Dido – All You Want

I am writing this while waiting for my Neocron download to start at Fileplanet… Fileplanet sucked %) I left it on the waiting list (they have waiting lists to download files..) and it ended up crashing mozilla… so I come back to look at it and it’s all *gone* heh… So I am going to watch it this time! And it’s pretty funny how the time is calculated on it, like I have a 29 minute wait, but in the end it turns out to be something like an hour wait… I was joking in chat last night that their server was on Mars, thus going by Mars time (oh geez guys, I am talking about year time, I dont care about the physics of it all! It takes longer for Mars to go around the sun, longer years, longer minutes). I’m at 18 minutes now %)

Looks like I had some geekage in my comments yesterday… MAX_INT Hee… now I’ve never bothered to learn C++ (in fact it’s under my dislikes along with Visual Basic on deep13.org), and of course never tried any C, gah! But that’s funneh… heh… as for the second comment, maybe I just dont know C++ so I didnt *get* as much of the joke as i should have, heh… Anyway, good to see the only xangians arent 13 year old girls who have dating lives that are more confusing than my Perl scripts %)

I talked to my aunt Elaine on the phone yesterday, she’s the aunt I lived with for a few months here in philly, and again after I left my ex in Rochester, NY… she’s pretty much my favorite family member, hehe… anyway she called me to get help installing her printer… we were on the phone for about an hour yesterday, talking about things going on in our lives (she’s in college right now..) and trying to get the silly printer to work. In the end I gave her some suggestions and she IM’ed me later to tell me she got it working. The first problem was the printer wasn’t on %) That’s why she called me in the first place but in the end it turned out to be the printer cartriages were put in wrong, heh, something I wasnt able to tell over the phone… after all those installs every way I could think of, arg! Obviously over the phone printer tech support is not my forte %) It was good to talk to her tho, after moving out of her apartment in December we’ve tried to keep in close contact, but it’s just so hard when you live hours away %(

Woohoo only 9 minutes left!

I got a letter, like a real paper letter, even written by hand, from my father yesterday. If you arent up to speed, he’s currently in a rehab program for recovering alcoholics… it’s a live-in place, he’ll be there for 9-12 months. It’s really a terrible situation, he’s been an alcholic as long as i can remember, so this really is what he needed. The letter sorta had the feel of “part of the 12 step program” He took responsibility for so much of the crap that’s happened in my life, dispite it not being all his fault. It was quite sad actually how guilty he feels, but I guess guilt is necessary for recovery or something. It was pretty much a huge apology for not being there for me when I “needed him most” and him not supporting me even though I am “so smart” and should have gone off to college and made everyone proud.. he also too responsibility for me leaving before my parents got divorced. That made ME feel guilty. True, I didn’t want to be around when the family fell apart because I spent most of my time growing up playing peacemaker… but another big part of it was just that I didn’t want to face the reality of life and everything. I didn’t want to face responsibility, so I just kept running away… I still am. And sure, maybe if I had more support from my parents in school I would have been more sure of myself, maybe had been stronger and gone on to do the college thing, but I would have been a completely different person I think. I dunno… I will write him back though… even though I am not sure what to say, I’ll think about it and hope it doesnt take *too* long…

3 minutes, yay!

This Neocron is like a 1.1 gig file, lol. I was telling Myk about it last night (www.neocron.com so I dont need to explain it to you too), as well as confessing to him what a crazy gamer I am, LOL even after living with him since december he really had no idea what a crazy fiend I could be. I told him about how when the Diablo 2 expansion pack came out I was at the store at midnight to get it, lol… he was like “but it will be there after that, why go then?” Ugh… lol, and then of course he got me in that mood where I just wanted to talk about gaming, he was like “ah! you are talking about games again!” it was funny… I am such the uber geek for the both of us, lol, even if he is a little more geeky when it comes to geeky computer things…

OMG… Mozilla just crashed AGAIN!!!! 2 minutes to go on the download waitinglist!!! *Sigh* maybe I should just give up %( Or try netscape, this sucks!!! Oh well… I’ll do it somehow, or just give up %) *wanders off to be very upset*

Nine Inch Nails – Dead Souls

PLUG (phildelphia linux users group) was last night. we didnt go again, it ended up being really hot yesterday and Myk hasn’t been sleeping so great, and allergies have been bugging him, so by the end of the day he was pretty wiped out, didnt go grocery shopping like we should have either..

