy me so much other stuff, oh and he supports my non working ass %) This doesnt mean that I dont buy any cds… The most recent cd I bought was the most recent Mediaeval Baebes cd… I like to support groups who dont have much other support and Mediaeval Baebes isnt too popular, and I luv them, so it’s a good investment %) I did end up getting some Jimmy Eat World mp3s from a friend of mine yesterday, I was kinda disappointed by some *shrugs* i guess every band has it’s lemons ;)

Anyway, after all that bitching I did about scripting in irssi… I finished the R²D² Bot. Yep, just a day ago I was complaining that I’d never finish it, and I can say now that he’s all up and running perfectly. See yesterday around 4:30 (which is like the end of the day since myk comes home around 5:30-6:30) I had quite a breakthrough. I finally discovered how the parsing worked, well, enough to make my script function anyway. So I wrote a few commands for the bot yesterday. Then this morning as soon as I got up (around 9am) I was writing script for that silly bot until I realized it was 11:30 and I still wasnt dressed, I hadnt even brushed my teeth… so I took a break and took a shower n stuff.. then I came back and finished up the script. It’s running now on the webserver… so when I reboot my computer, or my connection dies, or whatever, R2 is still alive moderating the room, yay! And he’s fast since he is running off a very fast connection, not like my crappy cable connection. But I am really happy I got the script done, it was a lot of work, but definately worth it %) I needed practice with Perl anyway, and it makes me feel like I am doing something.

So I got this interesting IM on ICQ (those ppl are so weird) from some guy saying he was writing a book about angels and was looking for people to “help” him with it. *Shrugs* Usually I just close these windows without paying attention, but this one I felt like responding to, so I asked a couple questions (he was offline) and forgot about it til this afternoon. I was still puzzled about his intentions until he send me the rough draft of a webpage he is working on to post the info on. Apparently he’s an artist/naturalist who does portraits for money and studies nature and other fields in his spare time. Pretty interesting stuff, and apparently he’s pretty well traveled, used to live in california.. lived in africa for a time while getting his degree, and is now living in England. I’ll believe him about all that… they were pretty obscure things to lie about. Anyway, he wanted my picture and a short description of what I thought about angels. I quickly explained that I didnt believe in them in the biblical sense and he said that didnt matter. So on this webpage he had painted portraits of people, and then written on pieces of paper what these people thought about angels. It was really interesting, and I guess he wanted to do a portrait of me and what I thought… So obviously skeptical I asked how he chose the people… and I guess whoever responds to his random ICQ message.. he was just going to do his friends and more notable aquiantances (said he knew the members of Massive Attack… and one of the portraits was of one of the members…), but one of his friends encouraged him to seek out strangers for the project as well. So do I believe this guy is gonna spend 8 hours (that’s how long he said it would take) on a portrait of me just for a book? Hell I’ve got nothing to lose, any idiot could find my picture on the net with barely trying, it’s not something I try to hide… and what’s the 20 minutes I spend writing a couple sentances about my idea of angels? And in the end I think it would be kinda cool to have a portrait made of me, even if I can only see it over the net %) Don’t worry, I’m not getting my hopes up.

Ah back to the r2d2 bot thing, since it took me so long to work on it and it’s done and I’m happy. I am gonna write a little “about R²D²” section for my webpage… he’s just a bot but he’s been on quite a few adventures since being created (i’ve come a long way from high school). It’ll sorta be like the section I had on my old spree site about R² which I am sure no one remembers.. I’ll probably reread that and grab some ideas from it… in any event I’m gonna sorta work on that, and write the little angel thing. *wanders off*

Just a few weeks ago I had never even heard Jimmy Eat World, but now I have grown to rather like them. And I only have 4 of their mp3s… and since Audiogalaxy went all gay on me I can’t get more… maybe I can find a friend to leech some from, or if all else fails I’ll boot into windows and spend some time downloading a few tracks, but only as a last resort %)

Hmm… I hate when I think of all sorts of things to write here and then I get into this little box and forget all of it… Ah, yes, yesterday I started fighting with getting the xchat Perl script for r2d2 to work in irssi, gah… irssi is so confusing %( If only they used basic normal IRC things I’d be so happy! But they dont of course, have to make it all confusing so I play with it for three hours and all I end up with is 3 hours of errors… I guess I’ll try to work on summore of it today *shrugs* I think I just get frustrated too easily and then I scream it’s impossible %) A very bad habit. Hopefully it’s possible for me to be smart enough to make the script work in irssi… I am still optimistic (although I doubt I will be this afternoon after working on it for a while.

Heh… I just talked to my sister and another one of the chinchillas died… Whiskerz, Annette’s favorite chinchilla %( He had been sick… an infected tooth that needed to be removed. I guess they had a date for the surgery, but he just didn’t last that long %( *sigh* this is depressing… wonderful way to start a day… i’d put a picture up but it seems no one has a picture of him… annette might but they dont have a scanner.

