First off, thanks to everyone who commented on that last entry, it helped.
On Tuesday night I talked to my Aunt Elaine about my father’s passing. I also let other members of the family know, so I spent a lot of time talking online as well. My sister Heather is taking it hard of course, she’s been with him through everything.
Wednesday morning I went to work. I guess since I have never had to deal with the loss of someone close to me I didn’t know what I needed. I woke up that morning and said “Call out of work, why? So I can just mope around all morning? There is nothing I can do at home.” After a few hours at work I realized that each time I stopped being busy I felt like I was going to fall apart. Oh. That’s why people take a few days off work when they lose someone.
I needed some moping time. Moping is sometimes good.
I ended up leaving work around 1pm, my supervisor gave me her home phone number just in case I didn’t want to go in on Thursday. I’m thankful to have a temp job that’s so understanding and supportive, she even told me I could take the rest of the week off.
I got home and some flowers were delivered to me, from a couple of my friends. How sweet! I might have been feeling all disconnected, but flowers do help somehow. They’re pretty and made me feel good to know that people care enough to send flowers.
Michael made a fire in the evening, and I spent some time reading. I talked to a friend on the phone, then spoke to my mother (turns out she didn’t know until 1pm on Wednesday, Oops. Most of her family knew before she did…). I spoke to grandparents (mother’s parents), and later talked to my Uncle Dan (my godfather). They were all pretty upset, but it was really nice to hear from them.
Thursday I ended up staying home. I puttered around most of the morning, made some cookies in the afternoon, my first time using my spiffy new mixmaster. It was an ok day, mostly I just needed the alone time to think. I recieved flowers from work in the afternoon, that was nice. Also got a few more books for the Philly Chix library.
Friday I went back into work. It was a decent day, I kept busy. That night we had some friends over, had a few beers and pizza. I had fun, needed to have some friend time.
Saturday I spent reading almost all day. I’m reading Orson Scott Card’s Alvin Maker series for the first time, it’s pretty good.
Today… I dunno. Perhaps I’ll try and fix Gentoo. It’s being bad and crankie with modules. This might be my fault. Bleh.