So last night Myk was looking at some houses, found a nice one, and we even made an appointment to see it… but looking over our finances we sorta realized that we can’t really afford it. It’s all quite depressing finding out what you can and cannot afford.. I dont know whether to call the agent and tell her to cancel the appointment or just go and then later admit that we could never afford it, heh… I guess I’ll call her later.

Then in an attempt to get away from the finding a house crap I decided to try to get together the stuff so I could change the secondary dns on princessleia.com. I guess I have to fax them a form with this crap on it telling them what to change since I dont know the crypt password, heh… Of course the netsol site is all fucked up and I cant get anywhere on it now… it’s really dumb and i hate it! Gah.. one stressful thing to another, I am having a bad day %( Not to mention I am tired, I woke up like 354435 times last night for no reason, it sucked.

Wow I complain a lot %) I think I am just going to go read… that’ll cheer me up, stupid day!

Stabbing Westward – Everything I Touch

Ended up with a pretty bad sinus headache yesterday afternoon… took tylenol, then excedrin… nothing helped, I rested in bed til Myk got home around 8 (he had a doctor’s appointment) and it still wasnt gone. Myk got us chinese last night too, and we never did get to the grocery store, he got me some Benedryl too, and that got rid of my headache finally. Of course they arent kidding when they said “may cause drowsiness” I crawled into bed around 10 to wait for my headache to go away, and before I knew it it was 2 am and Myk was in the room to turn off the light. I slept pretty well tho %) I think that is the first time I’ve gone to bed that early in years %) But I feel better today.. cept for this toothache that has been coming and going. I havent been to the dentist in like 3 years, I should make an appointment… I think my wisdom teeth are coming in… or I have a cavity… or both, I dont know what either feels like ’cause i’ve never had wisdom teeth, or a cavity before ;)

I talked to my mom last night… yeah in bed trying to get rid of a headache and she calls! Hehe… I guess my sister cant keep Merlynn and Dweezle %( So my mother is going down today to get them… that means Myk and I need to drive up to Maine sometime in the next couple of months to get them.. another reason getting a house SOON would be nice %) They will have to stay at Myk’s mother’s house until we can find a place..

Speaking of finding a house.. things still suck with that %( I found this awsome house… it was an old schoolhouse, 102 years old but in good condition… huge fireplace, nice lot, good area, called on it “oh sorry we closed on that thursday.. but it was a beautiful house *insert long description of how perfect it was here*” I was like “um, ok, stfu it’s gone!!!” .. Anyway that sucked, I will call back on another house that I think is gone, but I need to be sure…

^^ sooo pretty
1.5 acres of land! Gah… I am gonna go call on this house and then get some more work done, maybe do a little more house-hunting… *wanders off*

Barenaked Ladies – Break Your Heart

So I played with .vimrc this morning… I was frustrated ’cause it was set to “wrap” at 72 columns, which meant it put an -enter- at the end of 72 lines… so when I pasted from vim to xanga it would take the -enter- as a br … and make my xanga entries only 72 columns wide, which looked weird when I decided to write in vim from time to time %) Anyway, it’s all fixed… I found the vimrc and realized it was set to 72, bleh… had to unset it and things are all better noew.

The lan party on sunday was fun %) Played the Battlefield 1942 demo (full version isnt released yet, but it’s a kewl game) most of the time…
played a little UT, and a friend of mine has a copy of Warcraft 3, so we played a game of that. Toward the end of the night I started getting all sniffly, and got a bit of an allergy headache %( stupid summer allergies… and they have dogs, so I am sure it was a mix of the two, I took some Benedryl and then was pretty much zoned out for the rest of the night, hehe. They had rice crispy treats there too, lol, I hadnt had those in ages, prolly put on 2 pounds from those alone ;) It’s nice getting out and seeing people every once in a while… and three day weekends are the best time to do it… woulda sucked to have the lan party sunday night, getting home at like 1:30 am o_O

Yesterday we just stayed home… I slept til about 1 pm… which is uncommon for me ’cause I tend to try to get up before noon even on weekends so I can keep in a semi-normal sleeping schedule and my insomnia stays away! I read a bunch yesterday… a little over halfway through the 5th Wheel of Time book… still good %) I decided to order books BEFORE I finished my book this time, so I have something to read when I’m done… Went to bn.com last week and ordered Another Fine Myth/Myth Conceptions a book (two in one actually) that starts this Myth’s series that GryphonBlue recommended. And I ordered Equal Rites the next (3rd) Discworld book I need to read.. and then of course Lord of Chaos the 6th Wheel Of Time book.. wow… all these books are part of a series O_o and i just realized I wanted to order one that wasnt, lol doh! Oh well…next time %)

So I had another weird dream with people from high school in it, again, very unimportant people who I never really thought twice about… very
strange, what’s even stranger is they are actual dreams, and not nightmares like most high school dreams are *shrugs* I don’t remember much other than that it took place on the trail that goes around the apartment complex… strange.