I’m gonna go wander off, this news hasnt put me in a good mood… %(

I’m not sure why I started feeling depressed yesterday. It was really strange… see I was wandering around reading people’s xanga sites ’cause I was bored.. and started feeling like a serious loser ’cause other people put up kewl stuff about their lives and fun stuff they were doing.. and I put up a couple silly book reviews.. I started thinking about how pathetically nerdy that was… I am not sure why that made me depressed, I usually like it when people call me a geek *shrugs* maybe it was a bit of the “society’s view of what I should be” creeping in and making me feel like I wasnt living up to the expectations of a woman my age… er something. Anyway, Myk came home from work… and we spent a really nice evening together.. not that that’s much different from other evenings, but I realized I was really happy, and I shouldnt be depressed because of what I do enjoy, as geeky as it should seem.

So now that that’s done with, I guess I should move on… Last night when Myk came home he found a package in our mailbox. He was surprised and then read that it was from a friend of ours online, in Belgium! I gave him our address a few months back (btw, anyone crazy enough can easily get my address by doing a whois on my domain… so I am not too scared about giving it out to friends, at least they asked instead of being devious about it). But he didn’t give any indication that he actually sent anything. So we opened the box and he sent us a couple cans of Belgian beer, a bunch of yummie yummie chocolate, a cd-r with The Crow on it (’cause I had never seen it, and he had a copy), a cd-r with a bunch of mp3s, a euro coin, and a hand-written letter. It was really cool %) We drank the beer during dinner, it was good, better than american beer anyway. And the chocolate… ooooo… mmmmm… sooo mmmm good %d I went ahead and found the website this morning, and took their little “chocolate lovers quiz” … found out that I “Undoubtedly you belong to the great family of: Melted Milk Pleasure-Seekers” hehe… so true (% the site is www.cotedor.com, because I know you are interested %P Anyway our friend from Belgium (his name is Nick… but his online name is Yann … s’too weird to call him Nick, lol) is in France for a few days, watching a cycling thing… ’cause I guess he likes cycling, er something. We kept making fun of him saying he likes to watch men wearing spandex. But we’re gonna have to thank him TONS when he gets back %) it was such a nice surprise. We were trying to think of things to send him from here… since he’s using us as his door the learning more about the US, but we can’t seem to think of anything that’s so US specific AND good (everything from the US sucks, beer, chocolate… hehe). So if anyone reading this, if anyone reads this has any suggestions I’d really appreciate the input.

So I watched The Crow this morning, it was much better than I expected… I was anticipating some lame ass teen goth movie or something I guess (hey I was drawing from the ppl I knew that were big worshippers of this movie). But it really turned out to be an interesting story n stuff.. I can imagine how sequels would suck tho, they ARE probably lousy teen goth movies %) But this first one I did enjoy.. I started listening to some of the mp3s he sent too, but then I decided to go clean up the house a bit ’cause I was feeling lazy… Besides, Myk finished up a rough version (if you could call it that, it sounds fine to me…) of his latest Ambient mix, and I was downloading it to listen to it.. so I’m listening to that now, it’s really good %) I guess I have to try to give him summore time alone to work on making it perfect, hehe.

So I guess it was when I was feeling depressed yesterday I was surfing through some websites from this linux chicks site (I think I was looking for others like me so I wouldnt feel so sad, hehe). I stumbled upon this one girl’s site that had some quake 2 instructions for getting it to run on linux… so I was bored so I decided to check them out even though I have no current intention of installing quake 2… and toward the end of the description she mentioned that the brightness controls built into the game dont work in linux so you needed to adjust xgamma before you ran the game… I was like… wtf is xgamma? So I typed it into a terminal… apparently by adjusting the color levels in xgamma you can make your screen brighter or darker! This is exactly what I needed to make my screen bright enough to play UT!!! I was so excited %) I ended up writing a shell script to execute to start UT and change the gamma settings (I make it pretty bright for UT… and those brightness settings are a little too much for my typical desktop). So the script sets the xgamma higher when I go into UT… and then sets it back to normal when I exit UT, s’pretty cool… and a dreadfully basic script, but it does work, and now I can stop complaining about my old monitor, hehe

Anyway, today I want to start getting my bot’s script ported to irssi… it runs on xchat currently, off my own computer. Which means I have to keep x running all the time, and when I reboot, restart x, turn off my computer for any reason, the bot goes too… and if i wanted to go to windows, for some reason, I’d have to launch the old mirc bot… besides, my cable connection is unstable, and the bot is required in the room to give voice to people on the friend list. Anyway, I’m gonna go do that noew… laterski.