Look, I took another quiz, funny thing is I have never watched Buffy… have no intention of EVER doingso, and the last 2 questions I just randomly clicked ’cause of this:


Which Buffy Girl Are You? Find out @ She’s Crafty

Right, sounds accurate, but again, never seen the show…

I just went to go make myself some lunch… again it amazed me that we have like no food in our place. We havent gone shopping in a little over 2 weeks, besides running to get milk and bread, so now our menu is down to tunafish, pickles and peanut butter, i’m just finishing up the last of the bread now. I hate grocery shopping SO much. I think my parent’s method to having lots of food was to have canned food n stuff in the pantry, and stuff we didnt like to eat much… so it always looked like we had food… and they had a pretty regular shopping pattern so they’d shop even when we were not completely out of food. I remember wondering why people would be so panicked to get food if there was a storm or something, ’cause everyone has a pantry full of food right? Ha! I don’t now! I’d be in line with the rest of ’em.. I guess we should go grocery shopping tonight so i dont end up with a pickle/peanut butter/tuna casserole for lunch tomorrow %D So nasty…

The house hunt is still going crappy %( I called back on that so perfect place in Honey Brook to make sure it really was sold (last person I spoke to thought so but wasnt sure) and of course they havent called me back yet… even though I asked to be notified either way. Oh well, it was pretty far away anyway, a 1 1/2 hour commute for Myk would be a lot… plus when/if I get a car and a job it would be rough for me too, especially since I doubt I’d be getting a new car %D

Anyway, I am gonna try to get some stuff done today… maybe look for houses summore *wanders off*

Havent been listening to music the past few days while writing my logs.. *shrugs*

We’re going to a lan party this afternoon… it’s been raining all night *watches her computer cringe* but that’s better than having it 100 degrees out and dragging our computers and all our stuff through that… at least with rain we can grab a towel and toss it over the computer and be done with it… heat means sweaty and uncomfortable and crankie %)

Ever have a dream that has someone seemingly unimportant from your past that you havent seen in over 3 years? In a dream last night (which is strange, I dont usually remember dreams… only nightmares) there was this guy I knew from high school in it. I remember he was nice to me, while most people in high school preferred to look through me (which wasnt a problem..). I cant quite remember what he did that was nice for me once, but I know he did ’cause I remember almost feeling like he was a friend *shrugs*… anyway I havent thought of this guy in ages, and I was never attracted to him, nothing like that… but he was in my dream last night… along with some girls I knew in high school Megan Johnson and Marion Tizon (that isnt her last name anymore is it? Hee) who i doubt even spoke to this guy ever… it was all quite strange o_O I cant think of anything that would make me dream of any of them… cept maybe that conversation on friday that someone mentioned the Galapagos Islands and I remember megan went there recently… *shrugs* Dreams are weirdy.

I went out again last night with Myk’s Jeep.. he wasnt feeling so great ’cause his allergies are really acting up and he took some Benedryl that made him feel all strange… so I took back the videos that were due by noon today (and hell if i’m gonna go out before noon on a weekend!).. went to the grocery store too to get a chocolate oreo brownie thing ’cause I had a crazy craving for chocolate, prolly ’cause I dont eat it much anymore and I WAS feeling a bit down….

I talked to Myk about how lousy I felt after Ian and Jess left on friday, he told me not to let people like that get me down, and they were just still high off the “just graduated college and havent yet been smacked around by the real world” thing… while I have real world experience and consiquently a full grasp on my knowledge (like how I still cant spell %P!). In the end Myk is right, and I felt better…

So yesterday a friend of mine (no names!) who is a computer science major specializing in webdesig asked me how to do a simple thing in html… I didn’t flinch when I told them, just said what it was… then realized that they were a CS major and all and it sorta blew me away.. I know other CS majors too, and it seems either they dont care about their major enough to spend spare time working on it (I know I would! I do!)… and/or the schools really fucking suck… It’s just strange that even when I went to an RIT keg party I got into a perfectly equal conversation with a 3rd year CS major about context of different programming languages and after we stopped talking he was like “So what year are you? I havent seen you around campus before…” It really makes me think if i went to college for a CS degree it would be a waste of money, cant I just take a cheap test to prove I know what I’m doing? Gah…

Anyway I have some stuff to do before packing up ole’ r2 for the lan party, so I should do that… *wanders off*

So last night we did have friends over, Ian and Jess… met Ian through PLUG and Jess is his fiance. Both really smart people, I enjoy their company even if I don’t know them too well… I like talking to them n stuff, but each time we talk I end up feeling stupid and uneducated by the end of the night… which is partially true since I didn’t go to college.. I dunno, I know I’m not stupid, I just feel that way in certain situations and with certain people… It’s weird ’cause in other situations with other people I am thought of as really smart.. this ongoing contradiction is annoying… and it has me a bit down, I just feel so dumb right now..

So I dont know why i didnt mention it before, but I got to drive Myk’s Jeep for the first time on Thursday.. I hadnt driven since last december, lol. Not because he didnt trust me or didnt want me to, just because the situation never arose for me to ask.. and I never liked driving anyway. But I learned really quicks that a Jeep does NOT drive like a car, lol. I did fine tho, even tho I hadnt driven in like 8 months… it’s like riding a bike, sorta o_O I’ve gone out twice with the Jeep noew, I think now Myk trusts I CAN drive and that I wont kill anything, lol… I really am a good driver.

Today we got up late like usual on saturdays… played around for a bit, I booted into windows to get the windows updates and an updated NVidia GeForce 3 Vid card driver for windows so my computer will run at it’s optimal windows capabilities tomorrow… found out I hadnt run windows update since january, lol. I just dont use windows enough, and when I do I am doing something specific so I dont want to take the time to do an update and reboot and stuff %) Anyway, it should run ok for the party… it’s just sad going into windows, it’s the only time my poor little 450 mhz computer shows it’s age!

So yeah we are going to a LAN party tomorrow… should be fun. Just downloaded a demo of Battlefield 1942… looks pretty cool, we’ll probably buy the full version when it comes out, and I’m sure people will want to play the demo at the lan party tomorrow, just frustrating ’cause the demo doesnt have single player mode %( I have to set up a local server and play on that… and you need two players at least… i think *shrugs* i didnt try to hard to figure it out since we were going out. Yep I went out today! To unos to visit Bob, a guy Myk used to work with… he’s a kewl guy, fun to talk to… and we got to have yummie unos pizza %d

Hmmm… so I don’t usually talk about lame problems on the scifi IRC server.. but they are present in my everyday life. See it’s a crappy old server, and it’s not hard to exploit, so these script kiddiots come on and make a big mess, of course. So #13thHour has been moderated for quite some time now, sure it might hamper the room from growing, but we are happy with the community we have there… the rest of the server hated us for it, but we didnt want to have to deal with lamers, even if it did cost us the occasional kewl chatter from time to time… But just recently this one kid has been causing a lot of problems, so most of the rooms have become moderated, so of course this kid found away around it to annoy the hell out of everyone. Anyway I thought it would be safe to chat in a few other moderated rooms finally, but they insist on making themselves targets by insulting the lamers in the topics… it’s all quite childish, and I don’t want to be in a room that acts like that… arg… I should just retreat to #13thHour and never leave %)

Anyway… Myk is lying down ’cause his allergies were really bothering him and he took some Benedryl and is sorta out of it now, hehee… he’s in bed so I’ll go snuggle with him for a bit and see if i can make him feel better, hehe *wanders off*

Jimmy Eat World – Table For Glasses

This day has gone by so fast… and I’ve wasted it all screwing around, yay!

Called on a few more houses this morning, found the *cutest* one about 1 1/2 hours away % but it was so perfect we decided to not to rule it out… I called on it today and guess what.. SOLD! This is getting really frustrating… Well at least I know I have good taste in houses right?

My mother called last night, actually.. my little sis Annette ’cause they wanted to know why you needed a credit card to set up an ebay account. Apparently they are trying to sell a truck they have, on ebay, and they dont have a credit card. I told them why they needed it… then offered to let them use my account as long as they made sure to pay me back for the money ebay would charge me for the listing (generally a small percentage of what the item sells for). I guess they’ll get back to me *shrugs* The conversation with my mother was strangely civil though, even after the brief bitching about my father that I managed to cut off rather quickly. Apparently they went on a vacation in Georgia and Tenn and a few other states a few weeks ago.. went to Dollywood (oh boy! heh) and visited with Jerry(my ma’s husband)’s family. I guess they had fun, even tho I know it was incredibly hot. Made it a point to tell me they drove right past philly, thanks mom… and she bitches that i dont see her enough *shakes her head*…I talked to my little sis too… she informed me there are BillBoards in Georgia (they are illegal in Maine, and Maine is all she knows, so they are neat new things to her). She told me that one said “Adult Toys and Videos” she took 4 pictures of it ’cause it was so funny and she wants to show her friends… she is so odd. Also told me that she almost got detention on the first day of school! Ugh.. that’s my little sis… hehe

So Myk invited friends over for fish, cheese and beer… *shrugs* Don’t know if they are coming yet but I suppose I should go clean up just in case they do… not that they’d notice a little dust, lol… I am such a neat freak now, cleaning the place top to bottom at least twice a week… who would have guessed? I was such a slob growing up.. now the only messy place is my desk!

Right, so since it’s already almost 4 I should start doing that noew… *wanders off*

Myk is home from work today, had a lousy night last night and decided to call in *shrugs* He’s still sleeping, poor myn %(

Was looking for houses again yesterday… found 3 really nice promising ones, ONE of which was like PERFECT… called on all three to get an appointment to see the houses, all 3 have been sold already! They weren’t on the market long either, so apparently Myk and I are looking for the most popular types of house, heh. Anyway I dont feel like writing… *wanders off*

She’s In Parties – The Bauhaus

I’m not sure how much I’ve said about this… but Myk and I are trying to find a house. It’s kinda difficult ’cause I don’t have a car so I can’t drive around checking out places while Myk is at work (I might borrow the Jeep someday to doso however..), so I am pretty much confined to looking around on the net. I spent quite a while yesterday looking around and it’s terribly frustrating % For one I don’t really know the area too well, so I am confined to looking in just a few towns I *know* are nice… and we are very picky %) But I think we have to be, since this is going to be the “biggest purchase of our lives” and all, we want the perfect place! Without a 50 year mortgage of course %) We havent contacted a Realtor yet *shrugs* I guess that’ll come if we really have trouble finding something, they do seem nice enough, since it IS their job to please. I’ll look summore today, a friend of mine said Realtor.com was good *shrugs*

We went out for pizza last night… and assuming since it wasn’t a busy night that we’d have a decent time (we usually go on fridays, when it’s packed and we can hardly hear each other speak). Well we were wrong, apparently tuesday nights they put the worst, most inexperienced people on. Ok, we ordered an appitizer right? Comes BEFORE the meal? Of course, everyone knows that! Well they came WITH the pizza, without any dipping sauce, AND half were burnt. We sent them back of course, but it was enough to really spoil the meal. Went to radioshack afterwards to pick up a new alarm clock ’cause the other one broke… had to get it at radioshack ’cause it’s a special little “control center” alarm clock… all the lights in our house that plug into the wall (not overhead lights) are assigned a number and you can turn them on and off with a remote, or the alarm clock.. dim them too, it rocks %) The alarm clock came with these stickers too to help you remember which switches are for what stuff… half of them are stickers of lamps, it’s very silly %)

Anyway, I havent eaten breakfast today, and since I got up kinda early (8 instead of 9) eating breakfast would be good so I dont starve (haha) before lunchtime *wanders off*

Nine Inch Nails – Complication

I had a surprisingly productive day yesterday, so it was a good day for me %) I didnt get much further in the php tutorial, couldnt really focus on that for some reason, but I decided to use my current php knowledge to create one of those quizzes! Yep, and it even works! YAY! I took it myself.. It’s an IRC Addiction Quiz %)


Take the IRC Addiction Quiz!
By PrincessLeia2
. . . www.princessleia.com . . .

This may not be relevant to many ppl reading this.. oh well.

I got an email from my sis, she can keep the chinchillas for now, but she has a really small room and doesnt really want to keep them… I think Myk and I will go up and get them once we get a house (which we hoped would be before the end of the year…) So I’ll have my chillies eventually %) And to respond to a comment.. yeah Dweezle is old %( I didnt realize it, but he was about 2-3 years older than Eve… and Eve was born in ’94… so he’s at least 10 years old. When taken care of well they can live 12-15 years… sorta depressing thinking about it, poor old Dweezle… he’s still the same old crazy chinchilla tho %)

I’m gonna go wander off noew… *wanders*